第 93 节
作者:这就是结局      更新:2022-08-21 16:40      字数:9320
  glance that she turned towards Ethel; as she heard her answer by a
  sigh。
  These years had dealt more kindly with Etheldred's outward
  appearance。  They had rounded her angles; softened her features; and
  tinged her cheeks with a touch of red; that took off from the
  surrounding sallowness。  She held herself better; had learned to keep
  her hair in order; and the more womanly dress; plain though it was;
  improved her figure more than could have been hoped in the days of
  her lank; gawky girlhood。  No one could call her pretty; but her
  countenance had something more than ever pleasing in the animated and
  thoughtful expression on those marked features。  She was sitting near
  the window; with a book; a dictionary; and pencil; as she replied to
  Margaret; with the sigh that made her sister smile。
  〃Poor Ethel! I condole with you。〃
  〃And I wonder at you!〃 said Ethel; 〃especially as Flora and Mrs。
  Hoxton say it is all for your sake;〃 then; nettled by Margaret's
  laugh; 〃Such a nice occupation for her; poor thing; as if you were
  Mrs。 Hoxton; and had no resource but fancy…work。〃
  〃You know I am base enough to be so amused;〃 said Margaret; 〃but;
  seriously; Ethel dear; I cannot bear to see you so much hurt by it。
  I did not know you were really grieved。〃
  〃Grieved!  I am ashamedsickened!〃 cried Ethel vehemently。  〃Poor
  Cocksmoor!  As soon as anything is done there; Flora must needs go
  about implying that we have set some grand work in hand; and want
  only means〃
  〃Stop; Ethel; Flora does not boast。〃
  〃No; she does not boast。  I wish she did!  That would be
  straightforward and simple; but she has too good taste for thatso
  she does worseshe tells a little; and makes that go a long way; as
  if she were keeping back a great deal!  You don't know how furious it
  makes me!〃
  〃Ethel!〃
  〃So;〃 said Ethel; disregarding; 〃she stirs up all Stoneborough to
  hear what the Miss Mays are doing at Cocksmoor。  So the Ladies'
  Committee must needs have their finger in!  Much they cared for the
  place when it was wild and neglected!  But they go to inspect Cherry
  and her schoolMrs。 Ledwich and alland; back they come; shocked
  no system; no order; the mistress untrained; the school too small;
  with no apparatus!  They all run about in despair; as if we had ever
  asked them to help us。  And so Mrs。 Hoxton; who cares for poor
  children no more than for puppy…dogs; but who can't live without
  useless work; and has filled her house as full of it as it can hold;
  devises a bazaara field for her trumpery; and a show…off for all
  the young ladies; and Flora treats it like an inspiration!  Off they
  trot; to the old Assembly Rooms。  I trusted that the smallness of
  them would have knocked it on the head; but; still worse; Flora's
  talking of it makes Mr。 Rivers think it our pet scheme; so; what does
  he do but offer his park; and so we are to have a regular fancy fair;
  and Cocksmoor School will be founded in vanity and frivolity!  But I
  believe you like it!〃
  〃I am not sure of my own feeling;〃 said Margaret。  〃It has been
  settled without our interposition; and I have never been able to talk
  it over calmly with you。  Papa does not seem to disapprove。〃
  〃No;〃 said Ethel。  〃He will only laugh; and say it will spare him a
  great many of Mrs。 Hoxton's nervous attacks。  He thinks of it nearly
  as I do; at the bottom; but I cannot get him to stop it; nor even to
  say he does not wish Flora to sell。〃
  〃I did not understand that you really had such strong objections;〃
  said Margaret。  〃I thought it was only as a piece of folly; and〃
  〃And interference with my Cocksmoor?〃 said Ethel。  I had better own
  to what may be wrong personal feeling at first。〃
  〃I can hardly call it wrong;〃 said Margaret tenderly; 〃considering
  what Cocksmoor is to you; and what the Ladies' Committee is。〃
  〃Oh; Margaret; if the lawful authorityif a good clergyman would
  only come; how willingly would I work under him!  But Mrs。 Ledwich
  andit is like having all the Spaniards and savages spoiling
  Robinson Crusoe's desert island!〃
  〃It is not come to that yet;〃 said Margaret; 〃but about the fancy
  fair。  We all know that the school is very much wanted。〃
  〃Yes; but I hoped to wait in patience and perseverance; and do it at
  last。〃
  〃All yourself?〃
  〃Now; Margaret! you know I was glad of Alan's help。〃
  〃I should think so!〃 said Margaret。 〃You need not make a favour of
  that!〃
  〃Yes; but; don't you see; that came as almsgiving; in the way which
  brings a blessing。  We want nothing to make us give money and work to
  Cocksmoor。  We do all we can already; and I don't want to get a fine
