第 36 节
作者:圈圈      更新:2021-02-18 22:40      字数:9322
  reasons for attempting my life。  I was answered that He was
  already able to speak; though with difficulty:  Don Gaston's
  curiosity made him press me to interrogate the Assassin in his
  presence; but this curiosity I was by no means inclined to
  gratify。  One reason was; that doubting from whence the blow
  came; I was unwilling to place before Don Gaston's eyes the guilt
  of a Sister:  Another was; that I feared to be recognized for
  Alphonso d'Alvarada; and precautions taken in consequence to keep
  me from the sight of Agnes。  To avow my passion for his Daughter;
  and endeavour to make him enter into my schemes; what I knew of
  Don Gaston's character convinced me would be an imprudent step:
  and considering it to be essential that He should know me for no
  other than the Conde de las Cisternas; I was determined not to
  let him hear the Bravo's confession。  I insinuated to him; that
  as I suspected a Lady to be concerned in the Business; whose name
  might accidentally escape from the Assassin; it was necessary for
  me to examine the Man in private。  Don Gaston's delicacy would
  not permit his urging the point any longer; and in consequence
  the Bravo was conveyed to my Hotel。
  The next Morning I took leave of my Host; who was to return to
  the Duke on the same day。  My wounds had been so trifling that;
  except being obliged to wear my arm in a sling for a short time;
  I felt no inconvenience from the night's adventure。  The Surgeon
  who examined the Bravo's wound declared it to be mortal:  He had
  just time to confess that He had been instigated to murder me by
  the revengeful Donna Rodolpha; and expired in a few minutes
  after。
  All my thoughts were now bent upon getting to the speech of my
  lovely Nun。  Theodore set himself to work; and for this time with
  better success。  He attacked the Gardener of St。 Clare so
  forcibly with bribes and promises that the Old Man was entirely
  gained over to my interests; and it was settled that I should be
  introduced into the Convent in the character of his Assistant。
  The plan was put into execution without delay。  Disguised in a
  common habit; and a black patch covering one of my eyes; I was
  presented to the Lady Prioress; who condescended to approve of
  the Gardener's choice。  I immediately entered upon my employment。
  Botany having been a favourite study with me; I was by no means
  at a loss in my new station。  For some days I continued to work
  in the Convent Garden without meeting the Object of my disguise:
  On the fourth Morning I was more successful。  I heard the voice
  of Agnes; and was speeding towards the sound; when the sight of
  the Domina stopped me。  I drew back with caution; and concealed
  myself behind a thick clump of Trees。
  The Prioress advanced and seated herself with Agnes on a Bench
  at no great distance。  I heard her in an angry tone blame her
  Companion's continual melancholy: She told her that to weep the
  loss of any Lover in her situation was a crime; But that to weep
  the loss of a faithless one was folly and absurdity in the
  extreme。  Agnes replied in so low a voice that I could not
  distinguish her words; but I perceived that She used terms of
  gentleness and submission。  The conversation was interrupted by
  the arrival of a young Pensioner who informed the Domina that
  She was waited for in the Parlour。  The old Lady rose; kissed the
  cheek of Agnes; and retired。  The newcomer remained。  Agnes spoke
  much to her in praise of somebody whom I could not make out; but
  her Auditor seemed highly delighted; and interested by the
  conversation。  The Nun showed her several letters; the Other
  perused them with evident pleasure; obtained permission to copy
  them; and withdrew for that purpose to my great satisfaction。
  No sooner was She out of sight; than I quitted my concealment。
  Fearing to alarm my lovely Mistress; I drew near her gently;
  intending to discover myself by degrees。  But who for a moment
  can deceive the eyes of love?  She raised her head at my
  approach; and recognised me in spite of my disguise at a single
  glance。  She rose hastily from her seat with an exclamation of
  surprize; and attempted to retire; But I followed her; detained
  her; and entreated to be heard。  Persuaded of my falsehood She
  refused to listen to me; and ordered me positively to quit the
  Garden。  It was now my turn to refuse。  I protested that however
  dangerous might be the consequences; I would not leave her till
  She had heard my justification。  I assured her that She had been
  deceived by the artifices of her Relations; that I could convince
  her beyond the power of doubt that my passion had been pure and
