第 35 节
作者:打死也不说      更新:2021-12-13 08:41      字数:9321
  od superintending the family table; seeing if anything were wanting; enveloping her children; her grandchildren; with the active tenderness of her eyes; there came to him a longing to know her; to be counted among her old friends; to confide to her things which he confessed only to himself; and when she offered him his cup of tea without any of the mincings of society or drawing…room affectations; he would have liked to say with the rest a 〃Thank you; Bonne Maman;〃 in which he would have put all his heart。
  Suddenly; a cheerful knock at the door made everybody start。
  〃Ah; here comes M。 Andre。 Elise; a cup quickly。 Jaia; the little cakes。〃 At the same time; Mlle。 Henriette; the third of M。 Joyeuse's daughters; who had inherited from her mother; /nee/ de Saint…Amand; a certain instinct for society; observing the number of visitors who seemed likely to crowd their rooms that evening; rushed to light the two candles on the piano。
  〃My fifth act is finished;〃 cried the newcomer as he entered; then he stopped short。 〃Ah; pardon;〃 and his face assumed a rather discomfited expression in the presence of the stranger。 M。 Joyeuse introduced them to each other: 〃M。 Paul de GeryM。 Andre Maranne;〃 not without a certain solemnity。 He remembered the receptions held formerly by his wife; and the vases on the chimneypiece; the two large lamps; the what…not; the easy chairs grouped in a circle had an air of joining in this illusion; and seemed more brilliant by reason of this unaccustomed throng。
  〃So your play is finished?〃
  〃Finished; M。 Joyeuse; and I hope to read it to you one of these evenings。〃
  〃Oh; yes; M。 Andre。 Oh; yes;〃 said all the girls in chorus。
  Their neighbour was in the habit of writing for the stage; and no one here doubted of his success。 Photography; in any case; promised fewer profits。 Clients were very rare; passers…by little disposed to business。 To keep his hand in and to save his new apparatus from rusting; M。 Andre was accustomed to practise anew on the family of his friends on each succeeding Sunday。 They lent themselves to his experiments with unequalled long…suffering; the prosperity of this suburban photographer's business was for them all an affair of /amour propre/; and awakened; even in the girls; that touching confraternity of feeling which draws together the destinies of people as insignificant in importance as sparrows on a roof。 Andre Maranne; with the inexhaustible resources of his great brow full of illusion; used to explain without bitterness the indifference of the public。 Sometimes the season was unfavourable; or; again; people were complaining of the bad state of business generally; and he would always end with the same consoling reflection; 〃When /Revolt/ is produced!〃 That was the title of his play。
  〃It is surprising all the same;〃 said the fourth of M。 Joyeuse's daughters; twelve years old; with her hair in a pigtail; 〃it is surprising that with such a good balcony so little business should result。〃
  〃And; if he were established on the Boulevard des Italiens;〃 remarks M。 Joyeuse thoughtfully; and he is launched forth!riding his chimera till it is brought to the ground suddenly with a gesture and these words uttered sadly: 〃Closed on account of bankruptcy。〃 In the space of a moment the terrible visionary has just installed his friend in splendid quarters on the Boulevard; where he gains enormous sums of money; at the same time; however; increasing his expenditure to so disproportionate an extent that a fearful failure in a few months engulfs both photographer and his photography。 They laugh heartily when he gives this explanation; but all agree that the Rue Saint… Ferdinand; although less brilliant; is much more to be depended upon than the Boulevard des Italiens。 Besides; it happens to be quite near the Bois de Boulogne; and if once the fashionable world got into the way of passing through it That exalted society which was so much sought by her mother; is Mlle。 Henriette's fixed idea; and she is astonished that the thought of receiving 〃le high…life〃 in his little apartment on the fifth floor makes their neighbour laugh。 The other week; however; a carriage with livery had called on him。 Only just now; too; he had a very 〃swell〃 visit。
  〃Oh; quite a great lady!〃 interrupts Bonne Maman。 〃We were at the window on the lookout for father。 We saw her alight from her carriage and look at the show…frame; we made sure that her visit was for you。〃
  〃It was for me;〃 said Andre; a little embarrassed。
