第 6 节
作者:热带雨淋      更新:2021-02-20 05:18      字数:9322
  is an Entity; a Soul…Entity; as yet unrecognised。 These; rudely expressed;
  constitute my Fourth Idea。 It is beyond; or beside; the three discovered by
  the Cavemen; it is in addition to the existence of the soul; in addition to
  immortality; and beyond the idea of the deity。 I think there is something
  more than existence。
  There is an immense ocean over which the mind can sail; upon which the
  vessel of thought has not yet been launched。 I hope
  to launch it。 The mind of so many thousand years has worked
  round and round inside the circle of these three ideas as a
  boat on an inland lake。 Let us haul it over the belt of land;
  launch on the ocean; and sail outwards。
  There is so much beyond all that has ever yet been imagined。
  As I write these words; in the very moment; I feel that the
  whole air; the sunshine out yonder lighting up the
  ploughed earth; the distant sky; the circumambient ether; and
  that far space; is full of soul…secrets; soul…life; things
  outside the experience of all the ages。 The fact of my own
  existence as I write; as I exist at this second; is so
  marvellous; so miracle…like; strange; and supernatural to me;
  that I unhesitatingly conclude I am always on the margin of life
  illimitable; and that there are higher conditions than
  existence。  Everything around is supernatural; everything so
  full of unexplained meaning。
  Twelve thousand years since the Caveman stood at the mouth of his cavern and
  gazed out at the night and the stars。 He looked again and saw the sun rise
  beyond the sea。 He reposed in the noontide heat under the shade of the
  trees; he closed his eyes and looked into himself。  He was face to face with
  the earth; the sun; the night; face to face with himself。 There was nothing
  between; no wall of written tradition; no builtup system of
  culturehis naked mind was confronted by naked earth。 He made
  three idea…discoveries; wresting them from the unknown; the
  existence of his soul; immortality; the deity。 Now; to…day; as
  I write; I stand in exactly the same position as the Caveman。
  Written tradition; systems of culture; modes of thought; have
  for me no existence。 If ever they took any hold of my mind it
  must have been very slight; they have long ago been erased。
  》From earth and sea and sun; from night; the stars; from day;
  the trees; the hills; from my own soulfrom these I think。 I
  stand this moment at the mouth of the ancient cave; face to face with
  nature; face to face with the supernatural; with myself。 My naked mind
  confronts the unknown。 I see as clearly as the noonday that this is not all;
  I see other and higher conditions than existence; I see not only the
  existence of the soul; immortality; but; in addition; I realise a soul…life
  illimitable; I realise the existence of a cosmos of thought; I
  realise the existence of an inexpressible entity infinitely
  higher than deity。 I strive to give utterance to a Fourth Idea。
  The very idea that there is another idea is something gained。
  The three found by the Cavemen are but steppingstones: first
  links of an endless chain。 At the mouth of the ancient cave;
  face to face with the unknown; they prayed。 Prone in heart to…
  day I pray; Give me the deepest soul…life。
  CHAPTER IV
  THE wind sighs through the grass; sighs in the sunshine; it has
  drifted the butterfly eastwards along the hill。 A few yards
  away there lies the skull of a lamb on the turf; white and
  bleached; picked clean long since by crows and ants。 Like the
  faint ripple of the summer sea sounding in the hollow of the
  ear; so the sweet air ripples in the grass。 The ashes of the
  man interred in the tumuius are indistinguishable; they have
  sunk away like rain into the earth; so his body has disappeared。
  I am under no delusion; I am fully aware that no demonstration can be given
  of the three stepping…stones of the Cavemen。 The soul is inscrutable; it is
  not in evidence to show that it exists; immortality is not tangible。 Full
  well I know that
  reason and knowledge and experience tend to disprove all three;
  that experience denies answer to prayer。 I am under no delusion
  whatever; I grasp death firmly in conception as I can grasp this
  bleached bone; utter extinction; annihilation。 That the soul is
  a product at best of organic composition; that it goes out like
  a flame。 This may be the end; my soul may sink like rain into
  the earth and disappear。 Wind and earth; sea; and night and
  day; what then? Let my soul be but a product; what then? I say it is nothing
  to me; this only I know; that while I have livednow; this moment; while I
  liveI think immortality; I lift my mind to a Fourth Idea。  If I pass into
