第 25 节
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  several natural children〃 he had therefore asked his governess what
  a natural child waswere not all children natural?
  〃Oh; my dear;〃 said she; 〃a natural child is a child a person has
  before he is married。〃  On this it seemed to follow logically that
  if John of Gaunt had had children before he was married; he; Ernest
  Pontifex; might have them also; and he would be obliged to me if I
  would tell him what he had better do under the circumstances。
  I enquired how long ago he had made this discovery。  He said about a
  fortnight; and he did not know where to look for the child; for it
  might come at any moment。  〃You know;〃 he said; 〃babies come so
  suddenly; one goes to bed one night and next morning there is a
  baby。  Why; it might die of cold if we are not on the look…out for
  it。  I hope it will be a boy。〃
  〃And you have told your governess about this?〃
  〃Yes; but she puts me off and does not help me:  she says it will
  not come for many years; and she hopes not then。〃
  〃Are you quite sure that you have not made any mistake in all this?〃
  〃Oh; no; because Mrs Burne; you know; called here a few days ago;
  and I was sent for to be looked at。  And mamma held me out at arm's
  length and said; 'Is he Mr Pontifex's child; Mrs Burne; or is he
  mine?'  Of course; she couldn't have said this if papa had not had
  some of the children himself。  I did think the gentleman had all the
  boys and the lady all the girls; but it can't be like this; or else
  mamma would not have asked Mrs Burne to guess; but then Mrs Burne
  said; 'Oh; he's Mr Pontifex's child OF COURSE;' and I didn't quite
  know what she meant by saying 'of course':  it seemed as though I
  was right in thinking that the husband has all the boys and the wife
  all the girls; I wish you would explain to me all about it。〃
  This I could hardly do; so I changed the conversation; after
  reassuring him as best I could。
  CHAPTER XXV
  Three or four years after the birth of her daughter; Christina had
  had one more child。  She had never been strong since she married;
  and had a presentiment that she should not survive this last
  confinement。  She accordingly wrote the following letter; which was
  to be given; as she endorsed upon it; to her sons when Ernest was
  sixteen years old。  It reached him on his mother's death many years
  later; for it was the baby who died now; and not Christina。  It was
  found among papers which she had repeatedly and carefully arranged;
  with the seal already broken。  This; I am afraid; shows that
  Christina had read it and thought it too creditable to be destroyed
  when the occasion that had called it forth had gone by。  It is as
  follows …
  〃BATTERSBY; March 15th; 1841。
  〃My Two Dear Boys;When this is put into your hands will you try to
  bring to mind the mother whom you lost in your childhood; and whom;
  I fear; you will almost have forgotten?  You; Ernest; will remember
  her best; for you are past five years old; and the many; many times
  that she has taught you your prayers and hymns and sums and told you
  stories; and our happy Sunday evenings will not quite have passed
  from your mind; and you; Joey; though only four; will perhaps
  recollect some of these things。  My dear; dear boys; for the sake of
  that mother who loved you very dearlyand for the sake of your own
  happiness for ever and everattend to and try to remember; and from
  time to time read over again the last words she can ever speak to
  you。  When I think about leaving you all; two things press heavily
  upon me:  one; your father's sorrow (for you; my darlings; after
  missing me a little while; will soon forget your loss); the other;
  the everlasting welfare of my children。  I know how long and deep
  the former will be; and I know that he will look to his children to
  be almost his only earthly comfort。  You know (for I am certain that
  it will have been so); how he has devoted his life to you and taught
  you and laboured to lead you to all that is right and good。  Oh;
  then; be sure that you ARE his comforts。  Let him find you obedient;
  affectionate and attentive to his wishes; upright; self…denying and
  diligent; let him never blush for or grieve over the sins and
  follies of those who owe him such a debt of gratitude; and whose
  first duty it is to study his happiness。  You have both of you a
  name which must not be disgraced; a father and a grandfather of whom
  to show yourselves worthy; your respectability and well…doing in
  life rest mainly with yourselves; but far; far beyond earthly
  respectability and well…doing; and compared with which they are as
