第 10 节
作者:辛苦      更新:2022-04-12 11:59      字数:9322
  12。
  Can anything go wrong with me? I ask
  And the same moment; at a sudden pain;
  Stand trembling。 Up from the great river's brim
  Comes a cold breath; the farther bank is dim;
  The heaven is black with clouds and coming rain;
  High soaring faith is grown a heavy task;
  And all is wrong with weary heart and brain。
  13。
  〃Things do go wrong。 I know grief; pain; and fear。
  I see them lord it sore and wide around。〃
  》From her fair twilight answers Truth; star…crowned;
  〃Things wrong are needful where wrong things abound。
  Things go not wrong; but Pain; with dog and spear;
  False faith from human hearts will hunt and hound。
  The earth shall quake 'neath them that trust the solid ground。〃
  14。
  Things go not wrong when sudden I fall prone;
  But when I snatch my upheld hand from thine;
  And; proud or careless; think to walk alone。
  Then things go wrong; when I; poor; silly sheep;
  To shelves and pits from the good pasture creep;
  Not when the shepherd leaves the ninety and nine;
  And to the mountains goes; after the foolish one。
  15。
  Lo! now thy swift dogs; over stone and bush;
  After me; straying sheep; loud barking; rush。
  There's Fear; and Shame; and Empty…heart; and Lack;
  And Lost…love; and a thousand at their back!
  I see thee not; but know thou hound'st them on;
  And I am lost indeedescape is none。
  See! there they come; down streaming on my track!
  16。
  I rise and run; staggeringdouble and run。
  But whither?whither?whither for escape?
  The sea lies all about this long…necked cape
  There come the dogs; straight for me every one
  Me; live despair; live centre of alarms!
  Ah! lo! 'twixt me and all his barking harms;
  The shepherd; lo!I runfall folded in his arms。
  17。
  There let the dogs yelp; let them growl and leap;
  It is no matterI will go to sleep。
  Like a spent cloud pass pain and grief and fear;
  Out from behind it unchanged love shines clear。
  Oh; save me; Christ!I know not what I am;
  I was thy stupid; self…willed; greedy lamb;
  Would be thy honest and obedient sheep。
  18。
  Why is it that so often I return
  》From social converse with a spirit worn;
  A lack; a disappointmenteven a sting
  Of shame; as for some low; unworthy thing?
  Because I have not; careful; first of all;
  Set my door open wide; back to the wall;
  Ere I at others' doors did knock and call。
  19。
  Yet more and more of me thou dost demand;
  My faith and hope in God alone shall stand;
  The life of lawnot trust the rain and sun
  To draw the golden harvest o'er the land。
  I must not say〃This too will pass and die;〃
  〃The wind will change;〃 〃Round will the seasons run。〃
  Law is the body of will; of conscious harmony。
  20。
  Who trusts a law; might worship a god of wood;
  Half his soul slumbers; if it be not dead。
  He is a live thing shut in chaos crude;
  Hemmed in with dragonsa remorseless head
  Still hanging over its uplifted eyes。
  No; God is all in all; and nowhere dies
  The present heart and thinking will of good。
  21。
  Law is our schoolmaster。 Our master; Christ;
  Lived under all our laws; yet always prayed
  So walked the water when the storm was highest。
  Law is Thy father's; thou hast it obeyed;
  And it thereby subject to thee hast made
  To rule it; master; for thy brethren's sakes:
  Well may he guide the law by whom law's maker makes。
  22。
  Death haunts our souls with dissolution's strife;
  Soaks them with unrest; makes our every breath
  A throe; not action; from God's purest gift
  Wipes off the bloom; and on the harp of faith
  Its fretted strings doth slacken still and shift:
  Life everywhere; perfect; and always life;
  Is sole redemption from this haunting death。
  23。
  God; thou from death dost lift me。 As I rise;
  Its Lethe from my garment drips and flows。
  Ere long I shall be safe in upper air;
  With thee; my lifewith thee; my answered prayer
  Where thou art God in every wind that blows;
  And self alone; and ever; softly dies;
  There shall my being blossom; and I know it fair。
  24。
  I would dig; Master; in no field but thine;
  Would build my house only upon thy rock;
  Yet am but a dull day; with a sea…sheen!
