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  say it。  We only want Harry; to exact the forfeit!  Poor dear little
  humming…bird!  It gives one an oppression on the chest; to think of
  her having that great do…nothing brother on her hands all day。〃
  〃Thank you;〃 said Norman; 〃I shall know where I am not to look when I
  want a sister。〃
  〃Ay;〃 said Ethel; 〃when you come yawning to me to find amusement for
  you; you will see what I shall do!〃
  〃Stand over me with a stick while I print A B C for Cocksmoor; I
  suppose;〃 said Norman。
  〃Well! why not?  People are much better doing something than
  nothing。〃
  〃What; you won't even let me blow bubbles!〃 said Norman。
  〃That is too intellectual; as papa makes it;〃 said Ethel。  〃By the
  bye; Norman;〃 she added; as she had now walked with him a little
  apart; 〃it always was a bubble of mine that you should try for the
  Newdigate prize。  Ha!〃 as the colour rushed into his cheeks; 〃you
  really have begun!〃
  〃I could not help it; when I heard the subject given out for next
  year。  Our old friend; Decius Mus。〃
  〃Have you finished?〃
  〃By no means; but it brought a world of notions into my head; such as
  I could not but set down。  Now; Ethel; do oblige me; do write
  another; as we used in old times。〃
  〃I had better not;〃 said Ethel; standing thoughtful。  〃If I throw
  myself into it; I shall hate everything else; and my wits will be
  woolgathering。  I have neither time nor poetry enough。〃
  〃You used to write English verse。〃
  〃I was cured of it。〃
  〃How?〃
  〃I wanted money for Cocksmoor; and after persuading papa; I got leave
  to send a ballad about a little girl and a white rose to that school
  magazine。  I don't think papa liked it; but there were some verses
  that touched him; and one had seen worse。  It was actually inserted;
  and I was in high feather; till; oh; Norman! imagine Richard getting
  hold of this unlucky thing; without a notion where it came from!
  Margaret put it before him; to see what he would say to it。〃
  〃I am afraid it was not like a young lady's anonymous composition in
  a story。〃
  〃By no means。  Imagine Ritchie picking my poor metaphors to pieces;
  and weighing every sentimental line!  And all in his dear old
  simplicity; because he wanted to understand it; seeing that Margaret
  liked it。  He had not the least intention of hurting my feelings; but
  never was I so annihilated!  I thought he was doing it on purpose;
  till I saw how distressed he was when he found it out; and worse than
  all was; his saying at the end that he supposed it was very fine; but
  he could not understand it。〃
  〃Let me see it。〃
  〃Some time or other; but let me see Decius。〃
  〃Did you give up verses because Richard could not understand them?〃
  〃No; because I had other fish to fry。  And I have not given them up
  altogether。  I do scrabble down things that tease me by running in my
  head; when I want to clear my brains; and know what I mean; but I
  can't do it without sitting up at night; and that stupefies me before
  breakfast。  And as to making bubbles of them; Ritchie has cured me of
  that!〃
  〃It is a pity! 〃 said Norman。
  〃Nonsense; let me see Decius。  I know he is splendid。〃
  〃I wish you would have tried; for all my best ideas are stolen from
  you。〃
  Ethel prevailed by following her brother to his room; and perching
  herself on the window…sill; while he read his performance from many
  slips of paper。  The visions of those boyish days had not been
  forgotten; the Vesuvius scenery was much as Ethel had once described
  it; but with far more force and beauty; there was Decius's
  impassioned address to the beauteous land he was about to leave; and
  the remembrances of his Roman hearth; his farm; his children; whom he
  quitted for the pale shadows of an uncertain Elysium。  There was a
  great hiatus in the middle; and Norman had many more authorities to
  consult; but the summing…up was nearly complete; and Ethel thought
  the last lines grand; as they spoke of the noble consul's name living
  for evermore; added to the examples that nerve ardent souls to devote
  life; and all that is precious; to the call of duty。  Fame is not
  their object。  She may crown their pale brows; but for the good of
  others; not their own; a beacon light to the world。  Self is no
  object of theirs; and it is the casting self behind that winsnot
  always the visible earthly strife; but the combat between good and
  evil。  They are the true victors; and; whether chronicled or
  forgotten; true glory rests on their heads; the sole true glory that
  man can attain; namely; the reflected beams that crown them as
  shadowy types of Him whom Decius knew notthe Prince who gave