  〃For a moment we were afraid that she was going to pass on like so many others; on account of your five flights of stairs。 So all four of us tried to attract her without her knowing it; by the magnetism of our four staring pairs of eyes。 We drew her gently by the feathers of her hat and the laces of her cape。 'Come up then; madame; come up;' and finally she entered。 There is so much magnetism in eyes that are kindly disposed。〃
  Magnetism she certainly had; the dear creature; not only in her glances; indeterminate of colour; veiled or gay like the sky of her Paris; but in her voice; in the draping of her dress; in everything about her; even to the long curl; falling over the neck erect and delicate as a statue's。
  Tea having been served; while the gentlemen finished their cups and talkedold Joyeuse was always very long over everything he did; by reason of his sudden expeditions to the moonthe girls brought out their work; the table became covered with wicker baskets; embroideries; pretty wools that rejuvenated with their bright tints the faded flowers of the old carpet; and the group of the other evening gathered once more within the bright circle defined by the lamp…shade; to the great satisfaction of Paul de Gery。 It was the first evening of the kind that he had spent in Paris; it recalled to him others of a like sort very far away; lulled by the same innocent laughter; the peaceful sound produced by scissors as they are put down on the table; by a needle as it pierces through linen; or the rustle of a page turned over; and dear faces; disappeared for ever; gathered also around the family lamp; alas! so abruptly extinguished。
  Having been admitted to this charming intimacy; he remained in it; took his lessons in the presence of the girls and was encouraged to chat with them when the good old man closed his big book。 Here everything rested him after the whirl of that life into which he was thrown by the luxurious social existence of the Nabob; he come to renew his strength in this atmosphere of honesty; of simplicity; tried; too; to find healing there for the wounds with which a hand more indifferent than cruel stabbed his heart mercilessly。
  〃Some women have hated me; other women have loved me。 She who has hurt me most never either loved or hated me。〃 Paul had met that woman of whom Henri Heine speaks。 Felicia was full of welcome and cordiality for him。 There was no one whom she treated with more favour。 She used to reserve for him a special smile wherein one felt the kindliness of an artist's eye arrested by and dwelling on a pleasing type; and the satisfaction of a jaded mind amused by anything new; however simple in appearance it may be。 She liked that reserve; suggestive in a southerner; the honesty of that judgment; independent of every artistic or social formula and enlivened by a touch of provincial accent。 These things were a change for her from the zigzag stroke of the thumb illustrating a eulogy with its gesture of the studio; from the compliments of comrades on the way in which she would snub some old fellow; or again from those affected admirations; from the 〃char…ar…ming; very nice indeed's〃 with which young men about town; sucking the knobs of their canes; were accustomed to regale her。 This young man at any rate did not say such things as that to her。 She had nicknamed him Minerva; on account of his apparent tranquility and the regularity of his profile; and the moment she saw him; however far… off; she would call:
  〃Ah; here comes Minerva。 Hail; beautiful Minerva! Put down your helmet and let us have a chat。〃
  But this familiar; almost fraternal; tone convinced the young man that he would make no further advance into that feminine comradeship in which tenderness was wanting; and that he lost each day something of his charmthe charm of the unforeseenin the eyes of that woman born weary; who seemed to have already lived her life and found in all that she heard or saw the insipidity of a repetition。 Felicia was bored。 Her art alone could distract her; carry her away; transport her into a dazzling fairyland; whence she would fall back worn out; surprised each time by this awakening like a physical fall。 She used to draw a comparison between herself and those jelly…fish whose transparent brilliancy; so much alive in the cool movements of the waves; drift to their death on the shore in little gelatinous pools。 During those times devoid of inspiration; when the artist's hand was heavy on his instrument; Felicia; deprived of the one moral support of her intellectual being; became unsociable; unapproachable; a tormenting mockerthe revenge taken of human weakness on the tired brains of genius。 After having brought tears to the eyes of every one who cared for her; raking up painful