  disinterested; and I asked her what should induce me to seek her
  in the Convent; were I influenced by the selfish motives which my
  Enemies had ascribed to me。
  My prayers; my arguments; and vows not to quit her; till She had
  promised to listen to me; united to her fears lest the Nuns
  should see me with her; to her natural curiosity; and to the
  effection which She still felt for me in spite of my supposed
  desertion; at length prevailed。 She told me that to grant my
  request at that moment was impossible; But She engaged to be in
  the same spot at eleven that night; and to converse with me for
  the last time。  Having obtained this promise I released her hand;
  and She fled back with rapidity towards the Convent。
  I communicated my success to my Ally; the old Gardener:  He
  pointed out an hiding place where I might shelter myself till
  night without fear of a discovery。  Thither I betook myself at
  the hour when I ought to have retired with my supposed Master;
  and waited impatiently for the appointed time。  The chillness of
  the night was in my favour; since it kept the other Nuns confined
  to their Cells。  Agnes alone was insensible of the inclemency of
  the Air; and before eleven joined me at the spot which had
  witnessed our former interview。  Secure from interruption; I
  related to her the true cause of my disappearing on the fatal
  fifth of May。  She was evidently much affected by my narrative:
  When it was concluded; She confessed the injustice of her
  suspicions; and blamed herself for having taken the veil through
  despair at my ingratitude。
  'But now it is too late to repine!' She added; 'The die is
  thrown:  I have pronounced my vows; and dedicated myself to the
  service of heaven。  I am sensible; how ill I am calculated for a
  Convent。  My disgust at a monastic life increases daily:  Ennui
  and discontent are my constant Companions; and I will not conceal
  from you that the passion which I formerly felt for one so near
  being my Husband is not yet extinguished in my bosom。  But we
  must part!  Insuperable Barriers divide us from each other; and
  on this side the Grave we must never meet again!'
  I now exerted myself to prove that our union was not so
  impossible as She seemed to think it。  I vaunted to her the
  Cardinal…Duke of Lerma's influence at the Court of Rome:  I
  assured her that I should easily obtain a dispensation from her
  vows; and I doubted not but Don Gaston would coincide with my
  views; when informed of my real name and long attachment。  Agnes
  replied that since I encouraged such an hope; I could know but
  little of her Father。  Liberal and kind in every other respect;
  Superstition formed the only stain upon his character。  Upon this
  head He was inflexible; He sacrificed his dearest interests to
  his scruples; and would consider it an insult to suppose him
  capable of authorising his daughter to break her vows to heaven。
  'But suppose;' said I interrupting her; 'Suppose that He should
  disapprove of our union; Let him remain ignorant of my
  proceedings; till I have rescued you from the prison in which
  you are now confined。  Once my Wife; you are free from his
  authority:  I need from him no pecuniary assistance; and when He
  sees his resentment to be unavailing; He will doubtless restore
  you to his favour。  But let the worst happen; Should Don Gaston
  be irreconcileable; my Relations will vie with each other in
  making you forget his loss: and you will find in my Father a
  substitute for the Parent of whom I shall deprive you。'
  'Don Raymond;' replied Agnes in a firm and resolute voice; 'I
  love my Father:  He has treated me harshly in this one instance;
  but I have received from him in every other so many proofs of
  love that his affection is become necessary to my existence。
  Were I to quit the Convent; He never would forgive me; nor can I
  think that on his deathbed He would leave me his curse; without
  shuddering at the very idea。  Besides; I am conscious myself;
  that my vows are binding:  Wilfully did I contract my engagement
  with heaven; I cannot break it without a crime。  Then banish from
  your mind the idea of our being ever united。  I am devoted to
  religion; and however I may grieve at our separation; I would
  oppose obstacles myself; to what I feel would render me guilty。'
  I strove to overrule these ill…grounded scruples:  We were still
  disputing upon the subject; when the Convent Bell summoned the
  Nuns to Matins。  Agnes was obliged to attend them; But She left
  me not till I had compelled her to promise that on the following
  night She would be at the same place at the same hour。  These
  meetings c