第 31 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-20 04:45      字数:9322
  ten handsome ones there must be; and at last decided she
  could arrange for them。  The green dress came first。
  The lights would be dim in the scene; and the setting
  deep woods。  She could manage that。  She simply could not
  have three dresses。  She would have to get a very simple one
  for the sermon and do the best she could for graduation。
  Whatever she got for that must be made with a guimpe that
  could be taken out to make it a little more festive for
  the ball。  But where could she get even two pretty dresses?
  The only hope she could see was to break into the collection
  of the man from India; sell some moths; and try to replace
  them in June。  But in her soul she knew that never
  would do。  No June ever brought just the things she
  hoped it would。  If she spent the college money she knew
  she could not replace it。  If she did not; the only way was
  to secure a room in the grades and teach a year。  Her work
  there had been so appreciated that Elnora felt with
  the recommendation she knew she could get from the
  superintendent and teachers she could secure a position。
  She was sure she could pass the examinations easily。
  She had once gone on Saturday; taken them and secured a
  license for a year before she left the Brushwood school。
  She wanted to start to college when the other girls were going。
  If she could make the first year alone; she could manage
  the remainder。  But make that first year herself; she must。
  Instead of selling any of her collection; she must hunt
  as she never before had hunted and find a Yellow Emperor。
  She had to have it; that was all。  Also; she had to have
  those dresses。  She thought of Wesley and dismissed it。
  She thought of the Bird Woman; and knew she could not
  tell her。  She thought of every way in which she ever had
  hoped to earn money and realized that with the play;
  committee meetings; practising; and final examinations
  she scarcely had time to live; much less to do more than
  the work required for her pictures and gifts。  Again Elnora
  was in trouble; and this time it seemed the worst of all。
  It was dark when she arose and went home。
  〃Mother;〃 she said; 〃I have a piece of news that is
  decidedly not cheerful。〃
  〃Then keep it to yourself!〃 said Mrs。 Comstock。  〃I think
  I have enough to bear without a great girl like you
  piling trouble on me。〃
  〃My money is all gone!〃 said Elnora。
  〃Well; did you think it would last forever?  It's been
  a marvel to me that it's held out as well as it has; the way
  you've dressed and gone。〃
  〃I don't think I've spent any that I was not compelled
  to;〃 said Elnora。  〃I've dressed on just as little as I
  possibly could to keep going。  I am heartsick。  I thought
  I had over fifty dollars to put me through Commencement;
  but they tell me it is all gone。〃
  〃Fifty dollars!  To put you through Commencement!
  What on earth are you proposing to do?〃
  〃The same as the rest of them; in the very cheapest
  way possible。〃
  〃And what might that be?〃
  Elnora omitted the photographs; the gifts and the play。
  She told only of the sermon; graduation exercises; and the ball。
  〃Well; I wouldn't trouble myself over that;〃 sniffed
  Mrs。 Comstock。  〃If you want to go to a sermon; put on
  the dress you always use for meeting。  If you need white
  for the exercises wear the new dress you got last spring。
  As for the ball; the best thing for you to do is to stay a
  mile away from such folly。  In my opinion you'd best
  bring home your books; and quit right now。  You can't
  be fixed like the rest of them; don't be so foolish
  as to run into it。  Just stay here and let these last few
  days go。  You can't learn enough more to be of any account。〃
  〃But; mother;〃 gasped Elnora。  〃You don't understand!〃
  〃Oh; yes; I do!〃 said Mrs。 Comstock。  〃I understand perfectly。
  So long as the money lasted; you held up your head;
  and went sailing without even explaining how you got it
  from the stuff you gathered。  Goodness knows I couldn't see。
  But now it's gone; you come whining to me。  What have I got?
