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  〃Ah! it is thou; Charmion。 Well; for all thy watching the man dies。〃
  〃Ay;〃 she answered; in a voice thick with grief。 〃Ay; O Queen; so the
  physicians say。 Forty hours has he lain in stupor so deep that at
  times his breath could barely lift this tiny feather's weight; and
  hardly could my ear; placed against his breast; take notice of the
  rising of his heart。 I have watched him now for ten long days; watched
  him day and night; till my eyes stare wide with want of sleep; and for
  faintness I can scarce keep myself from falling。 And this is the end
  of all my labour! The coward blow of that accursed Brennus has done
  its work; and Harmachis dies!〃
  〃Love counts not its labour; Charmion; nor can it weight its
  tenderness on the scale of purchase。 That which it has it gives; and
  craves for more to give and give; till the soul's infinity be drained。
  Dear to thy heart are these heavy nights of watching; sweet to thy
  weary eyes is that sad sight of strength brought so low that it hangs
  upon thy weakness like a babe to its mother's breast! For; Charmion;
  thou dost love this man who loves thee not; and now that he is
  helpless thou canst pour thy passion forth over the unanswering
  darkness of his soul; and cheat thyself with dreams of what yet might
  be。〃
  〃I love him not; as thou hast proof; O Queen! How can I love one who
  would have slain thee; who art as my heart's sister? It is for pity
  that I nurse him。〃
  She laughed a little as she answered; 〃Pity is love's own twin;
  Charmion。 Wondrous wayward are the paths of woman's love; and thou
  hast shown thine strangely; that I know。 But the more high the love;
  the deeper the gulf whereinto it can fallay; and thence soar again
  to heaven; once more to fall! Poor woman! thou art thy passion's
  plaything: now tender as the morning sky; and now; when jealousy grips
  thy heart; more cruel than the sea。 Well; thus are we made。 Soon;
  after all this troubling; nothing will be left thee but tears;
  remorse; andmemory。〃
  And she went forth。
  CHAPTER XIV
  OF THE TENDER CARE OF CHARMION; OF THE HEALING OF HARMACHIS;
  OF THE SAILING OF THE FLEET OF CLEOPATRA FOR CILICIA; AND OF THE
  SPEECH OF BRENNUS TO HARMACHIS
  Cleopatra went; and for a while I lay silent; gathering up my strength
  to speak。 But Charmion came and stood over me; and I felt a great tear
  fall from her dark eyes upon my face; as the first heavy drop of rain
  falls from a thunder cloud。
  〃Thou goest;〃 she whispered; 〃thou goest fast whither I may not
  follow! O Harmachis; how gladly would I give my life for thine!〃
  Then at length I opened my eyes; and spoke as best I could:
  〃Restrain thy grief; dear friend;〃 I said; 〃I live yet; and; in truth;
  I feel as though new life gathered in my breast!〃
  She gave a little cry of joy; and I never saw aught more beautiful
  than the change that came upon her weeping face! It was as when the
  first lights of the day run up the pallor of that sad sky which veils
  the night from dawn。 All rosy grew her lovely countenance; her dim
  eyes shone out like stars; and a smile of wonderment; more sweet than
  the sudden smile of the sea as its ripples wake to brightness beneath
  the kiss of the risen moon; broke through her rain of tears。
  〃Thou livest!〃 she cried; throwing herself on her knees beside my
  couch。 〃Thou livestand I thought thee gone! Thou art come back to
  me! Oh! what say I? How foolish is a woman's heart! 'Tis this long
  watching! Nay; sleep and rest thee; Harmachis!why dost thou talk?
