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作者:幽雨      更新:2021-02-19 18:04      字数:9322
  she   has   talked   about   the   flowers   and   shade   where   the   old   folks   lie;   and
  where she wants him to be alongside of them。 I've not let her look at him
  to…day; forwell; she might get the way he looks now on her memory。 But
  I'd like to show you my idea before going further。〃
  Lin had indeed chosen a beautiful place; and so I told him at the first
  sight of it。
  〃That's all I wanted to know;〃 said he。 〃I'll fix the rest。〃
  I believe he never once told Jessamine the body could not travel so far
  as Kentucky。 I think he let her live and talk and grieve from hour to hour;
  and then led her that afternoon to the nook of sunlight and sheltering trees;
  and won her consent to it thus; for there was Nate laid; and there she went
  to sit; alone。 Lin did not go with her on those walks。
  But   now   something   new   was   on   the   fellow's   mind。   He   was   plainly
  occupied   with   it;   whatever   else   he   was   doing;   and   he   had   some   active
  cattle…work。 On my asking him if Jessamine Buckner had decided when to
  return   east;   he   inquired   of   me;   angrily;   what   was   there   in   Kentucky   she
  could   not   have   in   Wyoming?   Consequently;   though   I   surmised   what   he
  must be debating; I felt myself invited to keep out of his confidence; and I
  did so。 My advice to him would have been ill received; andas was soon
  to   be   made   plain   would   have   done   his   delicacy   injustice。   Next;   one
  morning he and Billy were gone。 My first thought was that he had rejoined
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  Jessamine at Mrs。 Pierce's; where she was; and left me away over here on
  Bear Creek; where we had come for part of a week。
  But stuck in my hat…band I found a pencilled farewell。
  Now Mr。 McLean constructed perhaps three letters in the yearpainful;
  serious eventslike an interview with some important person with whom
  your speech must decorously flow。 No matter to whom he was writing; it
  froze   all   nature   stiff   in   each   word   he   achieved;   and   his   bald   business
  diction and wild archaic penmanship made documents that I value among
  my choicest correspondence; this one; especially:
  〃Wensday four a。 m。
  〃DEAR       SIR   this  is  to  Inform    you   that   i  have  gone    to  Separ    on
  important bisness where i expect to meet you on your arrival at same point。
  You   will   confer   a   favor   and   oblidge   undersigned   by   Informing   Miss   J。
  Buckner of date (if soon) you fix for returning per stage to Separ as Miss J。
  Buckner       may    prefer    company      for   the    trip  being    long    and    poor
  accommodations。
  Yours &c。           L。 McLEAN。〃
  This seemed to point but one way; and (uncharitable though it sound)
  that this girl; so close upon bereavement; should be able to give herself to
  a lover was distasteful to me。
  But; most extraordinary; Lin had gone away without a word to her; and
  she was left as plainly in the dark as myself。 After her first frank surprise
  at learning of his departure; his name did not come again from her lips; at
  any   rate   to   me。   Good   Mrs。   Pierce   dropped   a   word   one   day   as   to   her
  opinion of men who deceive women into expecting something from them。
  〃Let   us   talk   straight;〃   said   I。   〃Do   you   mean   that   Miss   Buckner   says
  that; or that you say it?〃
  〃Why;   the   poor   thing   says   nothing!〃   exclaimed   the   lady。   〃It's   like   a
  man to think she would。 And I'll not say anything; either; for you're all just
  the   same;   except   when   you're   worse;   and   that   Lin   McLean   is   going   to
  know what I think of him next time we meet。〃
  He did。 On that occasion the kind old dame told him he was the best
  boy in the country; and stood on her toes and kissed him。 But meanwhile
  we did not know why he had gone; and Jessamine (though he was never
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  subtle or cruel enough to plan such a thing) missed him; and thus in her
  loneliness had the chance to learn how much he had been to her。
  Though   pressed   to   stay   indefinitely   beneath   Mrs。   Pierce's   hospitable
