第 158 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9320
  〃No; I remember now; not where it was justly due。  Papa;〃 she said;
  pausing; as to recall her recollection; 〃what did I do?  I must have
  done something very unkind to make him go away and leave me。〃
  〃I insisted on his leaving you; my dear。  You seemed oppressed; and
  his affectionate ways were doing you harm; so I was hardhearted; and
  turned him out; sadly against his will。〃
  〃Poor George!〃 said Flora; 〃has he been left to bear it alone all
  this time?  How much distressed he must have been。  I must have vexed
  him grievously。  You don't guess how fond he was of her。  I must go
  to him at once。〃
  〃That is right; my dear。〃
  〃Don't praise me;〃 said she; as if she could not bear it。  〃All that
  is left for me is to do what I can for him。〃
  Dr。 May felt cheered。  He was sure that hope must again rise out of
  unselfish love and duty。
  Their return awoke George; who started; half sitting up; wondering
  why he was spending the night in so unusual a manner; and why Flora
  looked so pale; in the morning light; with her loosened; drooping
  hair。
  She went straight to him; and; kneeling by his side; said; 〃George;
  forgive!〃  The same moment he had caught her to his bosom; but so
  impressed was his tardy mind with the peril of talking to her; that
  he held her in his arms without a single word; till Dr。 May had
  unclosed his lipsa sign would not sufficehe must have a sentence
  to assure him; and then it was such joy to have her restored; and his
  fondness and solicitude were so tender and eager in their clumsiness;
  that his father…in…law was touched to the heart。
  Flora was quite herself again; in presence of mind and power of
  dealing with him; and Dr。 May left them to each other; and went to
  his own room; for such rest as sorrow; sympathy; and the wakening
  city; would permit him。
  When the house was astir in the morning; and the doctor had met Meta
  in the breakfast…room; and held with her a sad; affectionate
  conversation; George came down with a fair report of his wife; and
  took her father to see her。
  That night had been like an illness to her; and; though perfectly
  composed; she was feeble and crushed; keeping the room darkened; and
  reluctant to move or speak。  Indeed; she did not seem able to give
  her attention to any one's voice; except her husband's。  When Dr。
  May; or Meta; spoke to her; she would miss what they said; beg their
  pardon; and ask them to repeat it; and sometimes; even then; become
  bewildered。  They tried reading to her; but she did not seem to
  listen; and her half…closed eye had the expression of listless
  dejection; that her father knew betokened that; even as last night;
  her heart refused to accept promises of comfort as meant for her。
  For George; however; her attention was always ready; and was
  perpetually claimed。  He was forlorn and at a loss without her; every
  moment; and; in the sorrow which he too felt most acutely; could not
  have a minute's peace unless soothed by her presence; he was
  dependent on her to a degree which amazed and almost provoked the
  doctor; who could not bear to have her continually harassed and
  disturbed; and yet was much affected by witnessing so much
  tenderness; especially in Flora; always the cold utilitarian member
  of his family。
  In the middle of the day she rose and dressed; because George was
  unhappy at having to sit without her; though only in the next room。
  She sat in the large arm…chair; turned away from the blinded windows;
  never speaking nor moving; save when he came to her; to make her look
  at his letters and notes; when she would; with the greatest patience
  and sweetness; revise them; suggest word or sentence; rouse herself
  to consider each petty detail; and then sink back into her attitude
  of listless dejection。  To all besides; she appeared totally
  indifferent; gently courteous to Meta and to her father; when they
  addressed her; but otherwise showing little consciousness whether
  they were in the room; and yet; when something was passing about her
  father's staying or returning; she rose from her seat; came up to him
  before he was aware; and said; 〃Papa! papa! you will not leave me!〃
  in such an imploring tone; that if he had ever thought of quitting
  her; he could not have done so。
  He longed to see her left to perfect tranquillity; but such could not
  be in London。  Though theirs was called a quiet house; the rushing
  stream of traffic wearied his country ears; the door bell seemed
  ceaselessly ringing; and though Meta bore the brunt of the notes and
  messages; great numbers necessarily came up to Mr。 Rivers; and of
  these Flora was not spared one。  Dr。 May had his share too of
  messages and business; and friends and relations; the Rivers'
  kindred; always ready to take offence with their rich connections;
  and who would not be satisfied with inquiries; at the door; but must
  see Meta; and would have George fetched down to themold aunts; who
  wanted the whole story of the child's illness; and came imagining
  there was something to be hushed up; Lady Leonora extremely polite;
  but extremely disgusted at the encounter with them; George ready to
  be persuaded to take every one up to see his wife; and the
  prohibition to be made by Dr。 May over and over againit was a most
  tedious; wearing afternoon; and at last; when the visitors had gone;
  and George had hurried back to his wife; Dr。 May threw himself into
  an arm…chair and said; 〃Oh; Meta; sorrow weighs more heavily in town
  than in the country!〃
  〃Yes!〃 said Meta。  〃If one only could go out and look at the flowers;
  and take poor Flora up a nosegay!〃
  〃I don't think it would make much difference to her;〃 sighed the
  doctor。
  〃Yes; I think it would;〃 said Meta; 〃it did to me。  The sights there
  speak of the better sights。〃
  〃The power to look must come from within;〃 said Dr。 May; thinking of
  his poor daughter。
  〃Ay;〃 said Meta; 〃as Mr。 Ernescliffe said; 'heaven is as near!'