  Not one more word; I command thee straitly! Where is the draught left
  by that long…bearded fool? Nay thou shalt have no draught! There;
  sleep; Harmachis; sleep!〃 and she crouched down at my side and laid
  her cool hand upon my brow; murmuring; 〃/Sleep! sleep!/〃
  And when I woke there she was still; but the lights of dawn were
  peeping through the casement。 There she knelt; one hand upon my
  forehead; and her head; in all its disarray of curls; resting upon her
  outstretched arm。
  〃Charmion;〃 I whispered; 〃have I slept?〃
  Instantly she was wide awake; and; gazing on me with tender eyes;
  〃Yea; thou hast slept; Harmachis。〃
  〃How long; then; have I slept?〃
  〃Nine hours。〃
  〃And thou hast held thy place there; at my side; for nine long hours?〃
  〃Yes; it is nothing; I also have sleptI feared to waken thee if I
  stirred。〃
  〃Go; rest;〃 I said; 〃it shames me to think of this thing。 Go rest
  thee; Charmion!〃
  〃Vex not thyself;〃 she answered; 〃see; I will bid a slave watch thee;
  and to wake me if thou needest aught; I sleep there; in the outer
  chamber。 PeaceI go!〃 and she strove to rise; but; so cramped was
  she; fell straightway on the floor。
  I can scarcely tell the sense of shame that filled me when I saw her
  fall。 Alas! I could not stir to help her。
  〃It is naught;〃 she said; 〃move not; I did but catch my foot。 There!〃
  and she rose; again to fall〃a pest upon my awkwardness! WhyI must
  be sleeping。 'Tis well now。 I'll send the slave;〃 and she staggered
  thence like one overcome with wine。
  And after that; I slept once more; for I was very weak。 When I woke it
  was afternoon; and I craved for food; which Charmion brought me。
  I ate。 〃Then I die not;〃 I said。
  〃Nay;〃 she answered; with a toss of her head; 〃thou wilt live。 In
  truth; I did waste my pity on thee。〃
  〃And thy pity saved my life;〃 I said wearily; for now I remembered。
  〃It is nothing;〃 she answered carelessly。 〃After all; thou art my
  cousin; also; I love nursingit is a woman's trade。 Like enough I had
  done as much for any slave。 Now; too; that the danger is past; I leave
  thee。〃
  〃Thou hadst done better to let me die; Charmion;〃 I said after a
  while; 〃for life to me can now be only one long shame。 Tell me; then;
  when sails Cleopatra for Cilicia?〃
  〃She sails in twenty days; and with such pomp and glory as Egypt has
  never seen。 Of a truth; I cannot guess where she has found the means
  to gather in this store of splendour; as a husbandman gathers his
  golden harvest。〃
  But I; knowing whence the wealth came; groaned in bitterness of
  spirit; and made no answer。
  〃Goest thou also; Charmion?〃 I asked presently。
  〃Ay; I and all the Court。 Thou; toothou goest。〃
  〃I go? Nay; why is this?〃
  〃Because thou art Cleopatra's slave; and must march in gilded chains
  behind her chariot; because she fears to leave thee here in Khem;
  because it is her will; and there is an end。〃
  〃Charmion; can I not escape?〃
  〃Escape; thou poor sick man? Nay; how canst thou escape? Even now thou
  art most strictly guarded。 And if thou didst escape; whither wouldst
  thou fly? There's not an honest man in Egypt but would spit on thee in
  scorn!〃
  Once more I groaned in spirit; and; being so very weak; I felt the
  tears roll adown my cheek。
  〃Weep not!〃 she said hastily; and turning her face aside。 〃Be a man;
  and brave these troubles out。 Thou hast sown; now must thou reap; but
  after harvest the waters rise and wash away the rotting roots; and
  then seed…time comes again。 Perchance; yonder in Cilicia; a way may be
  found; when once more thou art strong; by which thou mayst flyif in
  truth thou canst bear thy life apart from Cleopatra's smile; then in
  some far land must thou dwell till these things are forgotten。 And now
  my task is done; so fare thee well! At times I will come to visit thee
  and see that thou needest nothing。〃
  So she went; and I was nursed thenceforward; and that skilfully; by
  the physician and two women…slaves; and as my wound healed so my
  strength came back to me; slowly at first; then most swiftly。 In four
  days from that time I left my couch; and in three more I could walk an
  hour in the palace gardens; another week and I could read and think;
  though I went no more to Court。 And at length one afternoon Charmion
  came and bade me make ready; for the fleet would sail in two days;
  first for the coast of Syria; and thence to the gulf of Issus and
  Cilicia。
  Thereon; with all formality; and in writing; I craved leave of
  Cleopatra that I might be left; urging that my health was so feeble
  that I could not travel。 But a message was sent to me in answer that I
  must come。
  And so; on the appointed day; I was carried in a litter down to the
  boat; and together with that very soldier who had cut me down; the
  Captain Brennus; and others of his troop (who; indeed; were sent to
  guard me); we rowed aboard a vessel where she lay at anchor with the
  rest of the great fleet。 For Cleopatra was voyaging as though to war
  in much pomp; and escorted by a fleet of ships; among which her
  galley; built like a house and lined throughout with cedar and silken
  hangings; was the most beautiful and costly that the world has ever
  seen。 But I went not on this vessel; and therefore it chanced that I
  did not see Cleopatra or Charmion till we landed at the mouth of the
  river Cydnus。
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