第 40 节
作者:人生几何      更新:2022-07-08 12:26      字数:9322
  flew straight at his throat; and dealt him such a heavy blow that the
  great man fell headlong; and his armour clashed upon the marble floor。
  As he fell I seized his sword and targe; and; meeting the next; who
  rushed on me with a shout; caught his blow upon the shield; and in
  answer smote with all my strength。 The sword fell where the neck is
  set into the shoulder; and; shearing through the joints of his
  harness; slew him; so that his knees were loosened and he sank down
  dead。 And the third; as he came; I caught upon the point of my sword
  before he could strike; and it pierced him and he died。 Then the last
  rushed on me with a cry of 〃Taranis!〃 and I; too; rushed on him; for
  my blood was aflame。 Now the women shriekedonly Cleopatra said
  nothing; but stood and watched the unequal fray。 We met; and I struck
  with all my strength; and it was a mighty blow; for the sword shore
  through the iron shell and shattered there; leaving me weaponless。
  With a shout of triumph the guard swung up his sword and smote down
  upon my head; but I caught the blow with my shield。 Again he smote;
  and again I parried; but when he raised his sword a third time I saw
  this might not endure; so with a cry I hurled my buckler at his face。
  Glancing from his shield it struck him on the breast and staggered
  him。 Then; before he could gain his balance; I rushed in beneath his
  guard and gripped him round the middle。
  For a full minute the tall man and I struggled furiously; and then; so
  great was my strength in those days; I lifted him like a toy and
  dashed him down upon the marble floor in such fashion that his bones
  were shattered so that he spoke no more。 But I could not save myself
  and fell upon him; and as I fell the Captain Brennus; whom I had
  smitten to earth with my fist; having once more found his sense; came
  up behind me and smote me upon the head and shoulders with the sword
  of one of those whom I had slain。 But I being on the ground; the blow
  did not fall with all its weight; also my thick hair and broidered cap
  broke its force; and thus it came to pass that; though sorely wounded;
  the life was yet whole in me。 But I could struggle no more。
  Then the cowardly eunuchs; who had gathered at the sound of blows and
  stood huddled together like a herd of cattle; seeing that I was spent;
  threw themselves upon me; and would have butchered me with their
  knives。 But Brennus; now that I was down; would strike no more; but
  stood waiting。 And the eunuchs had surely slain me; for Cleopatra
  watched like one who watches in a dream and made no sign。 Already my
  head was dragged back; and their knife…points were at my throat; when
  Charmion; rushing forward; threw herself upon me and; calling them
  〃Dogs!〃 desperately thrust her body before them in such fashion that
  they could not smite。 Now Brennus with an oath seized first one and
  then another and cast them from me。
  〃Spare his life; Queen!〃 he cried in his barbarous Latin。 〃By Jupiter;
  he is a brave man! Myself felled like an ox in the shambles; and three
  of my boys finished by a man without armour and taken unawares! I
  grudge them not to such a man! A boon; Queen! spare his life; and give
  him to me!〃
  〃Ay; spare him! spare him!〃 cried Charmion; white and trembling。
  Cleopatra drew near and looked upon the dead and him who lay dying as
  I had dashed him to the ground; and on me; her lover of two days gone;
  whose wounded head rested now on Charmion's white robes。
  I met the Queen's glance。 〃Spare not!〃 I gasped; 〃/v? victis!/〃 Then a
  flush gathered on her browmethinks it was a flush of shame!
  〃Dost after all love this man at heart; Charmion;〃 she said with a
  little laugh; 〃that thou didst thrust thy tender body between him and
  the knives of these sexless hounds?〃 and she cast a look of scorn upon
  the eunuchs。
  〃Nay!〃 the girl answered fiercely; 〃but I cannot stand by to see a
  brave man murdered by such as these。〃
  〃Ay!〃 said Cleopatra; 〃he is a brave man; and he fought gallantly; I
  have never seen so fierce a fight even in the games at Rome! Well; I
  spare his life; though he is weak of mewomanish weak。 Take him to
  his own chamber and guard him there till he is healed ordead。〃
  Then my brain reeled; a great sickness seized upon me; and I sank into
  the nothingness of a swoon。
  Dreams; dreams; dreams! without end and ever…changing; as for years
  and years I seemed to toss upon a sea of agony。 And through them a
  vision of a dark…eyed woman's tender face and the touch of a white
  hand soothing me to rest。 Visions; too; of a royal countenance bending
  at times over my rocking beda countenance that I could not grasp;
  but whose beauty flowed through my fevered veins and was a part of me
  visions of childhood and of the Temple towers of Abouthis; and of
  the white…haired Amenemhat; my fatheray; and an ever…present vision
  of that dread hall in Amenti; and of the small altar and the Spirits
  clad in flame! There I seemed to wander everlastingly; calling on the
  Holy Mother; whose memory I could not grasp; calling ever and in vain!
