第 7 节
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  came on and beat down in torrents。
  But Owen heeded it not。  He sat on the dank ground; his face buried
  in his hands; and his whole strength; physical and mental; employed
  in quelling the rush of blood; which rose and boiled and gurgled in
  his brain as if it would madden him。
  The phantom of his dead child rose ever before him; and seemed to cry
  aloud for vengeance。  And when the poor young man thought upon the
  victim whom he required in his wild longing for revenge; he
  shuddered; for it was his father!
  Again and again he tried not to think; but still the circle of
  thought came round; eddying through his brain。  At length he mastered
  his passions; and they were calm; then he forced himself to arrange
  some plan for the future。
  He had not; in the passionate hurry of the moment; seen that his
  father had left the cottage before he was aware of the fatal accident
  that befell the child。  Owen thought he had seen all; and once he
  planned to go to the Squire and tell him of the anguish of heart he
  had wrought; and awe him; as it were; by the dignity of grief。  But
  then again he durst nothe distrusted his self…controlthe old
  prophecy rose up in its horrorhe dreaded his doom。
  At last he determined to leave his father for ever; to take Nest to
  some distant country where she might forget her firstborn; and where
  he himself might gain a livelihood by his own exertions。
  But when he tried to descend to the various little arrangements which
  were involved in the execution of this plan; he remembered that all
  his money (and in this respect Squire Griffiths was no niggard) was
  locked up in his escritoire at Bodowen。  In vain he tried to do away
  with this matter…of…fact difficulty; go to Bodowen he must:  and his
  only hopenay his determinationwas to avoid his father。
  He rose and took a by…path to Bodowen。  The house looked even more
  gloomy and desolate than usual in the heavy down…pouring rain; yet
  Owen gazed on it with something of regretfor sorrowful as his days
  in it had been; he was about to leave it for many many years; if not
  for ever。  He entered by a side door opening into a passage that led
  to his own room; where he kept his books; his guns; his fishing…
  tackle; his writing materials; et cetera。
  Here he hurriedly began to select the few articles he intended to
  take; for; besides the dread of interruption; he was feverishly
  anxious to travel far that very night; if only Nest was capable of
  performing the journey。  As he was thus employed; he tried to
  conjecture what his father's feelings would be on finding that his
  once…loved son was gone away for ever。  Would he then awaken to
  regret for the conduct which had driven him from home; and bitterly
  think on the loving and caressing boy who haunted his footsteps in
  former days?  Or; alas! would he only feel that an obstacle to his
  daily happinessto his contentment with his wife; and his strange;
  doting affection for the childwas taken away?  Would they make
  merry over the heir's departure?  Then he thought of Nestthe young
  childless mother; whose heart had not yet realized her fulness of
  desolation。  Poor Nest! so loving as she was; so devoted to her
  childhow should he console her?  He pictured her away in a strange
  land; pining for her native mountains; and refusing to be comforted
  because her child was not。
  Even this thought of the home…sickness that might possibly beset Nest
  hardly made him hesitate in his determination; so strongly had the
  idea taken possession of him that only by putting miles and leagues
  between him and his father could he avert the doom which seemed
  blending itself with the very purposes of his life as long as he
  stayed in proximity with the slayer of his child。
  He had now nearly completed his hasty work of preparation; and was
  full of tender thoughts of his wife; when the door opened; and the
  elfish Robert peered in; in search of some of his brother's
  possessions。  On seeing Owen he hesitated; but then came boldly
  forward; and laid his hand on Owen's arm; saying;
  〃Nesta yr buten!  How is Nest yr buten?〃
  He looked maliciously into Owen's face to mark the effect of his
  words; but was terrified at the expression he read there。  He started
  off and ran to the door; while Owen tried to check himself; saying
  continually; 〃He is but a child。  He does not understand the meaning
  of what he says。  He is but a child!〃  Still Robert; now in fancied