  nothing; your eternal happiness rests with yourselves。  You know
  your duty; but snares and temptations from without beset you; and
  the nearer you approach to manhood the more strongly will you feel
  this。  With God's help; with God's word; and with humble hearts you
  will stand in spite of everything; but should you leave off seeking
  in earnest for the first; and applying to the second; should you
  learn to trust in yourselves; or to the advice and example of too
  many around you; you will; you must fall。  Oh; 'let God be true and
  every man a liar。'  He says you cannot serve Him and Mammon。  He
  says that strait is the gate that leads to eternal life。  Many there
  are who seek to widen it; they will tell you that such and such
  self…indulgences are but venial offencesthat this and that worldly
  compliance is excusable and even necessary。  The thing CANNOT BE;
  for in a hundred and a hundred places He tells you solook to your
  Bibles and seek there whether such counsel is trueand if not; oh;
  'halt not between two opinions;' if God is the Lord follow Him; only
  be strong and of a good courage; and He will never leave you nor
  forsake you。  Remember; there is not in the Bible one law for the
  rich; and one for the poorone for the educated and one for the
  ignorant。  To ALL there is but one thing needful。  ALL are to be
  living to God and their fellow…creatures; and not to themselves。
  ALL must seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousnessmust
  DENY THEMSELVES; be pure and chaste and charitable in the fullest
  and widest senseall; 'forgetting those things that are behind;'
  must 'press forward towards the mark; for the prize of the high
  calling of God。'
  〃And now I will add but two things more。  Be true through life to
  each other; love as only brothers should do; strengthen; warn;
  encourage one another; and let who will be against you; let each
  feel that in his brother he has a firm and faithful friend who will
  be so to the end; and; oh! be kind and watchful over your dear
  sister; without mother or sisters she will doubly need her brothers'
  love and tenderness and confidence。  I am certain she will seek
  them; and will love you and try to make you happy; be sure then that
  you do not fail her; and remember; that were she to lose her father
  and remain unmarried; she would doubly need protectors。  To you;
  then; I especially commend her。  Oh! my three darling children; be
  true to each other; your Father; and your God。  May He guide and
  bless you; and grant that in a better and happier world I and mine
  may meet again。Your most affectionate mother;
  CHRISTINA PONTIFEX。〃
  From enquiries I have made; I have satisfied myself that most
  mothers write letters like this shortly before their confinements;
  and that fifty per cent。 keep them afterwards; as Christina did。
  CHAPTER XXVI
  The foregoing letter shows how much greater was Christina's anxiety
  for the eternal than for the temporal welfare of her sons。  One
  would have thought she had sowed enough of such religious wild oats
  by this time; but she had plenty still to sow。  To me it seems that
  those who are happy in this world are better and more lovable people
  than those who are not; and that thus in the event of a Resurrection
  and Day of Judgement; they will be the most likely to be deemed
  worthy of a heavenly mansion。  Perhaps a dim unconscious perception
  of this was the reason why Christina was so anxious for Theobald's
  earthly happiness; or was it merely due to a conviction that his
  eternal welfare was so much a matter of course; that it only
  remained to secure his earthly happiness?  He was to 〃find his sons
  obedient; affectionate; attentive to his wishes; self…denying and
  diligent;〃 a goodly string forsooth of all the virtues most
  convenient to parents; he was never to have to blush for the follies
  of those 〃who owed him such a debt of gratitude;〃 and 〃whose first
  duty it was to study his happiness。〃  How like maternal solicitude
  is this!  Solicitude for the most part lest the offspring should
  come to have wishes and feelings of its own; which may occasion many
  difficulties; fancied or real。  It is this that is at the bottom of
  the whole mischief; but whether this last proposition is granted or
  no; at any rate we observe that Christina had a sufficiently keen
  appreciation of the duties of children towards their parents; and
  felt the task of fulfilling them adequately to be so difficult that
  she was very doubtful how far Ernest and Joey would succeed in
  mastering it。  It is plain in fact that her supposed parting glance
  upon them was one of suspicion。  But there was no suspicion of
  Theobald; that he sh