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  forbearing  feelings   for  every  creature   around   her。   Mr。   Elliot   was
  there; she avoided; but she could pity him。 The Wallises; she had
  amusement         in  understanding       them。    Lady    Dalrymple      and   Miss
  Carteret; they would soon be innoxious cousins to her。 She cared
  not   for   Mrs。   Clay;   and   had    nothing    to  blush   for  in  the   public
  manners of her father and sister。 With  the   Musgroves;   there   was
  the   happy   chat   of   perfect   ease;   with   Captain   Harville;   the   kind…
  hearted      intercourse     of  brother    and    sister;  with    Lady    Russell;
  attempts      at  conversation;      which    a  delicious    consciousness       cut
  short;     with   Admiral      and    Mrs。    Croft;   everything      of  peculiar
  cordiality     and   fervent    interest;   which     the   same    consciousness
  sought to conceal;—and with Captain Wentworth; some moments
  of communications continually occurring; and always the hope of
  more; and always the knowledge of his being there!
  It was in one of these short meetings; each apparently occupied
  in admiring a fine display of greenhouse plants; that she said—
  “I   have   been   thinking   over   the   past;   and   trying   impartially   to
  judge of the right and wrong; I mean with regard to myself; and I
  must believe that I was right; much as I suffered from it; that I was
  perfectly  right  in   being  guided by  the   friend   whom   you   will   love
  better than you do now。 To me; she was in the place of a parent。
  Do not mistake me; however。 I am not saying that she did not err
  in her advice。 It was; perhaps; one of those cases in which advice is
  good or bad only as the event decides; and for myself; I certainly
  never should; in any circumstance of tolerable similarity; give such
  advice。 But I mean; that I was right in submitting to her; and that
  if I had done otherwise; I should have suffered more in continuing
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  the engagement than I did even in giving it up; because I should
  have     suffered    in  my   conscience。      I  have   now;    as  far  as   such   a
  sentiment       is  allowable     in  human      nature;    nothing     to  reproach
  myself with; and if I mistake not; a strong sense of duty is no bad
  part of a woman’s portion。”
  He looked at her; looked at Lady Russell; and looking again at
  her; replied; as if in cool deliberation;
  “Not  yet。   But  there   are   hopes   of   her   being   forgiven   in   time。   I
  trust    to  being    in  charity    with   her   soon。    But   I  too   have   been
  thinking      over    the   past;   and    a  question     has    suggested      itself;
  whether   there   may   not   have   been   one   person   more   my   enemy
  even than that lady? My own self。 Tell me if;   when   I   returned  to
  England in the year eight; with a   few  thousand   pounds; and   was
  posted   into   the   Laconia;   if   I   had   then   written   to   you;   would   you
  have answered my letter? Would you; in short; have renewed the
  engagement then?”
  “Would   I!”     was   all  her   answer;     but   the  accent   was    decisive
  enough。
  “Good God!” he cried; “you would! It is not that I did not think
  of it; or desire it; as what could alone crown all my other success;
  but I was proud; too proud to ask again。 I did not understand you。
  I shut my eyes; and would not understand you; or do you justice。
  This   is a   recollection  which  ought  to  make me   forgive   every   one
  sooner   than   myself。   Six   years   of   separation   and   suffering   might
  have   been spared。   It  is   a sort  of  pain;   too;   which  is new  to  me。   I
  have   been   used   to   the   gratification   of   believing   myself       to   earn
  every blessing that I enjoyed。 I have valued myself on honourable
  toils and   just  rewards。   Like   other  great  men   under  reverses;”   he
  added; with a smile; “I must endeavour to subdue my mind to my
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  fortune。 I must learn to brook being happier than I deserve。”
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  CHAPTER XII
  ho   can   be   in   doubt   of   what   followed?   When   any   two
  Wyoung people take it into their heads to marry; they are
  pretty   sure   by   perseverance   to   carry   their   point;   be
  they ever so poor; or ever so imprudent; or ever so little likely to
  be   necessary   to   each   other’s   ultimate   comfort。   This   may   be   bad
  morality to conclude with; but I believe it to be truth; and if such
  parties   succeed;   how   should   a   Captain   Wentworth   and   an   Anne
  Elliot;   with   the   advantage   of   maturity   of   mind;   consciousness   of
  right; and one independent fortune between them; fail of bearing
  down   every   opposition?   They   might   in   fact;   have   borne   down   a
  great deal more than they met with; for there was little to distress
  them   beyond   the   want   of   graciousness   and   warmth。—Sir   Walter
  made no objection; and Elizabeth did nothing worse than look cold
  and     unconcerned。        Captain      Wentworth;       with    five…and…twenty
  thousand      pounds;     and    as  high   in  his  profession     as  merit    and
  activity    could    place   him;   was   no   longer    nobody。     He   was    now
  esteemed       quite   worthy     to  address     the   daughter     of  a   foolish;
  spendthrift baronet; who had not had principle or sense enough to
  maintain himself in the situation in which Providence had placed
  him; and who could give his daughter at present but a small part
  of the share of ten thousand pounds which must be hers hereafter。
  Sir Walter; indeed; though he had no affection for Anne; and no
  vanity   flattered;   to   make   him   really   happy   on   the   occasion;   was
  very   far   from   thinking   it   a   bad   match   for   her。   On   the   contrary;
  when he saw more of Captain Wentworth; saw him repeatedly by
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  daylight;     and   eyed    him   well;   he  was    very   much     struck   by   his
  personal claims; and felt that his superiority of appearance might
  be   not   unfairly  balanced   against   her   superiority   of   rank;   and   all
  this; assisted by his well…sounding name; enabled Sir Walter at last
  to prepare his pen; with a very good grace; for the insertion of the
  marriage in the volume of honour。
  The   only   one   among   them;   whose   opposition   of   feeling   could
  excite any serious anxiety was Lady Russell。 Anne knew that Lady
  Russell     must     be   suffering     some    pain    in   understanding        and
  relinquishing Mr。 Elliot; and be making some struggles to become
  truly acquainted with; and do justice to Captain Wentworth。 This
  however was what Lady Russell had now to do。 She must learn to
  feel that she had been mistaken with regard to both; that she had
  been     unfairly   influenced   by   appearances         in  each;   that   because
  Captain Wentworth’s manners had not suited her own   ideas; she
  had been too quick in suspecting them   to  indicate   a   character  of
  dangerous impetuosity; and that because Mr。 Elliot’s manners had
  precisely     pleased     her  in   their  propriety     and    correctness;     their
  general politeness and suavity; she had been too quick in receiving
  them as the   certain   result  of  the   most  correct  opinions  and   well…
  regulated   mind。   There   was   nothing   less   for   Lady   Russell   to   do;
  than to admit that she had been pretty completely wrong; and to
  take up a new set of opinions and of hopes。
  There   is   a  quickness      of  perception   in   some;   a    nicety   in   the
  discernment of character; a natural penetration; in short; which no
  experience   in   others   can   equal;   and   Lady   Russell   had   been   less
  gifted in this part of understanding than her young friend。 But she
  was     a  very   good    woman;     and    if  her  second     object   was    to  be
  sensible   and   well…judging;   her   first   was   to   see   Anne   happy。