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作者:幽雨      更新:2021-02-19 18:04      字数:9322
  you he paid dearly for what was no fault of his。 It has been no secret。 It is
  only something his friends and his enemies have forgotten。〃
  But all the while I was speaking this; Jessamine's eyes were fixed on
  Lin; and her face remained white。
  I left the girl and the man and the little boy together; and crossed to the
  hotel。 But its air was foul; and I got my roll of camp blankets to sleep in
  the clean night; if sleeping…time should come; meanwhile I walked about
  in the silence To have taken a wife once in good faith; ignorant she was
  another's; left no stain; raised no barrier。 I could have told Jessamine the
  same old   story  myselfor   almost; but   what   had it to do   with   her   at   all?
  Why need she know? Reasoning thus; yet with something left uncleared
  by reason that I could not state; I watched the moon edge into sight; heavy
  and rich…hued; a melon…slice of glow; seemingly near; like a great lantern
  tilted over the plain。 The smell of the sage…brush flavored the air; the hush
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  of Wyoming folded distant and near things; and all Separ but those three
  inside the   lighted window  were in bed。  Dark windows   were   everywhere
  else; and looming above rose the water…tank; a dull mass in the night; and
  forever somehow to me a Sphinx emblem; the vision I instantly see when I
  think of Separ。 Soon I heard a door creaking。 It was Billy; coming alone;
  and on seeing me he walked up and spoke in a half…awed voice。
  〃She's a…crying;〃 said he。
  I withheld from questions; and as he kept along by  my side he said:
  〃I'm sorry。 Do you think she's mad with Lin for what he's told her? She
  just sat; and when she started crying he made me go away。〃
  〃I don't believe she's mad;〃 I told Billy; and I sat down on my blanket;
  he beside me; talking while the moon grew small as it rose over the plain;
  and the light steadily shone in Jessamine's window。 Soon young Billy fell
  asleep;   and   I   looked   at   him;   thinking   how   in   a   way   it   was   he   who   had
  brought this trouble on the man who had saved him and loved him。 But
  that man had no such untender thoughts。 Once more the door opened; and
  it was he who came this time; alone also。 She did not follow him and stand
  to watch him from the threshold; though he forgot to close the door; and;
  coming over to me; stood looking down。
  〃What?〃 I said at length。
  I don't know that he heard me。 He stooped over Billy and shook him
  gently。 〃Wake; son;〃 said he。 〃You and I must get to our camp now。〃
  〃Now?〃 said Billy。 〃Can't we wait till morning?〃
  〃No; son。 We can't wait here any more。 Go and get the horses and put
  the saddles on。〃 As Billy obeyed; Lin looked at the lighted window。 〃She
  is in there;〃 he said。 〃She's in there。 So near。〃 He looked; and turned to the
  hotel;   from   which   he   brought   his   chaps   and   spurs   and   put   them   on。   〃I
  understand her   words;〃 he continued。  〃Her words;  the meaning of   them。
  But not what she means; I guess。 It will take studyin' over。 Why; she don't
  blame me!〃 he suddenly said; speaking to me instead of to himself。
  〃Lin;〃 I answered; 〃she has only just heard this; you see。 Wait awhile。〃
  〃That's not the trouble。 She knows what kind of man I have been; and
  she forgives that just the way she did her brother。 And she knows how I
  didn't   intentionally   conceal   anything。   Billy   hasn't   been   around;   and   she
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  never realized about his mother and me。 We've talked awful open; but that
  was not pleasant to speak of; and the whole country knew it so longand I
  never thought! She don't blame me。 She says she understands; but she says
  I have a wife livin'。〃
  〃That is nonsense;〃 I declared。
  〃Yu'   mustn't   say  that;〃   said   he。   〃She   don't   claim  she's   a   wife;   either。
  She just shakes her head   when I asked her why  she feels so。 It must   be
  different to you and me from the way it seems to her。 I don't see her view;
  maybe I never can see it; but she's made me feel she has it; and that she's
  honest;   and   loves   me   true〃   His   voice   broke   for   a   moment。   〃She   said
