第 45 节
作者:温暖寒冬      更新:2024-04-09 19:50      字数:9220
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  end of the wood。 Then they looked at each other; not quite as they
  had looked before; for in their eyes there was the memory of a kiss。
  But   already   something   bitter   had   begun   to   mingle   itself   with
  the fountain of sweets: already Arthur was uncomfortable。 He took
  his arm from Hetty’s waist; and said; “Here we are; almost at the
  end of the Grove。 I   wonder  how  late  it  is;”   he  added;   pulling  out
  his watch。 “Twenty minutes past eight—but my watch is too fast。
  However;   I’d   better   not   go   any   further   now。   Trot   along   quickly
  with your little feet; and get home safely。 Good…bye。”
  He   took   her   hand;   and   looked   at   her   half…sadly;      half  with   a
  constrained smile。   Hetty’s   eyes seemed   to  beseech  him not  to   go
  away yet; but he patted her cheek and said “Good…bye” again。 She
  was obliged to turn away from him and go on。
  As    for  Arthur;    he   rushed     back   through     the   wood;     as  if  he
  wanted to put a wide space between himself and Hetty。 He would
  not    go   to  the   Hermitage       again;   he   remembered         how    he   had
  debated   with  himself  there   before   dinner;   and it  had all   come   to
  nothing—worse than nothing。 He walked right on into the Chase;
  glad to get out of the Grove; which surely was haunted by his evil
  genius。   Those   beeches   and   smooth   limes—there   was   something
  enervating   in   the   very   sight   of   them;   but   the   strong   knotted   old
  oaks   had   no   bending   languor   in   them—the   sight   of   them   would
  give   a   man   some   energy。   Arthur   lost   himself   among   the   narrow
  openings in the fern; winding about without seeking any issue; till
  the twilight deepened almost to night under the great boughs; and
  the hare looked black as it darted across his path。
  He   was   feeling   much   more   strongly   than   he   had   done   in   the
  morning: it was as if his horse had wheeled round from a leap and
  dared   to   dispute   his   mastery。   He   was   dissatisfied   with   himself;
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  irritated; mortified。 He no sooner fixed his mind   on   the   probable
  consequences of giving way to the emotions which had stolen over
  him to…day—of continuing to notice Hetty; of allowing himself any
  opportunity for such slight caresses as he had been betrayed into
  already—than         he  refused    to  believe    such   a  future   possible    for
  himself。 To flirt with Hetty was a very different affair from flirting
  with a pretty girl of his own station: that was understood to be an
  amusement   on   both   sides;   or;   if   it   became   serious;   there   was   no
  obstacle   to   marriage。   But   this   little   thing   would   be   spoken   ill   of
  directly;   if she   happened   to   be   seen   walking   with   him;   and   then
  those excellent people; the Poysers; to whom a good name was as
  precious as if they had the best blood in the land in their veins—he
  should hate himself if he made a scandal of that sort; on the estate
  that was to be his own some day; and among tenants by whom he
  liked; above all; to be respected。 He could no more believe that he
  should so fall in his own esteem than that he should break both his
  legs and go on crutches all the rest of his life。 He couldn’t imagine
  himself in that position; it was too odious; too unlike him。
  And even if no one knew anything about it; they might get too
  fond of each other; and then there could be nothing but the misery
  of parting; after all。 No gentleman; out of a ballad; could marry a
  farmer’s niece。 There must be an end to the whole thing at once。 It
  was too foolish。
  And   yet   he   had   been   so   determined   this   morning;   before   he
  went to Gawaine’s; and while  he   was   there   something  had   taken
  hold of him and made him gallop back。 It seemed he couldn’t quite
  depend   on   his   own   resolution;   as   he   had   thought   he   could;   he
  almost wished his arm would get painful again; and then he should
  think of nothing but the comfort it would be to get rid of the pain。
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  There was no knowing what impulse might seize him to…morrow;
  in this confounded place; where there was nothing to occupy him
  imperiously through the livelong day。 What could he do to secure
  himself from any more of this folly?
  There was but one resource。 He would go and tell Irwine—tell
  him   everything。   The   mere   act   of   telling   it   would   make   it   seem
  trivial; the   temptation   would   vanish;   as   the   charm   of  fond   words
  vanishes when one repeats them to the indifferent。 In every way it
  would help him to tell Irwine。 He would   ride   to  Broxton   Rectory
  the first thing after breakfast to…morrow。
  Arthur had no sooner come to this determination than he began
  to   think   which   of   the   paths   would   lead   him   home;   and   made   as
  short a walk thither as he could。 He felt sure he should sleep now:
  he  had   had   enough  to  tire  him; and   there  was   no more  need   for
  him to think。
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  Chapter XIV
  The Return Home
  hile that parting in the wood was happening; there was
  Wa parting in the cottage too; and Lisbeth had stood with
  Adam at the door; straining her aged eyes to get the last
  glimpse of Seth and Dinah; as they mounted the opposite slope。
  “Eh; I’m loath to see the last on her;” she said to Adam; as they
  turned into the house again。 “I’d ha’ been willin’ t’ ha’ her about
  me till I died and went to lie by my old man。 She’d make it easier
  dyin’—she spakes so gentle an’ moves about so still。 I could be fast
  sure that pictur’ was drawed for her i’ thy new Bible—th’ angel a…
  sittin’ on the big stone   by  the   grave。   Eh;   I   wouldna   mind   ha’in a
  daughter like that; but nobody  ne’er marries  them   as   is   good   for
  aught。”
  “Well;   Mother;   I   hope   thee   wilt   have   her   for   a   daughter;   for
  Seth’s got a liking for her; and I hope she’ll get a liking for Seth in
  time。”
  “Where’s th’ use o’ talkin’ a…that’n? She caresna for Seth。 She’s
  goin’   away  twenty   mile   aff。   How’s   she   to   get   a   likin’   for   him;   I’d
  like   to know?  No  more nor  the   cake   ’ull   come   wi’out  the   leaven。
  Thy  figurin’   books might  ha’   tould  thee   better   nor   that;   I   should
  think;   else   thee   mightst   as   well   read   the   commin   print;   as   Seth
  allays does。”
  “Nay; Mother;” said Adam; laughing; “the figures tell us a fine
  deal;   and   we   couldn’t   go   far   without   ’em;   but   they   don’t   tell   us
  about folks’s feelings。 It’s a nicer job to calculate them。 But Seth’s
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  as good…hearted a lad as ever handled a tool; and plenty o’ sense;
  and   good…looking   too;   and   he’s   got   the   same   way   o’   thinking   as
  Dinah。 He deserves to win her; though there’s no denying she’s a
  rare bit o’ workmanship。 You don’t see such women turned off the
  wheel every day。”
  “Eh; thee ’t allays stick up for thy brother。 Thee’st been just the
  same;   e’er   sin’   ye  war   little  uns   together。    Thee    wart   allays   for
  halving     iverything     wi’   him。    But   what’s     Seth    got   to  do   with
  marryin’; as is on’y three…an’…twenty? He’d more need to learn an’
  lay by sixpence。 An’ as for his desarving her—she’s two ’ear older
  nor Seth: she’s pretty near as old as thee。 But that’s the way; folks
  mun allays choose by contrairies; as if they must be sorted like the
  pork—a bit o’ good meat wi’ a bit o’ offal。”
  To the feminine mind in some of its moods; all things that might
  be receive a temporary charm from comparison with what is; and
  sin