第 68 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:19      字数:9322
  advantageously upon the viler soul of the prison chaplain。  It was
  only those who took the first and most obvious step in their power
  who ever did great things in the end; so one day; when Mr Hughes
  for this was the chaplain's namewas talking with him; Ernest
  introduced the question of Christian evidences; and tried to raise a
  discussion upon them。  Mr Hughes had been very kind to him; but he
  was more than twice my hero's age; and had long taken the measure of
  such objections as Ernest tried to put before him。  I do not suppose
  he believed in the actual objective truth of the stories about
  Christ's Resurrection and Ascension any more than Ernest did; but he
  knew that this was a small matter; and that the real issue lay much
  deeper than this。
  Mr Hughes was a man who had been in authority for many years; and he
  brushed Ernest on one side as if he had been a fly。  He did it so
  well that my hero never ventured to tackle him again; and confined
  his conversation with him for the future to such matters as what he
  had better do when he got out of prison; and here Mr Hughes was ever
  ready to listen to him with sympathy and kindness。
  CHAPTER LXVI
  Ernest was now so far convalescent as to be able to sit up for the
  greater part of the day。  He had been three months in prison; and;
  though not strong enough to leave the infirmary; was beyond all fear
  of a relapse。  He was talking one day with Mr Hughes about his
  future; and again expressed his intention of emigrating to Australia
  or New Zealand with the money he should recover from Pryer。
  Whenever he spoke of this he noticed that Mr Hughes looked grave and
  was silent:  he had thought that perhaps the chaplain wanted him to
  return to his profession; and disapproved of his evident anxiety to
  turn to something else; now; however; he asked Mr Hughes point blank
  why it was that he disapproved of his idea of emigrating。
  Mr Hughes endeavoured to evade him; but Ernest was not to be put
  off。  There was something in the chaplain's manner which suggested
  that he knew more than Ernest did; but did not like to say it。  This
  alarmed him so much that he begged him not to keep him in suspense;
  after a little hesitation Mr Hughes; thinking him now strong enough
  to stand it; broke the news as gently as he could that the whole of
  Ernest's money had disappeared。
  The day after my return from Battersby I called on my solicitor; and
  was told that he had written to Pryer; requiring him to refund the
  monies for which he had given his I。O。U。's。  Pryer replied that he
  had given orders to his broker to close his operations; which
  unfortunately had resulted so far in heavy loss; and that the
  balance should be paid to my solicitor on the following settling
  day; then about a week distant。  When the time came; we heard
  nothing from Pryer; and going to his lodgings found that he had left
  with his few effects on the very day after he had heard from us; and
  had not been seen since。
  I had heard from Ernest the name of the broker who had been
  employed; and went at once to see him。  He told me Pryer had closed
  all his accounts for cash on the day that Ernest had been sentenced;
  and had received 2315 pounds; which was all that remained of
  Ernest's original 5000 pounds。  With this he had decamped; nor had
  we enough clue as to his whereabouts to be able to take any steps to
  recover the money。  There was in fact nothing to be done but to
  consider the whole as lost。  I may say here that neither I nor
  Ernest ever heard of Pryer again; nor have any idea what became of
  him。
  This placed me in a difficult position。  I knew; of course; that in
  a few years Ernest would have many times over as much money as he
  had lost; but I knew also that he did not know this; and feared that
  the supposed loss of all he had in the world might be more than he
  could stand when coupled with his other misfortunes。
  The prison authorities had found Theobald's address from a letter in
  Ernest's pocket; and had communicated with him more than once
  concerning his son's illness; but Theobald had not written to me;
  and I supposed my godson to be in good health。  He would be just
  twenty…four years old when he left prison; and if I followed out his
  aunt's instructions; would have to battle with fortune for another
  four years as well as he could。  The question before me was whether
  it was right to let him run so much risk; or whether I should not to
  some extent transgress my instructionswhich there was nothing to
  prevent my doing if I thought Miss Pontifex would have wished it
