第 37 节
作者:花旗      更新:2021-02-18 23:52      字数:9321
  betrothed that had almost positive quality。  With his longing to try Miss
  Triscoe upon Mrs。 March's malady as a remedial agent; he had now the
  desire to try Mrs。 March upon Miss Triscoe's mystery as a solvent。  She
  stood talking to him; and refusing to sit down and be wrapped up in the
  chair next her father。  She said that if he were going to ask Mrs。 March
  to let her come to her; it would not be worth while to sit down; and he
  hurried below。
  〃Did you get it?〃 asked his wife; without looking round; but not so
  apathetically as before。
  〃Oh; yes。  That's all right。  But now; Isabel; there's something I've got
  to tell you。  You'd find it out; and you'd better know it at once。〃
  She turned her face; and asked sternly; 〃What is it?〃
  Then he said; with; an almost equal severity; 〃Miss Triscoe is on board。
  Miss Triscoe…and…her…father。  She wishes to come down and see you。〃
  Mrs。 March sat up and began to twist her hair into shape。  〃And Burnamy?〃
  〃There is no Burnamy physically; or so far as I can make out;
  spiritually。  She didn't mention him; and I talked at least five minutes
  with her。〃
  〃Hand me my dressing…sack;〃 said Mrs。 March; 〃and poke those things on
  the sofa under the berth。  Shut up that wash…stand; and pull the curtain
  across that hideous window。  Stop!  Throw those towels into your berth。
  Put my shoes; and your slippers into the shoe…bag on the door。  Slip the
  brushes into that other bag。  Beat the dent out of the sofa cushion that
  your head has made。  Now!〃
  〃Thenthen yon will see her?〃
  〃See her!〃
  Her voice was so terrible that he fled before it; and he returned with
  Miss Triscoe in a dreamlike simultaneity。  He remembered; as he led the
  way into his corridor; to apologize for bringing her down into a basement
  room。
  〃Oh; we're in the basement; too; it was all we could get;〃 she said in
  words that ended within the state…room he opened to her。  Then he went
  back and took her chair and wraps beside her father。
  He let the general himself lead the way up to his health; which he was
  not slow in reaching; and was not quick in leaving。  He reminded March of
  the state he had seen him in at Wurzburg; and he said it had gone from
  bad to worse with him。  At Weimar he had taken to his bed and merely
  escaped from it with his life。  Then they had tried Schevleningen for a
  week; where; he said in a tone of some injury; they had rather thought
  they might find them; the Marches。  The air had been poison to him; and
  they had come over to England with some notion of Bournemouth; but the
  doctor in London had thought not; and urged their going home。  〃All
  Europe is damp; you know; and dark as a pocket in winter;〃 he ended。
  There had been nothing about Burnamy; and March decided that he must wait
  to see his wife if he wished to know anything; when the general; who had
  been silent; twisted his head towards him; and said without regard to the
  context; 〃It was complicated; at Weimar; by that young man in the most
  devilish way。  Did my daughter write to Mrs。 March about Well it came
  to nothing; after all; and I don't understand how; to this day。  I doubt
  if they do。  It was some sort of quarrel; I suppose。  I wasn't consulted
  in the matter either way。  It appears that parents are not consulted in
  these trifling affairs; nowadays。〃  He had married his daughter's mother
  in open defiance of her father; but in the glare of his daughter's
  wilfulness this fact had whitened into pious obedience。  〃I dare say I
  shall be told; by…and…by; and shall be expected to approve of the
  result。〃
  A fancy possessed March that by operation of temperamental laws General
  Triscoe was no more satisfied with Burnamy's final rejection than with
  his acceptance。  If the engagement was ever to be renewed; it might be
  another thing; but as it stood; March divined a certain favor for the
  young man in the general's attitude。  But the affair was altogether too
  delicate for comment; the general's aristocratic frankness in dealing
  with it might have gone farther if his knowledge had been greater; but in
  any case March did not see how he could touch it。  He could only say; He
  had always liked Burnamy; himself。
  He had his good qualities; the general owned。  He did not profess to
  understand the young men of our time; but certainly the fellow had the
  instincts of a gentleman。  He had nothing to say against him; unless in
  that business with that manwhat was his name?
