第 18 节
作者:暖暖      更新:2022-11-23 12:12      字数:9322
  alone;   have   slipped   from   the   house   and   be   awaiting   him   there?   With   a
  muttered exclamation at his stupidity he stepped hastily from the veranda
  and   walked   towards   it。   But   he   had   scarcely   proceeded   a   dozen   yards
  before   it   disappeared。   He   reached   the   summer…houseit   was   empty;   he
  followed the line of hedgeno one was there。 It could not have been her;
  or she would have waited; unless he were the victim of a practical joke。 He
  turned impatiently back to the house; reentered the drawing…room by the
  French window; and was crossing the half…lit apartment; when he heard a
  slight rustle in the shadow of the window。 He looked around quickly; and
  saw that it was Yerba; in a white; loose gown; for which she had already
  exchanged her black evening dress; leaning back composedly on the sofa;
  her hands clasped behind her shapely head。
  〃I am waiting for Milly;〃 she said; with a faint smile on her lips。 He
  fancied; in the moonlight that streamed   upon her; that her beautiful   face
  was pale。 〃She has gone to the other wing to see one of the servants who is
  ill。   We   thought   you   were   on   the   veranda   smoking   and   I   should      have
  company; until I saw you start off; and rush up and down the hedge like
  mad。〃
  Paul felt that he was losing his self…possession; and becoming nervous
  in her presence。 〃I thought it was YOU;〃 he stammered。
  〃Me! Out in the garden at this hour; alone; and in the broad moonlight?
  What   are   you   thinking   of;   Mr。   Hathaway?   Do   you   know   anything   of
  convent rules; or is that your idea of your ward's education?〃
  He fancied that; though she smiled faintly; her voice was as tremulous
  as his own。
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  〃I want to speak with you;〃 he said; with awkward directness。 〃I even
  thought of asking you to stroll with me in the garden。〃
  〃Why not talk here?〃 she returned; changing her position; pointing to
  the other end of the sofa; and drawing the whole overflow of her skirt to
  one side。 〃It is not so very late; and Milly will return in a few moments。〃
  Her face was in shadow now; but there was a glow…worm light in her
  beautiful eyes that seemed faintly to illuminate her whole face。 He   sank
  down      on  the   sofa  at  her   side;  no   longer   the  brilliant   and   ambitious
  politician; but; it seemed to him; as hopelessly a dreaming; inexperienced
  boy as when he had given her the name that now was all he could think of;
  and the only word that rose to his feverish lips。
  〃Yerba!〃
  〃I like to hear you say it;〃 she said quickly; as if to gloss over his first
  omission of her formal prefix; and leaning a little forward; with her eyes
  on his。 〃One would think you had created it。 You almost make me regret to
  lose it。〃
  He stopped。 He felt that the last sentence had saved him。 〃It is of that I
  want     to  speak;〃   he   broke   out   suddenly    and   almost    rudely。   〃Are   you
  satisfied   that   it   means   nothing;   and   can   mean   nothing;   to   you?   Does   it
  awaken no memory in your mindrecall nothing you care to know? Think!
