第 3 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-20 04:44      字数:9322
  the expense of living and only the work of two women to
  meet all of it。  She was insane to think she could come to
  the city to school。  Her mother had been right。  The girl
  decided that if only she lived to reach home; she would
  stay there and lead any sort of life to avoid more of
  this torture。  Bad as what she wished to escape had been;
  it was nothing like this。  She never could live down the
  movement that went through the class when she inadvertently
  revealed the fact that she had expected books to
  be furnished。  Her mother would not secure them; that
  settled the question。
  But the end of misery is never in a hurry to come; before
  the day was over the superintendent entered the room and
  explained that pupils from the country were charged a
  tuition of twenty dollars a year。  That really was the end。
  Previously Elnora had canvassed a dozen methods for
  securing the money for books; ranging all the way from
  offering to wash the superintendent's dishes to breaking
  into the bank。  This additional expense made her plans
  so wildly impossible; there was nothing to do but hold up
  her head until she was from sight。
  Down the long corridor alone among hundreds; down the
  long street alone among thousands; out into the country
  she came at last。  Across the fence and field; along the old
  trail once trodden by a boy's bitter agony; now stumbled a
  white…faced girl; sick at heart。  She sat on a log and began
  to sob in spite of her efforts at self…control。  At first it
  wasphysical breakdown; later; thought came crowding。
  Oh the shame; the mortification!  Why had she not
  known of the tuition?  How did she happen to think that
  in the city books were furnished?  Perhaps it was because
  she had read they were in several states。  But why did she
  not know?  Why did not her mother go with her?  Other mothers
  but when had her mother ever been or done anything at all
  like other mothers?  Because she never had been it was
  useless to blame her now。  Elnora realized she should have
  gone to town the week before; called on some one and
  learned all these things herself。  She should have remembered
  how her clothing would look; before she wore it in
  public places。  Now she knew; and her dreams were over。
  She must go home to feed chickens; calves; and pigs;
  wear calico and coarse shoes; and with averted head;
  pass a library all her life。  She sobbed again。
  〃For pity's sake; honey; what's the matter?〃 asked the
  voice of the nearest neighbour; Wesley Sinton; as he
  seated himself beside Elnora。  〃There; there;〃 he continued;
  smearing tears all over her face in an effort to dry them。
  〃Was it as bad as that; now?  Maggie has been just wild
  over you all day。  She's got nervouser every minute。
  She said we were foolish to let you go。  She said your
  clothes were not right; you ought not to carry that tin
  pail; and that they would laugh at you。  By gum; I see
  they did!〃
  〃Oh; Uncle Wesley;〃 sobbed the girl; 〃why didn't she
  tell me? 〃
  〃Well; you see; Elnora; she didn't like to。  You got
  such a way of holding up your head; and going through
  with things。  She thought some way that you'd make it;
  till you got started; and then she begun to see a hundred
  things we should have done。  I reckon you hadn't reached
  that building before she remembered that your skirt
  should have been pleated instead of gathered; your shoes
  been low; and lighter for hot September weather; and a
  new hat。  Were your clothes right; Elnora?〃
  The girl broke into hysterical laughter。  〃Right!〃 she cried。
  〃Right!  Uncle Wesley; you should have seen me among them!
  I was a picture!  They'll never forget me。  No; they won't
  get the chance; for they'll see me again to…morrow!