  bag or a ridiculous pincushion in exchange!〃
  〃Not you; but〃
  〃Well; for the rest。  If they like to offer their money; well and
  good; the better for them; but why must they not give it to
  Cocksmoorbut for that unnatural butterfly of Blanche's; with black
  pins for horns; that they will go and sell at an extortionate rate。〃
  〃The price will be given for Cocksmoor's sake!〃
  〃Pooh! Margaret。  Do you think it is for Cocksmoor's sake that Lady
  Leonora Langdale and her fine daughter come down from London?  Would
  Mrs。 Hoxton spend the time in making frocks for Cocksmoor children
  that she does in cutting out paper; and stuffing glass bottles with
  it?  Let people be honestalms; or pleasure; or vanity! let them say
  which they mean; but don't make charity the excuse for the others;
  and; above all; don't make my poor Cocksmoor the victim of it。〃
  〃This is very severe;〃 said Margaret; pausing; almost confounded。
  〃Do you think no charity worth having but what is given on unmixed
  motives?  Who; then; could give?〃
  〃Margaretwe see much evil arise in the best…planned institutions;
  nay; in what are not human。  Don't you think we ought to do our
  utmost to have no flaw in the foundation?  Schools are not such
  perfect places that we can build them without fear; and; if the means
  are to be raised by a bargain for amusementif they are to come from
  frivolity instead of self…denial; I am afraid of them。  I do not mean
  that Cocksmoor has not been the joy of my life; and of Mary's; but
  that was not because we did it for pleasure。〃
  〃No!〃 said Margaret; sighing; 〃you found pleasure by the way。  But
  why did you not say all this to Flora?〃
  〃It is of no use to talk to Flora;〃 said Ethel; 〃she would say it was
  high…flown and visionary。  Oh! she wants it for the bazaar's own
  sake; and that is one reason why I hate it。〃
  〃Now; Ethel!〃
  〃I do believe it was very unfortunate for Flora that the Hoxtons took
  to patronising her; because Norman would not be patronised。  Ever
  since it began; her mind has been full of visitings; and parties; and
  county families; and she has left off the home usefulness she used to
  care about。〃
  〃But you are old enough for that;〃 said Margaret。  〃It would be hard
  to keep Flora at home; now that you can take her place; and do not
  care for going out。  One of us must be the representative Miss May;
  you know; and keep up the civilities; and you may think yourself
  lucky it is not you。〃
  〃If it was only that; I should not care; but I may as well tell you;
  Margaret; for it is a weight to me。  It is not the mere pleasure in
  gaietiesFlora cares for them; in themselves; as little as I donor
  is it neighbourliness; as a duty to others; for; you may observe; she
  always gets off any engagement to the Wards; or any of the town folk;
  to whom it would be a gratification to have hershe either eludes
  them; or sends me。  The thing is; that she is always trying to be
  with the great people; the county set; and I don't think that is the
  safe way of going on。〃
  Margaret mused sadly。  〃You frighten me; Ethel!  I cannot say it is
  not so; and these are so like the latent faults that dear mamma's
  letter spoke of〃
  Ethel sat meditating; and at last said; 〃I wish I had not told you!
  I don't always believe it myself; and it is so unkind; and you will
  make yourself unhappy too。  I ought not to have thought it of her!
  Think of her ever…ready kindness and helpfulness; her pretty
  courteous ways to the very least; her obligingness and tact!〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Margaret; 〃she is one of the kindest people there is; and
  I am sure that she thought the gaining funds for Cocksmoor was the
  best thing to be done; that you would be pleased; and a great deal of
  pleasant occupation provided for us all。〃
  〃That is the bright side; the surface side;〃 said Ethel。
  〃And not an untrue one;〃 said Margaret; 〃Meta will not be vain; and
  will work the more happily for Cocksmoor's sake。  Mary and Blanche;
  poor Mrs。 Boulder; and many good ladies who hitherto have not known
  how to help Cocksmoor; will do so now with a good will; and though it
  is not what we should have chosen; I think we had better take it in
  good part。〃
  〃You think so?〃
  〃Yes; indeed I do。  If you go about with that dismal face and strong
  disapproval; it will really seem as if it was the having your
  dominion muddled with that you dislike。  Besides; it is putting
  yourself forward to censure what is not absolutely wrong in itself;
  and that cannot be desirable。〃
  〃No;〃 said Ethel; 〃but I cannot help being sorry for Cocksmoor。  I
  thought patience would prepare the way; and the means be granted in