  Have you forgot that the ditch and the road completely
  strapped me?  I haven't any money。  There's nothing for you
  to do but get out of it。〃
  〃I can't!〃 said Elnora desperately。  〃I've gone on too long。
  It would make a break in everything。  They wouldn't let me
  have my diploma!〃
  〃What's the difference?  You've got the stuff in your head。
  I wouldn't give a rap for a scrap of paper。  That don't
  mean anything!〃
  〃But I've worked four years for it; and I can't enter
  I ought to have it to help me get a school; when I want
  to teach。  If I don't have my grades to show; people
  will think I quit because I couldn't pass my examinations。
  I must have my diploma!〃
  〃Then get it!〃 said Mrs。 Comstock。
  〃The only way is to graduate with the others。〃
  〃Well; graduate if you are bound to!〃
  〃But I can't; unless I have things enough like the
  class; that I don't look as I did that first day。〃
  〃Well; please remember I didn't get you into this;
  and I can't get you out。  You are set on having your
  own way。  Go on; and have it; and see how you like it!〃
  Elnora went upstairs and did not come down again
  that night; which her mother called pouting。
  〃I've thought all night;〃 said the girl at breakfast;
  〃and I can't see any way but to borrow the money of
  Uncle Wesley and pay it back from some that the Bird
  Woman will owe me; when I get one more specimen。
  But that means that I can't go tothat I will have to
  teach this winter; if I can get a city grade or a
  country school。〃
  〃Just you dare go dinging after Wesley Sinton for money;〃
  cried Mrs。 Comstock。  〃You won't do any such a thing!〃
  〃I can't see any other way。  I've got to have the money!〃
  〃Quit; I tell you!〃
  〃I can't quit!I've gone too far!〃
  〃Well then; let me get your clothes; and you can pay
  me back。〃
  〃But you said you had no money!〃
  〃Maybe I can borrow some at the bank。  Then you
  can return it when the Bird Woman pays you。〃
  〃All right;〃 said Elnora。  〃I don't need expensive things。
  Just some kind of a pretty cheap white dress for the sermon;
  and a white one a little better than I had last summer;
  for Commencement and the ball。  I can use the white
  gloves and shoes I got myself for last year; and you can
  get my dress made at the same place you did that one。
  They have my measurements; and do perfect work。
  Don't get expensive things。  It will be warm so I can
  go bareheaded。〃
  Then she started to school; but was so tired and
  discouraged she scarcely could walk。  Four years' plans
  going in one day!  For she felt that if she did not start
  to college that fall she never would。  Instead of feeling
  relieved at her mother's offer; she was almost too ill to
  go on。  For the thousandth time she groaned:  〃Oh; why
  didn't I keep account of my money?〃
  After that the days passed so swiftly she scarcely had
  time to think; but several trips her mother made to town;
  and the assurance that everything was all right;
  satisfied Elnora。  She worked very hard to pass good
  final examinations and perfect herself for the play。
  For two days she had remained in town with the Bird Woman
  in order to spend more time practising and at her work。
  Often Margaret had asked about her dresses for graduation;
  and Elnora had replied that they were with a woman in the
  city who had made her a white dress for last year's
  Commencement when she was a junior usher; and they would
  be all right。  So Margaret; Wesley; and Billy concerned
  themselves over what they would give her for a present。
  Margaret suggested a beautiful dress。  Wesley said that
  would look to every one as if she needed dresses。
  The thing was to get a handsome gift like all the others
  would have。  Billy wanted to present her a five…dollar gold
  piece to buy music for her violin。  He was positive Elnora
  would like that best of anything。
  It was toward the close of the term when they drove to
  town one evening to try to settle this important question。
  They knew Mrs。 Comstock had been alone several days;
  so they asked her to accompany them。  She had
  been more lonely than she would admit; filled with unusual
  unrest besides; and so she was glad to go。  But before
  they had driven a mile Billy had told that they were going
  to buy Elnora a graduation present; and Mrs。 Comstock
  devoutly wished that she had remained at home。  She was
  prepared when Billy asked:  〃Aunt Kate; what are you going
  to give Elnora when she graduates?〃
  〃Plenty to eat; a good bed to sleep in; and do all
  the work while she trollops;〃 answered Mrs。 Comstock dryly。
  Billy reflected。  〃I guess all of them have that;〃 he said。
  〃I mean a present you buy at the store; like Christmas?〃
  〃It is only rich folks who buy presents at stores;〃
  replied Mrsstock。 〃I can't afford it。〃
  〃Well; we ain't rich;〃 he