第 4 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-20 04:44      字数:9322
  her out at the edge of that quagmire calling in them
  wild spells of hers off and on for the last sixteen years;
  and imploring the swamp to give him back to her; and
  I've got out of bed when I was pretty tired; and come
  down to see she didn't go in herself; or harm you。  What
  she feels is too deep for me。  I've got to respectin' her
  grief; and I can't get over it。  Go home and tell your
  ma; honey; and ask her nice and kind to help you。  If she
  won't; then you got to swallow that little lump of
  pride in your neck; and come to Aunt Maggie; like you
  been a…coming all your life。〃
  〃I'll ask mother; but I can't take your money; Uncle
  Wesley; indeed I can't。  I'll wait a year; and earn some;
  and enter next year。〃
  〃There's one thing you don't consider; Elnora;〃 said
  the man earnestly。  〃And that's what you are to Maggie。
  She's a little like your ma。  She hasn't given up to it;
  and she's struggling on brave; but when we buried our
  second little girl the light went out of Maggie's eyes; and
  it's not come back。  The only time I ever see a hint of
  it is when she thinks she's done something that makes you
  happy; Elnora。  Now; you go easy about refusing her
  anything she wants to do for you。  There's times in this
  world when it's our bounden duty to forget ourselves; and
  think what will help other people。  Young woman; you
  owe me and Maggie all the comfort we can get out of you。
  There's the two of our own we can't ever do anything for。
  Don't you get the idea into your head that a fool thing
  you call pride is going to cut us out of all the pleasure
  we have in life beside ourselves。〃
  〃Uncle Wesley; you are a dear;〃 said Elnora。  〃Just a dear!
  If I can't possibly get that money any way else on earth;
  I'll come and borrow it of you; and then I'll pay it
  back if I must dig ferns from the swamp and sell them
  from door to door in the city。  I'll even plant them;
  so that they will be sure to come up in the spring。  I have
  been sort of panic stricken all day and couldn't think。
  I can gather nuts and sell them。  Freckles sold moths
  and butterflies; and I've a lot collected。  Of course;
  I am going back to…morrow!  I can find a way to get the books。
  Don't you worry about me。  I am all right!
  〃Now; what do you think of that?〃 inquired Wesley
  Sinton of the swamp in general。  〃Here's our Elnora
  come back to stay。  Head high and right as a trivet!
  You've named three ways in three minutes that you
  could earn ten dollars; which I figure would be enough;
  to start you。  Let's go to supper and stop worrying!〃
  Elnora unlocked the case; took out the pail; put the
  napkin in it; pulled the ribbon from her hair; binding it
  down tightly again and followed to the road。  From afar
  she could see her mother in the doorway。  She blinked
  her eyes; and tried to smile as she answered Wesley
  Sinton; and indeed she did feel better。  She knew now
  what she had to expect; where to go; and what to do。
  Get the books she must; when she had them; she would show
  those city girls and boys how to prepare and recite lessons;
  how to walk with a brave heart; and they could show her
  how to wear pretty clothes and have good times。
  As she neared the door her mother reached for the pail。
  〃I forgot to tell you to bring home your scraps for
  the chickens;〃 she said。
  Elnora entered。  〃There weren't any scraps; and I'm
  hungry again as I ever was in my life。〃
  〃I thought likely you would be;〃 said Mrs。 Comstock;
  〃and so I got supper ready。  We can eat first; and do the
  work afterward。  What kept you so?  I expected you an
  hour ago。〃
  Elnora looked into her mother's face and smiled。  It was
  a queer sort of a little smile; and would have reached
  the depths with any normal mother。
  〃I see you've been bawling;〃 said Mrs。 Comstock。
  〃I thought you'd get your fill in a hurry。  That's why
  I wouldn't go to any expense。  If we keep out of the poor…
  house we have to cut the corners close。  It's likely this
  Brushwood road tax will eat up all we've saved in years。
  Where the land tax is to come from I don't know。  It gets
  bigger every year。  If they are going to dredge the swamp
  ditch again they'll just have to take the land to pay for it。
  I can't; that's all!  We'll get up early in the morning and
  gather and hull the beans for winter; and put in the rest
  of the day hoeing the turnips。〃
  Elnora again smiled that pitiful smile。