  security; kept calling out his insulting words; and Owen's hand was
  on his gun; grasping it as if to restrain his rising fury。
  But when Robert passed on daringly to mocking words relating to the
  poor dead child; Owen could bear it no longer; and before the boy was
  well aware; Owen was fiercely holding him in an iron clasp with one
  hand; while he struck him hard with the other。
  In a minute he checked himself。  He paused; relaxed his grasp; and;
  to his horror; he saw Robert sink to the ground; in fact; the lad was
  half…stunned; half…frightened; and thought it best to assume
  insensibility。
  Owenmiserable Owenseeing him lie there prostrate; was bitterly
  repentant; and would have dragged him to the carved settle; and done
  all he could to restore him to his senses; but at this instant the
  Squire came in。
  Probably; when the household at Bodowen rose that morning; there was
  but one among them ignorant of the heir's relation to Nest Pritchard
  and her child; for secret as he tried to make his visits to Ty Glas;
  they had been too frequent not to be noticed; and Nest's altered
  conductno longer frequenting dances and merry…makingswas a
  strongly corroborative circumstance。  But Mrs。 Griffiths' influence
  reigned paramount; if unacknowledged; at Bodowen; and till she
  sanctioned the disclosure; none would dare to tell the Squire。
  Now; however; the time drew near when it suited her to make her
  husband aware of the connection his son had formed; so; with many
  tears; and much seeming reluctance; she broke the intelligence to
  himtaking good care; at the same time; to inform him of the light
  character Nest had borne。  Nor did she confine this evil reputation
  to her conduct before her marriage; but insinuated that even to this
  day she was a 〃woman of the grove and brake〃for centuries the Welsh
  term of opprobrium for the loosest female characters。
  Squire Griffiths easily tracked Owen to Ty Glas; and without any aim
  but the gratification of his furious anger; followed him to upbraid
  as we have seen。  But he left the cottage even more enraged against
  his son than he had entered it; and returned home to hear the evil
  suggestions of the stepmother。  He had heard a slight scuffle in
  which he caught the tones of Robert's voice; as he passed along the
  hall; and an instant afterwards he saw the apparently lifeless body
  of his little favourite dragged along by the culprit Owenthe marks
  of strong passion yet visible on his face。  Not loud; but bitter and
  deep were the evil words which the father bestowed on the son; and as
  Owen stood proudly and sullenly silent; disdaining all exculpation of
  himself in the presence of one who had wrought him so much graverso
  fatal an injuryRobert's mother entered the room。  At sight of her
  natural emotion the wrath of the Squire was redoubled; and his wild
  suspicions that this violence of Owen's to Robert was a premeditated
  act appeared like the proven truth through the mists of rage。  He
  summoned domestics as if to guard his own and his wife's life from
  the attempts of his son; and the servants stood wondering aroundnow
  gazing at Mrs。 Griffiths; alternately scolding and sobbing; while she
  tried to restore the lad from his really bruised and half…unconscious
  state; now at the fierce and angry Squire; and now at the sad and
  silent Owen。  And hehe was hardly aware of their looks of wonder
  and terror; his father's words fell on a deadened ear; for before his
  eyes there rose a pale dead babe; and in that lady's violent sounds
  of grief he heard the wailing of a more sad; more hopeless mother。
  For by this time the lad Robert had opened his eyes; and though
  evidently suffering a good deal from the effects of Owen's blows; was
  fully conscious of all that was passing around him。
  Had Owen been left to his own nature; his heart would have worked
  itself to doubly love the boy whom he had injured; but he was
  stubborn from injustice; and hardened by suffering。  He refused to
  vindicate himself; he made no effort to resist the imprisonment the
  Squire had decreed; until a surgeon's opinion of the real extent of
  Robert's injuries was made known。  It was not until the door was
  locked and barred; as if upon some wild and furious beast; that the
  recollection of poor Nest; without his comforting presence; came into
  his mind。  Oh! thought he; how she would be wearying; pining for his
  tender sympathy; if; indeed; she had recovered the shock of mind
  sufficiently to be sensible of consolation!