  For no cloud descended upon the altar; only from time to time the
  great Voice pealed aloud: 〃Strike out the name of Harmachis; child of
  Earth; from the living Book of Her who Was and Is and Shall Be! /Lost!
  lost! lost!/〃
  And then another voice would answer:
  〃Not yet! not yet! Repentance is at hand; strike not out the name of
  Harmachis; child of Earth; from the living Book of Her who Was and Is
  and Shall Be! By suffering may sin be wiped away!〃
  I woke to find myself in my own chamber in the tower of the palace。 I
  was so weak that I scarce could lift my hand; and life seemed but to
  flutter in my breast as flutters a dying dove。 I could not turn my
  head; I could not stir; yet in my heart there was a sense of rest and
  of dark trouble done。 The light from the lamp hurt my eyes: I shut
  them; and; as I shut them; heard the sweep of a woman's robes upon the
  stair; and a swift; light step that I knew well。 It was that of
  Cleopatra!
  She entered and drew near。 I felt her come! Every pulse of my poor
  frame beat an answer to her footfall; and all my mighty love and hate
  rose from the darkness of my death…like sleep; and rent me in their
  struggle! She leaned over me; her ambrosial breath played upon my
  face: I could hear the beating of her heart! Lower she leaned; till at
  last her lips touched me softly on the brow。
  〃Poor man!〃 I heard her murmur。 〃Poor; weak; dying Man! Fate hath been
  hard to thee! Thou wert too good to be the sport of such a one as I
  the pawn that I must move in my play of policy! Ah; Harmachis! thou
  shouldst have ruled the game! Those plotting priests could give thee
  learning; but they could not give thee knowledge of mankind; nor fence
  thee against the march of Nature's law。 And thou didst love me with
  all thy heartah! well I know it! Manlike; thou didst love the eyes
  that; as a pirate's lights; beckoned thee to shipwrecked ruin; and
  didst hang doting on the lips which lied thy heart away and called
  thee 'slave'! Well; the game was fair; for thou wouldst have slain me;
  and yet I grieve。 So thou dost die? and this is my farewell to thee!
  Never may we meet again on earth; and; perchance; it is well; for who
  knows; when my hour of tenderness is past; how I might deal with thee;
  didst thou live? Thou dost die; they saythose learned long…faced
  fools; who; if they let thee die; shall pay the price。 And where;
  then; shall we meet again when my last throw is thrown? We shall be
  equal there; in the kingdom that Osiris rules。 A little time; a few
  yearsperhaps to…morrowand we shall meet; then; knowing all I am;
  how wilt thou greet me? Nay; here; as there; still must thou worship
  me! for injuries cannot touch the immortality of such a love as thine。
  Contempt alone; like acid; can eat away the love of noble hearts; and
  reveal the truth in its pitiful nakedness。 Thou must still cling to
  thee; Harmachis; for; whatever my sins; yet I am great and set above
  thy scorn。 Would that I could have loved thee as thou lovest me!
  Almost I did so when thou slewest those guards; and yetnot quite。
  〃What a fenced city is my heart; that none can take it; and; even when
  I throw the gates wide; no man may win its citadel! Oh; to put away
  this loneliness and lose me in another's soul! Oh; for a year; a
  month; an hour to quite forget policy; peoples; and my pomp of place;
  and be but a loving woman! Harmachis; fare thee well! Go join great
  Julius whom thy art called up from death before me; and take Egypt's
  greetings to him。 Ah well! I fooled thee; and I fooled C?sar
  perchance before all is done Fate will find me; and myself I shall be
  fooled。 Harmachis; fare thee well!〃
  She turned to go; and as she turned I heard the sweep of another dress
  and the light fall of another woman's foot。
  〃Ah! it is thou; Charmion。 Well; for all thy watching the man dies。〃
  〃Ay;〃 she answered; in a