第 159 节
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  Mr。 Wllmot。
  The burial; however; failed to bring any peaceful comfort to the
  mourning mother。  Meta's tears flowed freely; as much for her father
  as for her little niece; and George's sobs were deep and choking; but
  Flora; externally; only seemed absorbed in helping him to go through
  with it; she; herself; never lost her fixed; composed; hopeless look。
  After her return; she went up to the nursery; and deliberately set
  apart and locked up every possession of her child's; then; coming
  down; startled Meta by laying her hand on her shoulder and saying;
  〃Meta; dear; Preston is in the housekeeper's room。  Will you go and
  speak to her for a moment; to reassure her before I come?〃
  〃Oh; Flora!〃
  〃I sent for her;〃 said Flora; in answer。  〃I thought it would be a
  good opportunity while George is out。  Will you be kind enough to
  prepare her; my dear?〃
  Meta wondered how Flora had known whither to send; but she could not
  but obey。  Poor Preston was an ordinary sort of woman; kind…hearted;
  and not without a conscience; but her error had arisen from the want
  of any high religious principle to teach her obedience; or sincerity。
  Her grief was extreme; and she had been so completely overcome by the
  forbearance and consideration shown to her; that she was even more
  broken…hearted by the thought of them; than by the terrible calamity
  she had occasioned。
  Kind…hearted Mrs。 Larpent had tried to console her; as well as to
  turn the misfortune to the best account; and Dr。 May had once seen
  her; and striven gently to point out the true evil of the course she
  had pursued。  She was now going to her home; and they augured better
  of her; that she had been as yet too utterly downcast to say one word
  of that first thought with a servant; her character。
  Meta found her sobbing uncontrollably at the associations of her
  master's house; and dreadfully frightened at hearing that she was to
  see Mrs。 Rivers; she began to entreat to the contrary with the
  vehemence of a person unused to any self…government; but; in the
  midst; the low calm tones were heard; and her mistress stood before
  herher perfect stillness of demeanour far more effective in
  repressing agitation; than had been Meta's coaxing attempts to
  soothe。
  〃You need not be afraid to see me; Preston;〃 said Flora kindly。  〃I
  am very sorry for youyou knew no better; and I should not have left
  so much to you。〃
  〃Oh; ma'amso kindthe dear; dear little darlingI shall never
  forgive myself。〃
  〃I know you did love her;〃 continued Flora。  〃I am sure you intended
  no harm; and it was my leaving her that made her fretful。〃
  Preston tried to thank。
  〃Only remember henceforth〃and the clear tone grew fainter than ever
  with internal anguish; though still steady〃remember strict
  obedience and truth henceforth; the want of them will have worse
  results by and by than even this。  Now; Preston; I shall always wish
  you well。  I ought not; I believe; to recommend you to the like
  place; without saying why you left me; but for any other I will give
  you a fair character。  I will see what I can do for you; and if you
  are ever in any distress; I hope you will let me know。  Have your
  wages been paid?〃
  There was a sound in the affirmative; but poor Preston could not
  speak。  〃Good…bye; then;〃 and Flora took her hand and shook it。
  〃Mind you let me hear if you want help。  Keep this。〃
  Meta was a little disappointed to see sovereigns instead of a book。
  Flora turned to go; and put her hand out to lean on her sister as for
  support; she stood still to gather strength before ascending the
  stairs; and a groan of intense misery was wrung from her。
  〃Dearest Flora; it has been too much!〃
  〃No;〃 said Flora gently。
  〃Poor thing; I am glad for her sake。  But might she not have a book
  a Bible?〃
  〃You may give her one; if you like。  I could not。〃
  Flora reached her own room; went in; and bolted the door。
  CHAPTER XXI。
  Oh; where dwell ye; my ain sweet bairns?
  I'm woe and weary grown!