  Himself for His people; and thus rendered death; for Truth's sake;
  the highest boon to mortal man。
  〃Norman; you must finish it!  When will it be given in?〃
  〃Next spring; if at all; but keep the secret; Ethel。  I cannot have
  my father's hopes raised。〃
  〃I'll tell you of a motto;〃 said Ethel。  〃Do you remember Mrs。
  Hemans' mention of a saying of Sir Walter Scott 'Never let me hear
  that brave blood has been shed in vain。  It sends a roaring voice
  down through all time。'〃
  〃If;〃 said Norman; rather ashamed of the enthusiasm which; almost
  approaching to the so…called 〃funny state〃 of his younger days; had
  trembled in his voice; and kindled his eye〃if you won't let me put
  'nascitur ridiculus mus。'〃
  〃Too obvious;〃 said Ethel。  〃Depend upon it; every undergraduate has
  thought of it already。〃
  Ethel was always very happy over Norman's secrets; and went about
  smiling over Decius; and comparing her brother with such a one as
  poor Meta was afflicted with; wasting some superfluous pity and
  contempt on the weary weight that was inflicted on the Grange。
  〃What do you think of me?〃 said Margaret; one afternoon。  〃I have had
  Mr。 George Rivers here for two hours。〃
  〃Alone! what could bring him here?〃
  〃I told him that every one was out; but he chose to sit down; and
  seemed to be waiting。〃
  〃How could you get on?〃
  〃Oh! we asked a few questions; and brought out remarks; with great
  difficulty; at long intervals。  He asked me if lying here was not a
  great nuisance; and; at last; he grew tired of twisting his
  moustache; and went away。〃
  〃I trust it was a call to take leave。〃
  〃No; he thinks he shall sell out; for the army is a great nuisance。〃
  〃You seem to have got into his confidence。〃
  〃Yes; he said he wanted to settle down; but living with one's father
  was such a nuisance。〃
  〃By the bye;〃 cried Ethel; laughing; 〃Margaret; it strikes me that
  this is a Dumbiedikes' courtship!〃
  〃Of yourself?〃 said Margaret slyly。
  〃No; of Flora。  You know; she has often met him at the Grange and
  other places; and she does contrive to amuse him; and make him almost
  animated。  I should not think he found her a great nuisance。〃
  〃Poor man!  I am sorry for him!〃 said Margaret。
  〃Oh! rejection will be very good for him; and give him
  something to think of。〃
  〃Flora will never let it come to that;〃 said Margaret。  〃But not one
  word about it; Ethel!〃
  Margaret and Etheldred kept their eyes open; and sometimes imagined;
  sometimes laughed at themselves for their speculations; and so
  October began; and Ethel laughed; as she questioned whether the
  Grange would feel the Hussar's return to his quarters; as much as
  home would the departure of their scholar for Balliol。
  CHAPTER VI。
  So; Lady Flora; take my lay;
  And if you find a meaning there;
  Oh! whisper to your glass; and say;
  What wonder; if he thinks me fair。Tennyson。
  Flora and Norman were dining with one of their county acquaintance;
  and Dr。 May had undertaken to admit them on their return。  The fire
  shone red and bright; as it sank calmly away; and the timepiece and
  clock on the stairs had begun their nightly duet of ticking; the
  crickets chirped in the kitchen; and the doctor sat alone。  His book
  lay with unturned pages; as he sat musing; with eyes fixed on the
  fire; living over again his own life; the easy bright days of his
  youth; when; without much pains on his own part; the tendencies of
  his generous affectionate disposition; and the influences of a warm
  friendship; and an early attachment; had guarded him from evilthen
  the period when he had been perfectly happy; and the sobering power
  of his position had been gradually working on him; but though always
  religious and highly principled; the very goodness of his natural
  character preventing him from perceiving the need of self…control;
  until the shock that changed the whole tenor of his life; and left
  him; for the first time; sensible of his own responsibility; but with
  inveterate habits of heedlessness and hastiness that love alone gave
  him force to combat。  He was now a far gentler man。  His younger
  children had never seen; his elder had long since forgotten; his
  occasional bursts of temper; but he suffered keenly from their
  effects; especially as regarded some of his children。  Though
  Richard's timidity had been overcome; and Tom's more serious failures
  had been remedied; he was not without anxiety; and had a strange
  unsatisfactory feeling as regarded Flora。  He could not feel that he
  fathomed her!  She reminded him of his old Scottish father…in…law;
  Professor Mackenzie; whom he had never understood