  Why should I wonder then that they should mock;
  Who; in the limbo of things heard and seen;
  Hither and thither blowing; lose the shine
  Of every light that hangs in the firmament divine。
  25。
  Lord; loosen in me the hold of visible things;
  Help me to walk by faith and not by sight;
  I would; through thickest veils and coverings;
  See into the chambers of the living light。
  Lord; in the land of things that swell and seem;
  Help me to walk by the other light supreme;
  Which shows thy facts behind man's vaguely hinting dream。
  26。
  I see a little child whose eager hands
  Search the thick stream that drains the crowded street
  For possible things hid in its current slow。
  Near by; behind him; a great palace stands;
  Where kings might welcome nobles to their feet。
  Soft sounds; sweet scents; fair sights there only go
  There the child's father lives; but the child does not know。
  27。
  On; eager; hungry; busy…seeking child;
  Rise up; turn round; run in; run up the stair。
  Far in a chamber from rude noise exiled;
  Thy father sits; pondering how thou dost fare。
  The mighty man will clasp thee to his breast:
  Will kiss thee; stroke the tangles of thy hair;
  And lap thee warm in fold on fold of lovely rest。
  28。
  The prince of this world came; and nothing found
  In thee; O master; but; ah; woe is me!
  He cannot pass me; on other business bound;
  But; spying in me things familiar; he
  Casts over me the shadow of his flight;
  And straight I moan in darknessand the fight
  Begins afresh betwixt the world and thee。
  29。
  In my own heart; O master; in my thought;
  Betwixt the woolly sheep and hairy goat
  Not clearly I distinguish; but I think
  Thou knowest that I fight upon thy side。
  The how I am ashamed of; for I shrink
  》From many a blowam borne on the battle…tide;
  When I should rush to the front; and take thy foe by the throat。
  30。
  The enemy still hath many things in me;
  Yea; many an evil nest with open hole
  Gapes out to him; at which he enters free。
  But; like the impact of a burning coal;
  His presence mere straight rouses the garrison;
  And all are up in arms; and down on knee;
  Fighting and praying till the foe is gone。
  OCTOBER。
  1。
  REMEMBER; Lord; thou hast not made me good。
  Or if thou didst; it was so long ago
  I have forgottenand never understood;
  I humbly think。 At best it was a crude;
  A rough…hewn goodness; that did need this woe;
  This sin; these harms of all kinds fierce and rude;
  To shape it out; making it live and grow。
  2。
  But thou art making me; I thank thee; sire。
  What thou hast done and doest thou know'st well;
  And I will help thee:gently in thy fire
  I will lie burning; on thy potter's…wheel
  I will whirl patient; though my brain should reel;
  Thy grace shall be enough the grief to quell;
  And growing strength perfect through weakness dire。
  3。
  I have not knowledge; wisdom; insight; thought;
  Nor understanding; fit to justify
  Thee in thy work; O Perfect。 Thou hast brought
  Me up to thisand; lo! what thou hast wrought;
  I cannot call it good。 But I can cry
  〃O enemy; the maker hath not done;
  One day thou shalt behold; and from the sight wilt run。〃
  4。
  The faith I will; aside is easily bent;
  But of thy love; my God; one glimpse alone
  Can make me absolutely confident
  With faith; hope; joy; in love responsive blent。
  My soul then; in the vision mighty grown;
  Its father and its fate securely known;
  Falls on thy bosom with exultant moan。
  5。
  Thou workest perfectly。 And if it seem
  Some things are not so well; 'tis but because
  They are too loving…deep; too lofty…wise;
  For me; poor child; to understand their laws:
  My highest wisdom half is but a dream;
  My love runs helpless like a falling stream:
  Thy good embraces ill; and lo! its illness dies!
  6。
  》From sleep I wake; and wake to think of thee。
  But wherefore not with sudden glorious glee?
  Why burst not gracious on me heaven and earth
  In all the splendour of a new…day…birth?
  Why hangs a cloud betwixt my lord and me?
  The moment that my eyes the morning greet;
  My soul should panting rush to clasp thy father…feet。
  7。
  Is it because it is not thou I see;
  But only my poor; blotted fancy of thee?
  Oh! never till thyself reveal thy face;
  Shall I be flooded with life's vital grace。
  Oh make my mirror…heart thy shining…place;
  And then my soul; awaking with the morn;
  Shall be a waking joy; eternally new…born。
  8。
  Lord; in my silver is much metal base;
  Else should my being by this time have shown
  Thee thy own self therein。 Therefore do I
  Wake in the furnace。 I know thou sittest by;
  Refininglook; keep looking in to try
  Thy silver; master; look and see thy face;
  Else here I lie for ever; blank as any stone。
  9。
  But when in the dim silver thou dost look;
  I do behold thy face; though blurred and faint。
  Oh joy! no flaw in me thy grace will brook;
  But still refine: slow shall the silver pass
  》From bright to brighter; till; sans spot or taint;
  Love; well content; shall see no speck of brass;
  And I his perfect face shall hold as in a glass。
  10。
  With every morn my life afresh must break
  The crust of self; gathered about me fresh;
  That thy win