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  leading him。 Tender and deep as his love for Hetty had been—so
  deep   that   the   roots   of   it   would   never   be   torn   away—his   love   for
  Dinah      was    better   and    more     precious     to  him;    for  it  was    the
  outgrowth       of  that   fuller  life  which    had    come    to   him   from    his
  acquaintance        with    deep    sorrow。    “It’s  like   as  if  it  was   a   new
  strength to me;” he said to himself; “to love her and know as she
  loves me。 I shall look t’ her to help me to see things right。 For she’s
  better than I am—there’s less o’ self in her; and pride。 And   it’s a
  feeling   as   gives   you   a   sort   o’   liberty;   as   if   you   could   walk   more
  fearless;     when     you’ve    more    trust   in   another    than    y’  have    in
  yourself。   I’ve   always   been   thinking   I   knew   better   than   them   as
  belonged to me; and that’s a poor sort o’ life; when you can’t look
  to them nearest to you t’ help you with a bit better  thought  than
  what you’ve got inside you a’ready。”
  It was more than two o’clock in the afternoon when Adam came
  in   sight  of  the   grey   town   on   the   hill…side   and   looked   searchingly
  towards   the   green   valley   below;   for   the   first   glimpse   of   the   old
  thatched roof near the ugly red mill。 The scene looked less harsh
  in the soft October sunshine than it had in the eager time of early
  spring; and the one grand charm it possessed in common with all
  wide…stretching   woodless   regions—that   it   filled   you   with   a   new
  consciousness         of   the   overarching       sky—had        a  milder;     more
  soothing      influence     than    usual;    on   this   almost     cloudless     day。
  Adam’s       doubts    and    fears   melted     under    this   influence     as   the
  delicate web…like clouds had gradually melted away into the clear
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  blue   above   him。   He   seemed   to   see   Dinah’s   gentle   face   assuring
  him; with its looks alone; of all he longed to know。
  He did not expect Dinah to be at home at this hour; but he got
  down from his horse and tied it at the little gate; that he might ask
  where she was gone to…day。 He had set his mind on following her
  and bringing her home。 She was gone to Sloman’s End; a hamlet
  about three miles off; over the hill; the old woman told him—had
  set off directly after morning chapel; to preach in a cottage there;
  as her habit was。 Anybody at the town would tell him the way to
  Sloman’s   End。   So   Adam   got   on   his   horse   again   and   rode   to   the
  town; putting up at the old inn and taking a hasty dinner there in
  the    company       of  the   too  chatty    landlord;     from    whose     friendly
  questions   and   reminiscences   he   was   glad   to   escape   as   soon          as
  possible   and   set   out   towards   Sloman’s   End。   With   all   his   haste   it
  was nearly four o’clock before he could set off; and he thought that
  as   Dinah   had   gone   so   early;   she   would   perhaps   already   be   near
  returning。 The little; grey; desolate…looking hamlet; unscreened by
  sheltering trees; lay in sight long before   he   reached   it; and   as   he
  came   near   he   could   hear   the   sound       of   voices   singing   a   hymn。
  “Perhaps       that’s   the  last  hymn     before    they   come     away;”    Adam
  thought。 “I’ll walk back a bit and turn   again   to  meet  her;   farther
  off the village。” He walked back till he got nearly to the top of the
  hill   again;   and   seated   himself   on   a   loose   stone;   against   the   low
  wall; to watch till he should see the little black figure leaving the
  hamlet and winding up the hill。 He chose this spot; almost at the
  top   of   the   hill;   because   it   was   away   from   all   eyes—no   house;   no
  cattle; not  even   a   nibbling   sheep   near—no   presence   but   the   still
  lights and shadows and the great embracing sky。
  She was much longer coming than he   expected。 He   waited an
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  hour     at  least  watching      for  her   and   thinking     of  her;  while    the
  afternoon shadows lengthened and the light grew softer。 At last he
  saw  the   little black   figure   coming   from   between   the   grey   houses
  and     gradually    approaching       the   foot   of  the   hill。  Slowly;   Adam
  thought;   but   Dinah   was   really   walking  at   her   usual   pace;   with   a
  light quiet step。 Now she was beginning to wind along the path up
  the hill; but Adam would not move yet; he would not meet her too
  soon;     he   had    set  his   heart    on   meeting     her    in  this   assured
  loneliness。 And now he began to fear lest he should startle her too
  much。   “Yet;”   he   thought;   “she’s   not  one  to  be   overstartled;   she’s
  always so calm and quiet; as if she was prepared for anything。”
  What   was   she   thinking   of  as   she   wound   up   the   hill?   Perhaps
  she   had   found   complete   repose   without   him;   and   had   ceased   to
  feel any need of his love。 On the verge of a decision we all tremble:
  hope pauses with fluttering wings。
  But   now   at   last   she   was   very   near;   and   Adam   rose   from   the
  stone wall。 It happened that just as he walked forward; Dinah had
  paused   and   turned   round   to   look   back   at   the   village—who   does
  not pause and look back in mounting a hill? Adam was glad; for;
  with the fine instinct of a lover; he felt that it would be best for her
  to hear his voice before she saw him。 He came within three paces
  of her and then said; “Dinah!” She started without looking round;
  as if she connected the sound with no place。 “Dinah!” Adam said
  again。   He   knew   quite   well     what   was     in  her   mind。   She    was   so
  accustomed to think of  impressions as purely  spiritual monitions
  that    she   looked    for  no   material     visible  accompaniment          of  the
  voice。
  But this second time she looked round。 What a look of yearning
  love it was that the mild grey eyes turned on the strong dark…eyed
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  man! She did not start again at the sight of him; she said nothing;
  but moved towards him so that his arm could clasp her round。
  And   they   walked   on   so   in   silence;   while   the   warm   tears   fell。
  Adam was content; and said nothing。 It was Dinah who spoke first。
  “Adam;”   she   said;   “it   is   the   Divine   Will。   My   soul   is   so   knit   to
  yours     that   it   is  but   a   divided  life  I   live  without  you。  And   this
  moment; now you are with me; and I feel that our hearts are filled
  with the same love。 I have a fulness of strength to bear and do our
  heavenly Father’s Will that I had lost before。”
  Adam paused and looked into her sincere eyes。
  “Then we’ll never part any more; Dinah; till death parts us。”
  And they kissed each other with a deep joy。
  What   greater   thing   is   there   for   two   human   souls   than   to   feel
  that they are joined for life—to strengthen each other in all labour;
  to rest on each other in all sorrow; to minister to each other in all
  pain; to be one with each other in silent unspeakable memories at
  the moment of the last parting?
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  Chapter LV
  Marriage Bells
  n little more than a month after that meeting on the hill—on a
  rimy     morning     in  departing     November—Adam            and   Dinah
  I
  were married。
  It was an event much thought of in the village。 All Mr。 Burge’s
  men   had   a   holiday;   and   all   Mr。   Poyser’s;   and   most   of   those   who
  had   a   holiday   appeared   in   their   best   clothes   at   the   wedding。   I
  think     there   was    hardly    an   inhabitant     of  Hayslope     specially
  mentioned   in   this   history   and   still   resident  in   the   parish   on   this
  November morning who was not either in church to see Adam and
  Dinah   married;