第 37 节
作者:圈圈      更新:2021-02-18 22:40      字数:9322
  me not till I had compelled her to promise that on the following
  night She would be at the same place at the same hour。  These
  meetings continued for several Weeks uninterrupted; and 'tis now;
  Lorenzo; that I must implore your indulgence。  Reflect upon our
  situation; our youth; our long attachment: Weigh all the
  circumstances which attended our assignations; and you will
  confess the temptation to have been irresistible; you will even
  pardon me when I acknowledge; that in an unguarded moment; the
  honour of Agnes was sacrificed to my passion。'
  (Lorenzo's eyes sparkled with fury:  A deep crimson spread itself
  over his face。  He started from his seat; and attempted to draw
  his sword。  The Marquis was aware of his movement; and caught his
  hand:  He pressed it affectionately。
  'My Friend! My Brother! Hear me to the conclusion!  Till then
  restrain your passion; and be at least convinced; that if what I
  have related is criminal; the blame must fall upon me; and not
  upon your Sister。'
  Lorenzo suffered himself to be prevailed upon by Don Raymond's
  entreaties。  He resumed his place; and listened to the rest of
  the narrative with a gloomy and impatient countenance。  The
  Marquis thus continued。)
  'Scarcely was the first burst of passion past when Agnes;
  recovering herself; started from my arms with horror。  She called
  me infamous Seducer; loaded me with the bitterest reproaches; and
  beat her bosom in all the wildness of delirium。  Ashamed of my
  imprudence; I with difficulty found words to excuse myself。  I
  endeavoured to console her; I threw myself at her feet; and
  entreated her forgiveness。  She forced her hand from me; which I
  had taken; and would have prest to my lips。
  'Touch me not!' She cried with a violence which terrified me;
  'Monster of perfidy and ingratitude; how have I been deceived in
  you!  I looked upon you as my Friend; my Protector:  I trusted
  myself in your hands with confidence; and relying upon your
  honour; thought that mine ran no risque。  And 'tis by you; whom I
  adored; that I am covered with infamy!  'Tis by you that I have
  been seduced into breaking my vows to God; that I am reduced to a
  level with the basest of my sex!  Shame upon you; Villain; you
  shall never see me more!'
  She started from the Bank on which She was seated。  I endeavoured
  to detain her; But She disengaged herself from me with violence;
  and took refuge in the Convent。
  I retired; filled with confusion and inquietude。  The next
  morning I failed not as usual to appear in the Garden; but Agnes
  was no where to be seen。  At night I waited for her at the place
  where we generally met; I found no better success。  Several days
  and nights passed away in the same manner。  At length I saw my
  offended Mistress cross the walk on whose borders I was working:
  She was accompanied by the same young Pensioner; on whose arm She
  seemed from weakness obliged to support herself。  She looked upon
  me for a moment; but instantly turned her head away。  I waited
  her return; But She passed on to the Convent without paying any
  attention to me; or the penitent looks with which I implored her
  forgiveness。
  As soon as the Nuns were retired; the old Gardener joined me with
  a sorrowful air。
  'Segnor;' said He; 'it grieves me to say; that I can be no longer
  of use to you。  The Lady whom you used to meet has just assured
  me that if I admitted you again into the Garden; She would
  discover the whole business to the Lady Prioress。  She bade me
  tell you also; that your presence was an insult; and that if you
  still possess the least respect for her; you will never attempt
  to see her more。  Excuse me then for informing you that I can
  favour your disguise no longer。  Should the Prioress be
  acquainted with my conduct; She might not be contented with
  dismissing me her service:  Out of revenge She might accuse me of
  having profaned the Convent; and cause me to be thrown into the
  Prisons of the Inquisition。'
  Fruitless were my attempts to conquer his resolution。  He denied
  me all future entrance into the Garden; and Agnes persevered in
  neither letting me see or hear from her。  In about a fortnight
  after; a violent illness which had seized my Father obliged me to
  set out for Andalusia。  I hastened thither; and as I imagined;
  found the Marquis at the point of death。  Though on its first
  appearance his complaint was declared mortal; He lingered out
  several Months; during which my attendance upon him during his
  malady; and the occupation of settling his affairs after his
  decease; permitted not my quitting Andalusia。  Within these four
