第 124 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:47      字数:9321
  small sum for the benefit of her little boy。
  Pitt knew how poor his brother and his brother's family
  must be。  It could not have escaped the notice of such a
  cool and experienced old diplomatist that Rawdon's family
  had nothing to live upon; and that houses and carriages
  are not to be kept for nothing。  He knew very well that
  he was the proprietor or appropriator of the money;
  which; according to all proper calculation; ought to have
  fallen to his younger brother; and he had; we may be sure;
  somesecret pangs of remorse within him; which warned
  him that he ought to perform some act of justice;
  or; let us say; compensation; towards these disappointed
  relations。  A just; decent man; not without brains;
  who said his prayers; and knew his catechism; and
  did his duty outwardly through life; he could not be
  otherwise than aware that something was due to his
  brother at his hands; and that morally he was Rawdon's
  debtor。
  But; as one reads in the columns of the Times newspaper
  every now and then; queer announcements from
  the Chancellor of the Exchequer; acknowledging the receipt
  of 50 pounds from A。  B。; or 10 pounds from W。  T。; as
  conscience…money; on account of taxes due by the said
  A。  B。  or W。  T。; which payments the penitents beg the
  Right Honourable gentleman to acknowledge through the
  medium of the public pressso is the Chancellor no
  doubt; and the reader likewise; always perfectly sure that
  the above…named A。  B。  and W。  T。  are only paying a
  very small instalment of what they really owe; and that
  the man who sends up a twenty…pound note has very
  likely hundreds or thousands more for which he ought
  to account。  Such; at least; are my feelings; when I see
  A。  B。  or W。  T。's insufficient acts of repentance。  And I
  have no doubt that Pitt Crawley's contrition; or kindness
  if you will; towards his younger brother; by whom
  he had so much profited; was only a very small dividend
  upon the capital sum in which he was indebted to Rawdon。
  Not everybody is willing to pay even so much。  To part
  with money is a sacrifice beyond almost all men endowed
  with a sense of order。  There is scarcely any man alive
  who does not think himself meritorious for giving
  his neighbour five pounds。  Thriftless gives; not from a
  beneficent pleasure in giving; but from a lazy delight in
  spending。  He would not deny himself one enjoyment; not
  his opera…stall; not his horse; not his dinner; not even
  the pleasure of giving Lazarus the five pounds。  Thrifty;
  who is good; wise; just; and owes no man a penny; turns
  from a beggar; haggles with a hackney…coachman; or
  denies a poor relation; and I doubt which is the most
  selfish of the two。  Money has only a different value in
  the eyes of each。
  So; in a word; Pitt Crawley thought he would do something
  for his brother; and then thought that he would think
  about it some other time。
  And with regard to Becky; she was not a woman who
  expected too much from the generosity of her
  neighbours; and so was quite content with all that Pitt Crawley
  had done for her。  She was acknowledged by the head
  of the family。  If Pitt would not give her anything; he
  would get something for her some day。  If she got no
  money from her brother…in…law; she got what was as good
  as moneycredit。  Raggles was made rather easy in his
  mind by the spectacle of the union between the brothers;
  by a small payment on the spot; and by the promise of a
  much larger sum speedily to be assigned to him。  And
  Rebecca told Miss Briggs; whose Christmas dividend
  upon the little sum lent by her Becky paid with an air of
  candid joy; and as if her exchequer was brimming over
  with goldRebecca; we say; told Miss Briggs; in strict
  confidence that she had conferred with Sir Pitt; who was
  famous as a financier; on Briggs's special behalf; as to
  the most profitable investment of Miss B。's remaining
  capital; that Sir Pitt; after much consideration; had
  thought of a most safe and advantageous way in which
  Briggs could lay out her money; that; being especially
  interested in her as an attached friend of the late Miss
  Crawley; and of the whole family; and that long before
  he left town; he had recommended that she should be
  ready with the money at a moment's notice; so as to
  purchase at the most favourable opportunity the shares
  which Sir Pitt had in his eye。  Poor Miss Briggs was very
  grateful for this mark of Sir Pitt's attentionit came so
  unsolicited; she said; for she never should have thought of
  removing the money from the fundsand the delicacy
  enhanced the kindness of the office; and she promised to