  and let him have the same sum that he would have recovered from
  Pryer。
  If my godson had been an older man; and more fixed in any definite
  groove; this is what I should have done; but he was still very
  young; and more than commonly unformed for his age。  If; again; I
  had known of his illness I should not have dared to lay any heavier
  burden on his back than he had to bear already; but not being uneasy
  about his health; I thought a few years of roughing it and of
  experience concerning the importance of not playing tricks with
  money would do him no harm。  So I decided to keep a sharp eye upon
  him as soon as he came out of prison; and to let him splash about in
  deep water as best he could till I saw whether he was able to swim;
  or was about to sink。  In the first case I would let him go on
  swimming till he was nearly eight…and…twenty; when I would prepare
  him gradually for the good fortune that awaited him; in the second I
  would hurry up to the rescue。  So I wrote to say that Pryer had
  absconded; and that he could have 100 pounds from his father when he
  came out of prison。  I then waited to see what effect these tidings
  would have; not expecting to receive an answer for three months; for
  I had been told on enquiry that no letter could be received by a
  prisoner till after he had been three months in gaol。  I also wrote
  to Theobald and told him of Pryer's disappearance。
  As a matter of fact; when my letter arrived the governor of the gaol
  read it; and in a case of such importance would have relaxed the
  rules if Ernest's state had allowed it; his illness prevented this;
  and the governor left it to the chaplain and the doctor to break the
  news to him when they thought him strong enough to bear it; which
  was now the case。  In the meantime I received a formal official
  document saying that my letter had been received and would be
  communicated to the prisoner in due course; I believe it was simply
  through a mistake on the part of a clerk that I was not informed of
  Ernest's illness; but I heard nothing of it till I saw him by his
  own desire a few days after the chaplin had broken to him the
  substance of what I had written。
  Ernest was terribly shocked when he heard of the loss of his money;
  but his ignorance of the world prevented him from seeing the full
  extent of the mischief。  He had never been in serious want of money
  yet; and did not know what it meant。  In reality; money losses are
  the hardest to bear of any by those who are old enough to comprehend
  them。
  A man can stand being told that he must submit to a severe surgical
  operation; or that he has some disease which will shortly kill him;
  or that he will be a cripple or blind for the rest of his life;
  dreadful as such tidings must be; we do not find that they unnerve
  the greater number of mankind; most men; indeed; go coolly enough
  even to be hanged; but the strongest quail before financial ruin;
  and the better men they are; the more complete; as a general rule;
  is their prostration。  Suicide is a common consequence of money
  losses; it is rarely sought as a means of escape from bodily
  suffering。  If we feel that we have a competence at our backs; so
  that we can die warm and quietly in our beds; with no need to worry
  about expense; we live our lives out to the dregs; no matter how
  excruciating our torments。  Job probably felt the loss of his flocks
  and herds more than that of his wife and family; for he could enjoy
  his flocks and herds without his family; but not his familynot for
  longif he had lost all his money。  Loss of money indeed is not
  only the worst pain in itself; but it is the parent of all others。
  Let a man have been brought up to a moderate competence; and have no
  specially; then let his money be suddenly taken from him; and how
  long is his health likely to survive the change in all his little
  ways which loss of money will entail?  How long again is the esteem
  and sympathy of friends likely to survive ruin?  People may be very
  sorry for us; but their attitude towards us hitherto has been based
  upon the supposition that we were situated thus or thus in money
  matters; when this breaks down there must be a restatement of the
  social problem so far as we are concerned; we have been obtaining
  esteem under false pretences。  Granted; then; that the three most
  serious losses which a man can suffer are those affecting money;
  health and reputation。  Loss of money is far the worst; then comes
  ill…health; and then loss of reputation; loss of reputation is a bad
  third; for; if a man keeps health and money unimpaired; it will be
  generally found that his loss of reputation is due to breaches of
  parven