第 74 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:19      字数:9322
  employment; for fear of creating a bother among the men。
  I left; feeling that I ought to have thought of all this myself; and
  was more than ever perplexed as to whether I had not better let my
  young friend have a few thousand pounds and send him out to the
  colonies; when; on my return home at about five o'clock; I found him
  waiting for me; radiant; and declaring that he had found all he
  wanted。
  CHAPTER LXXI
  It seems he had been patrolling the streets for the last three or
  four nightsI suppose in search of something to doat any rate
  knowing better what he wanted to get than how to get it。
  Nevertheless; what he wanted was in reality so easily to be found
  that it took a highly educated scholar like himself to be unable to
  find it。  But; however this may be; he had been scared; and now saw
  lions where there were none; and was shocked and frightened; and
  night after night his courage had failed him and he had returned to
  his lodgings in Laystall Street without accomplishing his errand。
  He had not taken me into his confidence upon this matter; and I had
  not enquired what he did with himself in the evenings。  At last he
  had concluded that; however painful it might be to him; he would
  call on Mrs Jupp; who he thought would be able to help him if anyone
  could。  He had been walking moodily from seven till about nine; and
  now resolved to go straight to Ashpit Place and make a mother
  confessor of Mrs Jupp without more delay。
  Of all tasks that could be performed by mortal woman there was none
  which Mrs Jupp would have liked better than the one Ernest was
  thinking of imposing upon her; nor do I know that in his scared and
  broken…down state he could have done much better than he now
  proposed。  Miss Jupp would have made it very easy for him to open
  his grief to her; indeed; she would have coaxed it all out of him
  before he knew where he was; but the fates were against Mrs Jupp;
  and the meeting between my hero and his former landlady was
  postponed sine die; for his determination had hardly been formed and
  he had not gone more than a hundred yards in the direction of Mrs
  Jupp's house; when a woman accosted him。
  He was turning from her; as he had turned from so many others; when
  she started back with a movement that aroused his curiosity。  He had
  hardly seen her face; but being determined to catch sight of it;
  followed her as she hurried away; and passed her; then turning round
  he saw that she was none other than Ellen; the housemaid who had
  been dismissed by his mother eight years previously。
  He ought to have assigned Ellen's unwillingness to see him to its
  true cause; but a guilty conscience made him think she had heard of
  his disgrace and was turning away from him in contempt。  Brave as
  had been his resolutions about facing the world; this was more than
  he was prepared for; 〃What! you too shun me; Ellen?〃 he exclaimed。
  The girl was crying bitterly and did not understand him。  〃Oh;
  Master Ernest;〃 she sobbed; 〃let me go; you are too good for the
  likes of me to speak to now。〃
  〃Why; Ellen;〃 said he; 〃what nonsense you talk; you haven't been in
  prison; have you?〃
  〃Oh; no; no; no; not so bad as that;〃 she exclaimed passionately。
  〃Well; I have;〃 said Ernest; with a forced laugh; 〃I came out three
  or four days ago after six months with hard labour。〃
  Ellen did not believe him; but she looked at him with a 〃Lor'!