  see her man of business immediately and be ready with
  her little cash at the proper hour。
  And this worthy woman was so grateful for the
  kindness of Rebecca in the matter; and for that of her
  generous benefactor; the Colonel; that she went out and
  spent a great part of her half…year's dividend in the
  purchase of a black velvet coat for little Rawdon; who; by
  the way; was grown almost too big for black velvet now;
  and was of a size and age befitting him for the assumption
  of the virile jacket and pantaloons。
  He was a fine open…faced boy; with blue eyes and
  waving flaxen hair; sturdy in limb; but generous and soft in
  heart; fondly attaching himself to all who were good to
  himto the ponyto Lord Southdown; who gave him
  the horse (he used to blush and glow all over when he
  saw that kind young nobleman)to the groom who had
  charge of the ponyto Molly; the cook; who crammed
  him with ghost stories at night; and with good things from
  the dinnerto Briggs; whom he plagued and laughed at
  and to his father especially; whose attachment
  towards the lad was curious too to witness。  Here; as he
  grew to be about eight years old; his attachments may
  be said to have ended。  The beautiful mother…vision had
  faded away after a while。  During near two years she had
  scarcely spoken to the child。  She disliked him。  He had
  the measles and the hooping…cough。  He bored her。  One
  day when he was standing at the landing…place; having
  crept down from the upper regions; attracted by the sound
  of his mother's voice; who was singing to Lord Steyne;
  the drawing room door opening suddenly; discovered the
  little spy; who but a moment before had been rapt in
  delight; and listening to the music。
  His mother came out and struck him violently a couple
  of boxes on the ear。  He heard a laugh from the Marquis
  in the inner room (who was amused by this free and
  artless exhibition of Becky's temper) and fled down below
  to his friends of the kitchen; bursting in an agony of
  grief。
  〃It is not because it hurts me;〃 little Rawdon gasped
  out〃onlyonly〃sobs and tears wound up the
  sentence in a storm。  It was the little boy's heart that was
  bleeding。  〃Why mayn't I hear her singing? Why don't
  she ever sing to meas she does to that baldheaded
  man with the large teeth?〃 He gasped out at various
  intervals these exclamations of rage and grief。  The cook
  looked at the housemaid; the housemaid looked
  knowingly at the footmanthe awful kitchen inquisition which
  sits in judgement in every house and knows everything
  sat on Rebecca at that moment。
  After this incident; the mother's dislike increased to
  hatred; the consciousness that the child was in the house
  was a reproach and a pain to her。  His very sight
  annoyed her。  Fear; doubt; and resistance sprang up; too;
  in the boy's own bosom。  They were separated from that
  day of the boxes on the ear。
  Lord Steyne also heartily disliked the boy。  When they
  met by mischance; he made sarcastic bows or remarks
  to the child; or glared at him with savage…looking eyes。
  Rawdon used to stare him in the face and double his
  little fists in return。  He knew his enemy; and this gentleman;
  of all who came to the house; was the one who
  angered him most。  One day the footman found him
  squaring his fists at Lord Steyne's hat in the hall。  The
  footman told the circumstance as a good joke to Lord
  Steyne's coachman; that officer imparted it to Lord
  Steyne's gentleman; and to the servants' hall in general。
  And very soon afterwards; when Mrs。 Rawdon Crawley
  made her appearance at Gaunt House; the porter who
  unbarred the gates; the servants of all uniforms in the hall;
  the functionaries in white waistcoats; who bawled out
  from landing to landing the names of Colonel and Mrs。
  Rawdon Crawley; knew about her; or fancied they did。
  The man who brought her refreshment and stood behind
  her chair; had talked her character over with the large
  gentleman in motley…coloured clothes at his side。  Bon
  Dieu! it is awful; that servants' inquisition!  You see a
  woman in a great party in a splendid saloon; surrounded
  by faithful admirers; distributing sparkling glances;
  dressed to perfection; curled; rouged; smiling and happy
  Discovery walks respectfully up to her; in the shape of
  a huge powdered man with large calves and a tray of ices
  with Calumny (which is as fatal as truth) behind
  him; in the shape of the hulking fellow carrying the wafer…
  biscuits。  Madam; your secret will be talked over by those
  men at their club at the public…house to…night。  Jeames
  will tell Chawles his notions about you over their pipes
  and pewter beer…pots。  Some people ought to have mutes
  for servants in