  she'd wait。〃
  〃You can't have a marriage broken that was never tied;〃 I said。  〃But
  perhaps Governor Barker or Judge Henry〃
  〃No;〃 said the cow…puncher。 〃Law couldn't fool her。 She's thinking of
  something back of law。 She said she'd waitalways。 And when I took it in
  that this was all over and done; and when I thought of my ranch and the
  chickenswell;   I   couldn't   think   of   things   at   all;   and   I   came   and   waked
  Billy to clear out and quit。〃
  〃What did you tell her?〃 I asked。
  〃Tell her? Nothin'; I guess。 I don't remember getting out of the room。
  Why; here's actually her pistol; and she's got mine!〃
  〃Man;   man!〃   said   I;   〃go   back   and   tell   her   to   keep   it;  and   that   you'll
  wait tooalways!〃
  〃Would yu'?〃
  〃Look!〃 I pointed to Jessamine standing in the door。
  I saw his face as he turned to her; and I walked toward Billy and the
  horses。 Presently I heard steps on the wooden station; and from its black;
  brief   shadow   the   two   came   walking;   Lin   and   his   sweetheart;   into   the
  moonlight。   They   were   not   speaking;   but   merely   walked   together   in   the
  clear radiance; hand in hand; like two children。 I saw that she was weeping;
  and   that   beneath   the   tyranny   of   her   resolution   her   whole   loving;   ample
  nature was wrung。 But the strange; narrow fibre in her would not yield! I
  saw   them   go   to   the   horses;   and   Jessamine   stood   while   Billy   and   Lin
  mounted。   Then   quickly   the   cow…puncher   sprang   down   again   and   folded
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  her in his arms。
  〃Lin;   dear   Lin!   dear   neighbor!〃   she   sobbed。   She   could   not   withhold
  this last good…bye。
  I do not think he spoke。 In a moment thehorses started and were gone;
  flying;   rushing   away   into   the   great   plain;   until   sight   and   sound   of   them
  were   lost;   and   only  the   sage…brush   was   there;   bathed   in   the   high;   bright
  moon。 The last thing I remember as I lay in my blankets was Jessamine's
  window   still   lighted;   and   the   water…tank;   clear…lined   and   black;   standing
  over Separ。
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  DESTINY AT DRYBONE
  PART I
  Children have many special endowments; and of these the chiefest is
  to ask questions that their elders must skirmish to evade。 Married people
  and aunts and uncles commonly discover this; but mere instinct does not
  guide   one   to   it。 A  maiden   of   twenty…three   will   not   necessarily   divine   it。
  Now except in one unhappy hour of stress and surprise; Miss Jessamine
  Buckner had been more than equal to life thus far。 But never yet had she
  been   shut   up   a   whole   day   in   one   room   with   a   boy   of   nine。   Had   this
  experience been hers; perhaps she would not have written to Mr。 McLean
  the friendly and singular letter in which she hoped he was well; and said
  that she was very well; and how was dear little Billy? She was glad Mr。
  McLean   had   stayed   away。   That   was   just   like   his   honorable   nature;   and
  what   she   expected   of   him。   And   she   was   perfectly   happy   at   Separ;   and
  〃yours     sincerely   and    always;   'Neighbor。'    〃Postscript。    Talking    of  Billy
  Luskif Lin was busy with gathering the cattle; why not send Billy down
  to stop quietly with her。 She would make him a bed in the ticket…office;
  and there she would be to see after him all the time。 She knew Lin did not
  like   his   adopted   child   to   be   too   much   in   cow…camp   with   the   men。   She
  would   adopt   him;   too;   for   just   as   long   as   convenient   to   Linuntil   the
  school opened on Bear Creek; if Lin so wished。 Jessamine wrote a good
  deal about how much better care any woman can take of a boy of Billy's
  age   than   any   man   knows。   The   stage…coach   brought   the   answer   to   this
  remarkably soon young Billy with a trunk and a letter of twelve pages in
  pencil and ink the only writing of this length ever done by Mr。 McLean。
  〃I can write a lot quicker than Lin;〃 said Billy; upon arriving。 〃He was
  fussing at that away late by