  roof; the girl; after lingering awhile; and going often to that nook in the
  hill   by   Riverside;   took   her   departure。   She   was   restless;   yet   clung   to   the
  neighborhood。 It was with a wrench that she fixed her going when I told
  her of my own journey back to the railroad。 In Buffalo she walked to the
  court…house and stood a moment as if bidding this site of one life…memory
  farewell; and from the stage she watched and watched the receding town
  and mountains。 〃It's awful to be leaving him!〃 she said。 〃Excuse me for
  acting so in front of you。〃 With the poignant emptiness overcoming her in
  new guise; she blamed herself for not waiting in Illinois until he had been
  sent to Joliet; for then; so near home; he must have gone with her。
  How could I tell her that Nate's death was the best end that could have
  come to him? But I said: 〃You know you don't think it was your fault。 You
  know you would do the same again。〃 She listened to me; but her eyes had
  no interest in them。 〃He never knew pain;〃 I pursued; 〃and he died doing
  the thing he liked best in the world。 He was happy and enjoying himself;
  and you gave him that。 It's bad only for you。 Some would talk religion; but
  I can't。〃
  〃Yes;〃 she answered; 〃I can think of him so glad to be free。 Thank you
  for saying that about religion。 Do you think it's wicked not to want it to
  hate it sometimes? I hope it's not。 Thank you; truly。〃
  During our journey she   summoned her cheerfulness;  and all that she
  said   was   wholesome。   In   the   robust;   coarse   soundness   of   her   fibre;   the
  wounds   of   grief   would   heal   and   leave   no   sicknessperhaps   no   higher
  sensitiveness to human sufferings than her broad native kindness already
  held。    We    touched     upon    religion    again;    and   my    views     shocked     her
  Kentucky  notions;   for   I   told   her   Kentucky  locked   its   religion   in   an   iron
  cage     called   Sunday;     which    made     it  very   savage    and    fond   of   biting
  strangers。     Now     and   again   I  would    run   upon    that  vein   of  deep…seated
  prejudice   that   was   in   her   character   like   some   fine   wire。   In   short;   our
  disagreements   brought   us   to   terms   more   familiar   than   we   had   reached
  hitherto。   But   when   at   last   Separ   came;   where   was   I?   There   stood   Mr。
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  McLean       waiting;    and   at  the   suddenness      of  him    she  had    no   time   to
  remember herself; but stepped out of the stage with such a smile that the
  ardent cow…puncher flushed and beamed。
  〃So I went away without telling you goodbye!〃 he began; not wisely。
  〃Mrs。 Pierce has been circulating war talk about me; you bet!〃
  The    maiden     in  Jessamine     spoke    instantly。   〃Indeed?     There    was   no
  special obligation for you to call on me; or her to notice if you didn't。〃
  〃Oh!〃 said Lin; crestfallen。 〃Yu' sure don't mean that?〃
  She looked at him; and was compelled to melt。 〃No; neighbor; I don't
  mean it。〃
  〃Neighbor!〃       he   exclaimed;     and    again;   〃Neighbor;〃      much    pleased。
  〃Now  it   would   sound   kind   o'   pleasant   if   you'd   call   me   that   for  a   steady
  thing。〃
  〃It would sound kind of odd; Mr。 McLean; thank you。〃
  〃Blamed if I understand her;〃 cried   Lin。 〃Blamed if   I do。 But   you're
  going to understand me sure quick!〃 He rushed inside the station; spoke
  sharply to the agent; and returned in the same tremor of elation that had
  pushed him to forwardness with his girl; and with which he seemed near
  bursting。   〃I've   been   here   three   days   to   meet   you。   There's   a   letter;   and   I
  expect I know what's in it。 Tubercle has got it here。〃 He took it from the
  less   hasty   agent   and   thrust   it   in   Jessamine's   hand。   〃You   needn't   to   fear。
  Please   open   it;   it's   good   news   this   time;   you   bet!〃   He   watched   it   in   her
  hand as the boy of eight watches the string of a Christmas parcel he wishes
  his father would cut instead of so carefully untie。 〃Open it;〃 he urged again。
  〃Keeping me waiting this way!〃
  〃What   in   the   world   does   all   this   mean?〃   crie