  〃Now that is what I call spunk; Elnora!  Downright grit;〃
  said Wesley Sinton。  〃Don't you let them laugh you out。
  You've helped Margaret and me for years at harvest and
  busy times; what you've earned must amount to quite a sum。
  You can get yourself a good many clothes with it。〃
  〃Don't mention clothes; Uncle Wesley;〃 sobbed Elnora;
  〃I don't care now how I look。  If I don't go back all of them
  will know it's because I am so poor I can't buy my books。〃
  〃Oh; I don't know as you are so dratted poor;〃 said
  Sinton meditatively。  〃There are three hundred acres
  of good land; with fine timber as ever grew on it。〃
  〃It takes all we can earn to pay the tax; and mother
  wouldn't cut a tree for her life。〃
  〃Well then; maybe; I'll be compelled to cut one for her;〃
  suggested Sinton。  〃Anyway; stop tearing yourself to
  pieces and tell me。  If it isn't clothes; what is it?〃
  〃It's books and tuition。  Over twenty dollars in all。〃
  〃Humph!  First time I ever knew you to be stumped by
  twenty dollars; Elnora;〃 said Sinton; patting her hand。
  〃It's the first time you ever knew me to want money;〃
  answered Elnora。  〃This is different from anything that ever
  happened to me。  Oh; how can I get it; Uncle Wesley?〃
  〃Drive to town with me in the morning and I'll draw it
  from the bank for you。  I owe you every cent of it。〃
  〃You know you don't owe me a penny; and I wouldn't
  touch one from you; unless I really could earn it。
  For anything that's past I owe you and Aunt Margaret for
  all the home life and love I've ever known。  I know how
  you work; and I'll not take your money。〃
  〃Just a loan; Elnora; just a loan for a little while
  until you can earn it。  You can be proud with all the
  rest of the world; but there are no secrets between us;
  are there; Elnora?〃
  〃No;〃 said Elnora; 〃there are none。  You and Aunt
  Margaret have given me all the love there has been
  in my life。  That is the one reason above all others why
  you shall not give me charity。  Hand me money because
  you find me crying for it!  This isn't the first time this
  old trail has known tears and heartache。  All of us know
  that story。  Freckles stuck to what he undertook and
  won out。  I stick; too。  When Duncan moved away he
  gave me all Freckles left in the swamp; and as I have
  inherited his property maybe his luck will come with it。
  I won't touch your money; but I'll win some way。  First; I'm
  going home and try mother。  It's just possible I could
  find second…hand books; and perhaps all the tuition need
  not be paid at once。  Maybe they would accept it quarterly。
  But oh; Uncle Wesley; you and Aunt Margaret keep on loving me!
  I'm so lonely; and no one else cares!〃
  Wesley Sinton's jaws met with a click。  He swallowed
  hard on bitter words and changed what he would have
  liked to say three times before it became articulate。
  〃Elnora;〃 he said at last; 〃if it hadn't been for one
  thing I'd have tried to take legal steps to make you
  ours when you were three years old。  Maggie said then
  it wasn't any use; but I've always held on。  You see;
  I was the first man there; honey; and there are things
  you see; that you can't ever make anybody else understand。
  She loved him Elnora; she just made an idol of him。
  There was that oozy green hole; with the thick
  scum broke; and two or three big bubbles slowly rising
  that were the breath of his body。  There she was in
  spasms of agony; and beside her the great heavy log she'd
  tried to throw him。  I can't ever forgive her for turning
  against you; and spoiling your childhood as she has;
  but I couldn't forgive anybody else for abusing her。
  Maggie has got no mercy on her; but Maggie didn't see what
  I did; and I've never tried to make it very clear to her。
  It's been a little too plain for me ever since。  Whenever I
  look at your mother's face; I see what she saw; so
  I hold my tongue and say; in my heart; ‘Give her a mite
  more time。'  Some day it will come。  She does love you;
  Elnora。  Everybody does; honey。  It's just that she's
  feeling so much; she can't express herself。  You be a
  patient girl and wait a little longer。  After all; she's
  your mother; and you're all she's got; but a memory; and
  it might do her good to let her know that she was fooled
  in that。〃
  〃It would kill her!〃 cried the girl swiftly。  〃Uncle Wesley;
  it would kill her!  What do you mean?〃
  〃Nothing;〃 said Wesley Sinton soothingly。  〃Nothing; honey。
  That was just one of them fool things a man says;
  when he is trying his best to be wise。  You see;
  she loved him mightily; and they'd been married only
  a year; and what she was loving was what she thought
  he was。  She hadn't really got acquainted with the man yet。
  If it had been even one more year; she could have
  borne it; and you'd have got justice。  Having been
  a teacher she was better educated and smarter than
  the rest of us; and so she was more sensitive like。
  She can't understand she was loving a dream。  So I say
  it might do her good if somebody that knew; could tell
  her; but I swear to gracious; I never could。  I've heard
  her out at the edge of that quagmire calling in them
  wild spells of hers off and on for the last