  I beg you; I implore you to be frank with me!〃
  She looked at him with surprise。
  〃I have told you already that my present name must be some absurd
  blunder; or some intentional concealment。 But why do you want to know
  NOW?〃 she continued; adding her faint smile to the emphasis。
  〃To   help   you!〃   he   said;   eagerly。   〃For   that   alone!   To   do   all   I   can   to
  assist you; if you really believe; and want to believe; that you have another。
  To ask you to confide in me; to tell me all you have been told; all that you
  know; think you know; or WANT to know about your relationship to the
  Arguellosor toany one。 And then to devote myself entirely to proving
  what you shall say is your desire。 You see; I am frank with you; Yerba。 I
  only ask you to be as frank with me; to let me know your doubts; that I
  may counsel you; your fears; that I may give you courage。〃
  〃Is that all you came here to tell me?〃 she asked quietly。
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  〃No;   Yerba;〃   he   said;   eagerly;   taking   her   unresisting   but   indifferent
  hand; 〃not all; but all that I must say; all that I have the right to say; all that
  you; Yerba; would permit me to tell you NOW。 But let me hope that the
  day is not far distant when I can tell you ALL; when you will understand
  that this silence has been the hardest sacrifice of the man who now speaks
  to you。〃
  〃And     yet   not   unworthy   of     a  rising   politician;〃   she   added;    quickly
  withdrawing her hand。 〃I agree;〃 she went on; looking towards the door;
  yet   without   appearing to   avoid his   eager   eyes;  〃and   when   I have   settled
  upon     'a  local   habitation    and    a  name'    we    shall  renew     this  interesting
  conversation。   Until   then;   as   my   fourth   official   guardian   used   to   sayhe
  was a lawyer; Mr。 Hathaway; like yourself when he was winding up his
  conjectures on the subjectall that has passed is to be considered 'without
  prejudice。'〃
  〃But Yerba〃began Paul; bitterly。
  She slightly raised her hand as if to check him with a warning gesture。
  〃Yes;     dear;〃    she    said   suddenly;      lifting   her   musical     voice;    with     a
  mischievous   side…glance   at   Paul;   as   if   to   indicate   her   conception   of   the
  irony of a possible application; 〃this way。 Here we are waiting for you。〃
  Her listening ear had detected Milly's step in the passage; and in another
  moment that cheerful young woman discreetly stopped on the threshold of
  the room; with every expression of apologetic indiscretion in her face。
  〃We have finished our talk; and Mr。 Hathaway has been so concerned
  about my having no real name that he has been promising me everything;
  but   his   own;   for   a   suitable   one。   Haven't   you;   Mr。   Hathaway?〃   She   rose
  slowly and; going over to Milly; put her arm around her waist and stood
  for one instant gazing at him between the curtains of the doorway。 〃Good
  night。   My   very   proper   chaperon   is   dreadfully   shocked   at   this   midnight
  interview;   and   is   taking   me   away。   Only   think   of   it;   Milly;   he   actually
  proposed   to   me   to   walk   in   the   garden   with   him!   Good   night;   or;   as   my
  ancestorsdon't   forget;   MY  ANCESTORSused   to   say:   'Buena   noche
  hasta manana!'〃 She lingered over the Spanish syllables with an imitation
  of   Dona   Anna's   lisp;   and   with   another   smile;   but   more   faint   and   more
  ghostlike than before; vanished with her companion。
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  At   eight   o'clock    the  next   morning     Paul   was    standing    beside   his
  portmanteau on the veranda。
  〃But this is a sudden resolution of yours; Hathaway;〃 said Mr。 Woods。
  〃Can you not possibly wait for the next train? The girls will be down then;
  and you can breakfast comfortably。〃
  〃I have much to domore than I imaginedin San Francisco before I
  return;〃   said   Paul;  quickly。   〃You   must   make   my   excuses   to   them  and   to
  your wife。〃
  〃I hope;〃 said Woods; with an uneasy laugh; 〃you have had no more
  words with Don Caesar; or he with you?〃
  〃No;〃 said Paul; with a reassuring smile; 〃nothing more; I assure you。〃
  〃For you know you're a devilish quick fellow; Hathaway;〃 continued
  Woods; 〃quite as quick as your friend Pendleton。 And; by the way; Baker
  is awfully cut up about that absurd speech of his; you know。 Came to me
  last night and wondered if anybody could think it was intentional。 I told
  him it was dd stupid; that was all。 I guess his wife had been at him。 Ha!
  ha! You see; he remembers the old times; when everybody talked of these
  things; and that woman Howard was quite a character。 I'm told she went
  off to the States years ago。〃
  〃Possibly;〃 said Paul;   carelessly。 After   a pause; as   the carriage drove
  up   to   the   door;   he   turned   to   his   host。   〃By   the   way;   Woods;   have   you   a
  ghost here?〃
  〃The house is old enough for one。 But no。 Why?〃
  〃I'll   swear   I   saw   a   figure   moving   yonder;   in   the   shrubbery;   late   last
  evening; and when I came up to it; it most unaccountably disappeared。〃
  〃One of   Don   Caesar's   servants;   I   dare   say。 There   is   one   of   them;   an
  Indian; prowling about here; I've been told; at all hours。 I'll put a stop to