  〃Stoller?〃 March prompted。  〃I don't excuse him in that; but I don't
  blame him so much; either。  If punishment means atonement; he had the
  opportunity of making that right very suddenly; and if pardon means
  expunction; then I don't see why that offence hasn't been pretty well
  wiped out。
  〃Those things are not so simple as they used to seem;〃 said the general;
  with a seriousness beyond his wont in things that did not immediately
  concern his own comfort or advantage。
  LXXVI。
  In the mean time Mrs。 March and Miss Triscoe were discussing another
  offence of Burnamy's。
  〃It wasn't;〃 said the girl; excitedly; after a plunge through all the
  minor facts to the heart of the matter; 〃that he hadn't a perfect right
  to do it; if he thought I didn't care for him。  I had refused him at
  Carlsbad; and I had forbidden him to speak to me abouton the subject。
  But that was merely temporary; and he ought to have known it。 He ought to
  have known that I couldn't accept him; on the spur of the moment; that
  way; and when he had come back; after going away in disgrace; before he
  had done anything to justify himself。  I couldn't have kept my self…
  respect; and as it was I had the greatest difficulty; and he ought to
  have seen it。  Of course he said afterwards that he didn't see it。  But
  whenwhen I found out that SHE had been in Weimar; and all that time;
  while I had been suffering in Carlsbad and Wurzburg; and longing to see
  himlet him know how I was really feelinghe was flirting with that
  that girl; then I saw that he was a false nature; and I determined to put
  an end to everything。  And that is what I did; and I shall always think
  Idid rightand〃
  The rest was lost in Agatha's handkerchief; which she put up to her eyes。
  Mrs。 March watched her from her pillow keeping the girl's unoccupied hand
  in her own; and softly pressing it till the storm was past sufficiently
  to allow her to be heard。
  Then she said; 〃Men are very strangethe best of them。  And from the
  very fact that he was disappointed; he would be all the more apt to rush
  into a flirtation with somebody else。〃
  Miss Triscoe took down her handkerchief from a face that had certainly
  not been beautified by grief。  〃I didn't blame him for the flirting; or
  not so much。  It was his keeping it from me afterwards。  He ought to have
  told me the very first instant we were engaged。  But he didn't。  He let
  it go on; and if I hadn't happened on that bouquet I might never have
  known anything about it。  That is what I mean bya false nature。
  I wouldn't have minded his deceiving me; but to let me deceive myself
  Oh; it was too much!〃
  Agatha hid her face in her handkerchief again。  She was perching on the
  edge of the berth; and Mrs。 March said; with a glance; which she did not
  see; toward the sofa; 〃I'm afraid that's rather a hard seat for you。
  〃Oh; no; thank you!  I'm perfectly comfortableI like itif you don't
  mind?〃
  Mrs。 March pressed her hand for answer; and after another little delay;
  sighed and said; 〃They are not like us; and we cannot help it。  They are
  more temporizing。〃
  〃How do you mean?〃 Agatha unmasked again。
  〃They can bear to keep things better than we can; and they trust to time
  to bring them right; or to come right of themselves。〃
  〃I don't think Mr。 March would trust things to come right of themselves!〃
  said Agatha in indignant accusal of Mrs。 March's sincerity。
  〃Ah; that's just what he would do; my dear; and has done; all along; and
  I don't believe we could have lived through without it: we should have
  quarrelled ourselves into the grave!〃
  〃Mrs。 March!〃
  〃Yes; indeed。  I don't mean that he would ever deceive me。  But he would
  let things go on; and hope that somehow they would come right without any
  fuss。〃
  〃Do you mean that he would let anybody deceive themselves?〃
  〃I'm afraid he wouldif he thought it would come right。  It used to be a
  terrible trial to me; and it is yet; at times when I don't remember that
  he means nothing but good and kindness by it。  Only the other day in
  Ansbachhow long ago it seems!he let a poor old woman give him her
  son's address in Jersey City; and allowed her to believe he would look
  him up when we got back and tell him we had seen her。  I don't believe;
  unless I keep right round after him; as we say in New England; that he'll
  ever go near the man。〃
  Agatha looked daunted; but she said; 〃That is a very different thing。〃
  〃It isn't a different kind of thing。  And it shows what men are;the
  sweetest and best of them; that is。  They are terribly apt to be
  easy…going。〃
  〃Then you think I was all wrong?〃 the girl asked in a tremor。
  〃No; indeed!  You were right; because you really expected perfection of
  him。  You expected the ideal。  And that's what makes all the trouble; in
  married