  Oh; Lady; we live where woe never is;
  In a land to flesh unknown。ALLAN CUNNINGHAM。
  It had been with a gentle sorrow that Etheldred had expected to go
  and lay in her resting…place; the little niece; who had been kept
  from the evil of the world; in a manner of which she had little
  dreamt。  Poor Flora! she must be ennobled; she thought; by having a
  child where hers is; when she is able to feel anything but the first
  grief; and Ethel's heart yearned to be trying; at least; to comfort
  her; and to be with her father; who had loved his grandchild so
  fondly。
  It was not to be。  Margaret had borne so many shocks with such
  calmness; that Ethel had no especial fears for her; but there are
  some persons who have less fortitude for others than for themselves;
  and she was one of these。  Ethel had been her own companion…sister;
  and the baby had been the sunbeam of her life; during the sad winter
  and spring。
  In the middle of the night; Ethel knocked at Richard's door。
  Margaret had been seized with faintness; from which they could not
  bring her back; and; even when Richard had summoned Dr。 Spencer; it
  was long ere his remedies took effect; but; at last; she revived
  enough to thank them; and say she was glad that papa was not there。
  Dr。 Spencer sent them all to bed; and the rest of the night was
  quiet; but Margaret could not deny; in the morning; that she felt
  terribly shattered; and she was depressed in spirits to a degree such
  as they had never seen in her before。  Her whole heart was with
  Flora; she was unhappy at being at a distance from her; almost
  fretfully impatient for letters; and insisting vehemently on Ethel's
  going to London。
  Ethel had never felt so helpless and desolate; as with Margaret thus
  changed and broken; and her father absent。
  〃My dear;〃 said Dr。 Spencer; 〃nothing can be better for both parties
  than that he should be away。  If he were here; he ought to leave all
  attendance to me; and she would suffer from the sight of his
  distress。〃
  〃I cannot think what he will do or feel!〃 sighed Ethel。
  〃Leave it to me。  I will write to him; and we shall see her better
  before post time。〃
  〃You will tell him exactly how it was; or I shall;〃 said Ethel
  abruptly; not to say fiercely。
  〃Ho! you don't trust me?〃 said Dr。 Spencer; smiling; so that she was
  ashamed of her speech。  〃You shall speak for yourself; and I for
  myself; and I shall say that nothing would so much hurt her as to
  have others sacrificed to her。〃
  〃That is true;〃 said Ethel; 〃but she misses papa。〃
  〃Of course she does; but; depend on it; she would not have him leave
  your sister; and she is under less restraint without him。〃
  〃I never saw her like this!〃
  〃The drop has made it overflow。  She has repressed more than was good
  for her; and now that her guard is broken down; she gives way under
  the whole weight。〃
  〃Poor Margaret!  I am pertinacious; but; if she is not better by post
  time; papa will not bear to be away。〃
  〃I'll tell you what I think of her by that time。  Send up your
  brother Richard; if you wish to do her good。  Richard would be a much
  better person to write than yourself。  I perceive that he is the
  reasonable member of the family。〃
  〃Did not you know that before?〃
  〃All I knew of him; till last night; was; that no one could; by any
  possibility; call him Dick。〃
  Dr。 Spencer was glad to have dismissed Ethel smiling; and she was the
  better able to bear with poor Margaret's condition of petulance。  She
  had never before experienced the effects of bodily ailments on the
  temper; and she was slow to understand the change in one usually so
  patient and submissive。  She was; by turns; displeased with her
  sister and with her own abruptness; but; though she knew it not; her
  bluntness had a bracing effect。  She thought she had been cross in
  declaring it was nonsense to harp on her going to London; but it made
  Margaret feel that she had been unreasonable; and keep silence。
  Richard managed her much better; being gentle and firm; and less
  ready to speak than Ethel; and he succeeded in composing her into a
  sleep; which restored her balance; and so relieved Ethel; that she
  not only allowed Dr。 Spencer to say what he pleased; but herself made
  light of the whole attack; little knowing how perilous was any shock
  to that delicate frame。
  Margaret's whole purpose was to wind herself up for the first
  interview with Flora; and though she had returned to her usual state;
  she would not go downstairs on the evening the party were expected;
  believing it would be more grateful to her sister's feelings to meet
  her without witnesses。
  The travellers arrived; and Dr。 May hurried up to her。  She barely
  replied to his caresses and inquiries in her eagerness to hear of
  Flora; and to convince him that he must not forbid the meeting。  Nor
  had he any mind so to do。  〃Surely;〃 said he; when he had seen the
  spiritualised look of her glistening blue eyes; the flush on her
  transparent cheeks; and her hands clasped over her breast 〃surely
  poor Flora must feel as though an angel were waiting to comfort her。〃
  Flora came; but there was sore disappointment。  Fond and tender she
  was as ever; but; neither by word or gesture; would she admit the
  most r