  〃Do you think I didn't know that I was funny and
  would be laughed at?〃 she asked。
  〃Funny?〃 cried Mrs。 Comstock hotly。
  〃Yes; funny!  A regular caricature;〃 answered Elnora。
  〃No one else wore calico; not even one other。  No one
  else wore high heavy shoes; not even one。  No one
  else had such a funny little old hat; my hair was not
  right; my ribbon invisible compared with the others;
  I did not know where to go; or what to do; and I had
  no books。  What a spectacle I made for them!〃
  Elnora laughed nervously at her own picture。  〃But there
  are always two sides!  The professor said in the algebra
  class that he never had a better solution and explanation
  than mine of the proposition he gave me; which scored
  one for me in spite of my clothes。〃
  〃Well; I wouldn't brag on myself!〃
  〃That was poor taste;〃 admitted Elnora。  〃But; you see;
  it is a case of whistling to keep up my courage。
  I honestly could see that I would have looked just as
  well as the rest of them if I had been dressed as
  they were。  We can't afford that; so I have to find
  something else to brace me。  It was rather bad; mother!〃
  〃Well; I'm glad you got enough of it!〃
  〃Oh; but I haven't〃 hurried in Elnora。  〃I just got
  a start。  The hardest is over。  To…morrow they won't
  be surprised。  They will know what to expect。  I am
  sorry to hear about the dredge。  Is it really going through?〃
  〃Yes。  I got my notification today。  The tax will
  be something enormous。  I don't know as I can spare
  you; even if you are willing to be a laughing…stock for
  the town。〃
  With every bite Elnora's courage returned; for she was
  a healthy young thing。
  〃You've heard about doing evil that good might come
  from it;〃 she said。  〃Well; mother mine; it's something
  like that with me。  I'm willing to bear the hard part
  to pay for what I'll learn。  Already I have selected the
  ward building in which I shall teach in about four years。
  I am going to ask for a room with a south exposure so
  that the flowers and moths I take in from the swamp
  to show the children will do well。〃
  〃You little idiot!〃 said Mrs。 Comstock。  〃How are
  you going to pay your expenses?〃
  〃Now that is just what I was going to ask you!〃 said Elnora。
  〃You see; I have had two startling pieces of news to…day。
  I did not know I would need any money。  I thought the city
  furnished the books; and there is an out…of…town tuition; also。
  I need ten dollars in the morning。  Will you please let me have it?〃
  〃Ten dollars!〃 cried Mrs。 Comstock。  〃Ten dollars!
  Why don't you say a hundred and be done with it!  I could
  get one as easy as the other。  I told you!  I told you
  I couldn't raise a cent。  Every year expenses grow bigger
  and bigger。  I told you not to ask for money!〃
  〃I never meant to;〃 replied Elnora。  〃I thought
  clothes were all I needed and I could bear them。
  I never knew about buying books and tuition。〃
  〃Well; I did!〃 said Mrs。 Comstock。  〃I knew what
  you would run into!  But you are so bull…dog stubborn;
  and so set in your way; I thought I would just let you
  try the world a little and see how you liked it!〃
  Elnora pushed back her chair and looked at her mother。
  〃Do you mean to say;〃 she demanded; 〃that you knew;
  when you let me go into a city classroom and reveal the
  fact before all of them that I expected to have my books
  handed out to me; do you mean to say that you knew I had
  to pay for them?〃
  Mrs。 Comstock evaded the direct question。
  〃Anybody but an idiot mooning over a book or wasting
  time prowling the woods would have known you had
  to pay。  Everybody has to pay for everything。  Life is
  made up of pay; pay; pay!  It's always and forever pay!
  If you don't pay one way you do another!  Of course;
  I knew you had to pay。  Of course; I knew you would come
  home blubbering!  But you don't get a penny!  I haven't
  one cent; and can't get one!  Have your way if you are
  determined; but I think you will find the road somewhat rocky。〃
  〃Swampy; you mean; mother;〃 corrected Elnora。  She arose
  white and trembling。  〃Perhaps some day God will teach
  me how to understand you。  He knows I do not now。
  You can't possibly realize just what you let me go
  through to…day; or how you let me go; but I'll tell you this:
  You understand enough that if you had the money; and
  would offer it to me; I wouldn't touch it now。  And I'll
  tell you this much more。  I'll get it myself。  I'll raise it;
  and do it some honest way。  I am go