  Master Ernest;〃 and dried her eyes at once。  The ice was broken
  between them; for as a matter of fact Ellen had been in prison
  several times; and though she did not believe Ernest; his merely
  saying he had been in prison made her feel more at ease with him。
  For her there were two classes of people; those who had been in
  prison and those who had not。  The first she looked upon as fellow…
  creatures and more or less Christians; the second; with few
  exceptions; she regarded with suspicion; not wholly unmingled with
  contempt。
  Then Ernest told her what had happened to him during the last six
  months; and by…and…by she believed him。
  〃Master Ernest;〃 said she; after they had talked for a quarter of an
  hour or so; 〃There's a place over the way where they sell tripe and
  onions。  I know you was always very fond of tripe and onions; let's
  go over and have some; and we can talk better there。〃
  So the pair crossed the street and entered the tripe shop; Ernest
  ordered supper。
  〃And how is your pore dear mamma; and your dear papa; Master
  Ernest;〃 said Ellen; who had now recovered herself and was quite at
  home with my hero。  〃Oh; dear; dear me;〃 she said; 〃I did love your
  pa; he was a good gentleman; he was; and your ma too; it would do
  anyone good to live with her; I'm sure。〃
  Ernest was surprised and hardly knew what to say。  He had expected
  to find Ellen indignant at the way she had been treated; and
  inclined to lay the blame of her having fallen to her present state
  at his father's and mother's door。  It was not so。  Her only
  recollection of Battersby was as of a place where she had had plenty
  to eat and drink; not too much hard work; and where she had not been
  scolded。  When she heard that Ernest had quarrelled with his father
  and mother she assumed as a matter of course that the fault must lie
  entirely with Ernest。
  〃Oh; your pore; pore ma!〃 said Ellen。  〃She was always so very fond
  of you; Master Ernest:  you was always her favourite; I can't abear
  to think of anything between you and her。  To think now of the way
  she used to have me into the dining…room and teach me my catechism;
  that she did!  Oh; Master Ernest; you really must go and make it all
  up with her; indeed you must。〃
  Ernest felt rueful; but he had resisted so valiantly already that
  the devil might have saved himself the trouble of trying to get at
  him through Ellen in the matter of his father and mother。  He
  changed the subject; and the pair warmed to one another as they had
  their tripe and pots of beer。  Of all people in the world Ellen was
  perhaps the one to whom Ernest could have spoken most freely at this
  juncture。  He told her what he thought he could have told to no one
  else。
  〃You know; Ellen;〃 he concluded; 〃I had learnt as a boy things that
  I ought not to have learnt; and had never had a chance of that which
  would have set me straight。〃
  〃Gentlefolks is always like that;〃 said Ellen musingly。
  〃I believe you are right; but I am no longer a gentleman; Ellen; and
  I don't see why I should be 'like that' any longer; my dear。  I want
  you to help me to be like something else as soon as possible。〃
  〃Lor'! Master Ernest; whatever can you be meaning?〃
  The pair soon afterwards left the eating…house and walked up Fetter
  Lane together。
  Ellen had had hard times since she had left Battersby; but they had
  left little trace upon her。
  Ernest saw only the fresh…looking smiling face; the dimpled cheek;
  the clear blue eyes and lovely sphinx…like lips which he had
  remembered as a boy。  At nineteen she had looked older than she was;
  now she looked much younger; indeed she looked hardly older than
  when Ernest had last seen her; and it would have taken a man of much
  greater experience than he possessed to suspect how completely she
  had fallen from her first estate。  It never occurred to him that the
  poor condition of her wardrobe was due to her passion for ardent
  spirits; and that first and last she had served five or six times as
  much time in gaol as he had。  He ascribed the poverty of her attire
  to the attempts to keep herself respectable; which Ellen during
  supper had more than once alluded to。  He had been charmed with the
  way in which she had declared that a pint of beer would make her
  tipsy; and had only allowed herself to be forced into drinking the
  whole after a good deal of remonstrance。  To him she appeared a very
  angel dropped from the sky; and all the more easy to get on with for
  being a fallen one。
  As he walked up Fetter Lane with her towards Laystall Street; he
  thought of the wonderful goodness of God towards him in throwing in
  his way the very person of all others whom he was most glad to see;
  and whom; of all others; in spite of her living so near him; he
  might have never fallen in with but for a happy accident。
  When people get it into their heads that they are being specially
  favoured by the Almighty; they had better as a general rule mind
  their p's and q's; and when they think they see the devil's drift
  with more special clearness; let them remember that he has had much
  more experience than they have; and is probably meditating mischief。
  Already during supper the thought that in Ellen at last he had found
  a woman whom he could love well enough to wish to live with and
  marry had flitted across his mind; and the more they had chatted the
  more reasons kept suggesting themselves for thinking that what might
  be folly in ordinary cases would not be folly in his。
  He must marry someone; that was already settled。  He could not marry
  a lady; that was absurd。  He must marry a poor woman。  Yes; but a
  fallen one?  Was he not fallen himself?  Ellen would fall no more。
  He had only to look at her to be sure of this。  He could not live
  with her in sin; not for more than the shortest time that could
  elapse before t