  utter oblivion; yet I have had that。
  The original three ideas of the Cavemen became encumbered with
  superstition; ritual grew up; and ceremony; and long ranks of
  souls were painted on papyri waiting to be weighed in the scales;and to be
  punished or rewarded。 These cobwebs grotesque have sullied the original
  discoveries and cast them
  into discredit。 Erase them altogether; and consider only the underlying
  principles。 The principles do not go far enough; but I shall not discard all
  of them for that。 Even supposing the pure principles to be illusions; and
  annihilation the end; even then it is betterit is something gained to have
  thought them。 Thought is life; to have thought them is to have lived them。
  Accepting two of them as true in principle; then I say that these are but
  the threshold。 For twelve thousand years no effort
  has been made to get beyond that threshold。 These are but the primer of
  soul…life; the merest hieroglyphics chipped out; a little shape given to the
  unknown。
  Not to…morrow but to…day。 Not the to…morrow of the tumulus; the hour of the
  sunshine now。 This moment give me to live soul…life; not only after death。
  Now is eternity; now I am in the
  midst of immortality; now the supernatural crowds around me。 Open my mind;
  give my soul to see; let me live it now on earth; while I hear the burring
  of the larger bees; the sweet air in the grass; and watch the yellow wheat
  wave beneath me。 Sun and earth and sea; night and daythese are the least
  of things。  Give me soul…life。
  There is nothing human in nature。 The earth; though loved so dearly; would
  let me perish on the ground; and neither bring forth food nor water。 Burning
  in the sky the great sun; of whose company I have been so fond; would merely
  burn on and make no motion to assist me。 Those who have been in an open boat
  at sea without water have proved the mercies of the sun; and
  of the deity who did not give them one drop of rain; dying
  in misery under the same rays that smile so beautifully on the flowers。 In
  the south the sun is the enemy; night and coolness and rain are the friends
  of man。 As for the sea; it offers us salt water which we cannot drink。 The
  trees care nothing for us; the hill I visited so often in days gone by has
  not missed me。 The sun scorches man; and willing his naked state roast him
  alive。 The sea and the fresh water alike make no effort to
  uphold him if his vessel founders; he casts up his arms in vain; they come
  to their level over his head; filling the spot his body occupied。 If he
  falls from a cliff the air parts; the earth beneath dashes him to pieces。
  Water he can drink; but it is not produced for him; how many thousands have
  perished for want of it? Some fruits are produced which he can eat; but they
  do not produce themselves for him; merely for the purpose of continuing
  their species。 In wild; tropical countries; at the first glance there
  appears to be some consideration for him; but it is on the surface only。 The
  lion pounces on him; the rhinoceros crushes him; the serpent bites; insects
  torture; diseases rack him。 Disease worked its dreary will even among the
  flower…crowned Polynesians。 Returning to our
  own country; this very thyme which scents my fingers did not grow for that
  purpose; but for its own。 So does the wheat beneath; we utilise it; but its
  original and native purpose was for itself。 By night it is the same as by
  day; the stars care not; they pursue their courses revolving; and we are
  nothing to them。 There is nothing human in the whole round of nature。
  All nature; all the universe that we can see; is absolutely indifferent to
  us; and except to us human life is of no more value than grass。 If the
  entire human race perished at this hour; what difference would it make to
  the
  earth?  What would the earth care? As much as for the extinct dodo; or for
  the fate of the elephant now going。
  On the contrary; a great part; perhaps the whole; of nature and
  of the universe is distinctly anti…human。 The term inhuman does
  not express my meaning; anti…human is better; outre…human; in
  the sense of beyond; outside; almost grotesque in its attitude
  towards; would nearly convey it。 Everything is anti…human。 How
  extraordinary; strange; and incomprehensible are the creatures
  captured out of the depths of the sea! The distorted fishes; the ghastly
  cuttles; the hideous eel…like shapes; the crawling shell…encrusted things;
  the centipede…like beings; monstrous
  forms; to see which gives a shock to the brain。 They shock the
  mind because they exhibit an absence of design。  There is no
  idea in them。
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