  days I returned to Madrid; and on arriving at my Hotel; I there
  found this letter waiting for me。
  (Here the Marquis unlocked the drawer of a Cabinet: He took out a
  folded paper; which He presented to his Auditor。  Lorenzo opened
  it; and recognised his Sister's hand。  The Contents were as
  follows。
  Into what an abyss of misery have you plunged me!  Raymond; you
  force me to become as criminal as yourself。  I had resolved never
  to see you more; if possible; to forget you; If not; only to
  remember you with hate。  A Being for whom I already feel a
  Mother's tenderness; solicits me to pardon my Seducer; and apply
  to his love for the means of preservation。  Raymond; your child
  lives in my bosom。  I tremble at the vengeance of the Prioress; I
  tremble much for myself; yet more for the innocent Creature whose
  existence depends upon mine。  Both of us are lost; should my
  situation be discovered。  Advise me then what steps to take; but
  seek not to see me。  The Gardener; who undertakes to deliver
  this; is dismissed; and we have nothing to hope from that
  quarter:  The Man engaged in his place is of incorruptible
  fidelity。  The best means of conveying to me your answer; is by
  concealing it under the great Statue of St。 Francis; which stands
  in the Capuchin Cathedral。  Thither I go every Thursday to
  confession; and shall easily have an opportunity of securing your
  letter。  I hear that you are now absent from Madrid; Need I
  entreat you to write the very moment of your return?  I will not
  think it。  Ah! Raymond!  Mine is a cruel situation!  Deceived by
  my nearest Relations; compelled to embrace a profession the
  duties of which I am ill…calculated to perform; conscious of the
  sanctity of those duties; and seduced into violating them by One
  whom I least suspected of perfidy; I am now obliged by
  circumstances to chuse between death and perjury。  Woman's
  timidity; and maternal affection; permit me not to balance in the
  choice。  I feel all the guilt into which I plunge myself; when I
  yield to the plan which you before proposed to me。  My poor
  Father's death which has taken place since we met; has removed
  one obstacle。  He sleeps in his grave; and I no longer dread his
  anger。  But from the anger of God; Oh! Raymond! who shall shield
  me?  Who can protect me against my conscience; against myself?  I
  dare not dwell upon these thoughts; They will drive me mad。  I
  have taken my resolution:  Procure a dispensation from my vows; I
  am ready to fly with you。  Write to me; my Husband!  Tell me;
  that absence has not abated your love; tell me that you will
  rescue from death your unborn Child; and its unhappy Mother。  I
  live in all the agonies of terror:  Every eye which is fixed upon
  me seems to read my secret and my shame。  And you are the cause
  of those agonies!  Oh! When my heart first loved you; how little
  did it suspect you of making it feel such pangs!
  Agnes。
  Having perused the letter; Lorenzo restored it in silence。  The
  Marquis replaced it in the Cabinet; and then proceeded。)
  'Excessive was my joy at reading this intelligence so
  earnestly…desired; so little expected。  My plan was soon
  arranged。  When Don Gaston discovered to me his Daughter's
  retreat; I entertained no doubt of her readiness to quit the
  Convent:  I had; therefore; entrusted the Cardinal…Duke of Lerma
  with the whole affair; who immediately busied himself in
  obtaining the necessary Bull。  Fortunately I had afterwards
  neglected to stop his proceedings。  Not long since I received a
  letter from him; stating that He expected daily to receive the
  order from the Court of Rome。  Upon this I would willingly have
  relyed:  But the Cardinal wrote me word; that I must find some
  means of conveying Agnes out of the Convent; unknown to the
  Prioress。  He doubted not but this Latter would be much incensed
  by losing a Person of such high rank from her society; and
  consider the renunciation of Agnes as an insult to her House。  He
  represented her as a Woman of a violent and revengeful character;
  capable of proceeding to the greatest extremities。  It was
  therefore to be feared; lest by confining Agnes in the Convent
  She should frustrate my hopes; and render the Pope's mandate
  unavailing。  Influenced by this consideration; I resolved to
  carry off my Mistress; and conceal her till the arrival of the
  expected Bull in the Cardinal…Duke's Estate。  He approved of my
  design; and profest himself ready to give a shelter to the
  Fugitive。  I next caused the new Gardener of St。 Clare to be
  seized privately; and confined in my Hotel。  By this means I
  became M