  But the skirts of heaven are more easily traced in our mountain view
  than here; where; if I looked out of window; I should only see that
  giddy string of carriages and people pursuing each other!〃
  〃Well; we shall get her home as soon as she is able to move; and I
  hope it may soothe her。  What a turmoil it is!  There has not been
  one moment without noise in the twenty…two hours I have been here!〃
  〃What would you say if you were in the city?〃
  〃Ah! there's no talking of it; but if I had been a fashionable London
  physician; as my father…in…law wanted to make me; I should have been
  dead long ago!〃
  〃No; I think you would have liked it very much。〃
  〃Why?〃
  〃Love's a flower that will not die;〃 repeated Meta; half smiling。
  〃You would have found so much good to do〃
  〃And so much misery to rend one's heart;〃 said Dr。 May。  〃But; after
  all; I suppose there is only a certain capacity of feeling。〃
  〃It is within; not without; as you said;〃 returned Meta。
  〃Ha; there's another!〃 cried Dr。 May; almost petulant at the sound of
  the bell again; breaking into the conversation that was a great
  refreshment。
  〃It was Sir Henry Walkinghame's ring;〃 said Meta。  〃It is always his
  time of day。〃
  The doctor did not like it the better。
  Sir Henry sent up a message to ask whether he could see Mr。 or Miss
  Rivers。
  〃I suppose we must;〃 said Meta; looking at the doctor。  〃Lady
  Walkinghame must be anxious about Flora。〃
  She blushed greatly; fancying that Dr。 May was putting his own
  construction on the heightened colour which she could not control。
  Sir Henry came in; just what he ought to be; kindly anxious; but not
  overwhelming; and with a ready; pleased recognition of the doctor; as
  an old acquaintance of his boyhood。  He did not stay many minutes;
  but there was a perceptible difference between his real sympathy and
  friendly regard only afraid of obtruding; and the oppressive
  curiosity of their former visitors。  Dr。 May felt it due; both from
  kindness and candour; to say something in his praise when he was
  gone。
  〃That is a sensible superior man;〃 he said。 〃He will be an
  acquisition when he takes up his abode at Drydale。〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Meta; a very simple yes; from which nothing could be
  gathered。
  The funeral was fixed for Monday; the next day but one; at the church
  where Mr。 Rivers had been buried。  No one was invited to be present;
  Ethel wrote that; much as she wished it; she could not leave
  Margaret; and; as the whole party were to return home on the
  following day; they should soon see Flora。
  Flora had laid aside all privileges of illness after the first day;
  she came downstairs to breakfast and dinner; and though looking
  wretchedly ill; and speaking very low and feebly; she was as much as
  ever the mistress of her house。  Her father could never draw her into
  conversation again on the subject nearest his heart; and could only
  draw the sad conclusion that her state of mind was unchanged; from
  the dreary indifference with which she allowed every word of cheer to
  pass by unheeded; as if she could not bear to look beyond the grave。
  He had some hope in the funeral; which she was bent on attending; and
  more in the influence of Margaret; and the counsel of Richard; or of
  Mr。 Wllmot。
  The burial; however; failed to bring any peaceful comfort to the