第 8 节
作者:京文      更新:2021-12-07 09:25      字数:9322
  Those twilight eyes? Those eyes!… my spirit fails…
  Dear goddess; help! or the wide…gaping air
  Will gulph me… help!〃… At this with madden'd stare;
  And lifted hands; and trembling lips he stood;
  Like old Deucalion mountain'd o'er the flood;
  Or blind Orion hungry for the morn。
  And; but from the deep cavern there was borne
  A voice; he had been froze to senseless stone;
  Nor sigh of his; nor plaint; nor passion'd moan
  Had more been heard。 Thus swell'd it forth: 〃Descend;
  Young mountaineer! descend where alleys bend
  Into the sparry hollows of the world!
  Oft hast thou seen bolts of the thunder hurl'd
  As from thy threshold; day by day hast been
  A little lower than the chilly sheen
  Of icy pinnacles; and dipp'dst thine arms
  Into the deadening ether that still charms
  Their marble being: now; as deep profound
  As those are high; descend! He ne'er is crown'd
  With immortality; who fears to follow
  Where airy voices lead: so through the hollow;
  The silent mysteries of earth; descend!〃
  He heard but the last words; nor could contend
  One moment in reflection: for he fled
  Into the fearful deep; to hide his head
  From the clear moon; the trees; and coming madness。
  'Twas far too strange; and wonderful for sadness;
  Sharpening; by degrees; his appetite
  To dive into the deepest。 Dark; nor light;
  The region; nor bright; nor sombre wholly;
  But mingled up; a gleaming melancholy;
  A dusky empire and its diadems;
  One faint eternal eventide of gems。
  Aye; millions sparkled on a vein of gold;
  Along whose track the prince quick footsteps told;
  With all its lines abrupt and angular:
  Out…shooting sometimes; like a meteor…star;
  Through a vast antre; then the metal woof;
  Like Vulcan's rainbow; with some monstrous roof
  Curves hugely: now; far in the deep abyss;
  It seems an angry lightning; and doth hiss
  Fancy into belief: anon it leads
  Through winding passages; where sameness breeds
  Vexing conceptions of some sudden change;
  Whether to silver grots; or giant range
  Of sapphire columns; or fantastic bridge
  Athwart a flood of crystal。 On a ridge
  Now fareth he; that o'er the vast beneath
  Towers like an ocean…cliff; and whence he seeth
  A hundred waterfalls; whose voices come
  But as the murmuring surge。 Chilly and numb
  His bosom grew; when first he; far away
  Descried an orbed diamond; set to fray
  Old darkness from his throne: 'twas like the sun
  Uprisen o'er chaos: and with such a stun
  Came the amazement; that; absorb'd in it;
  He saw not fiercer wonders… past the wit
  Of any spirit to tell; but one of those
  Who; when this planet's sphering time doth close;
  Will be its high remembrancers: who they?
  The mighty ones who have made eternal day
  For Greece and England。 While astonishment
  With deep…drawn sighs was quieting; he went
  Into a marble gallery; passing through
  A mimic temple; so complete and true
  In sacred custom; that he well nigh fear'd
  To search it inwards; whence far off appear'd;
  Through a long pillar'd vista; a fair shrine;
  And just beyond; on light tiptoe divine;
  A quiver'd Dian。 Stepping awfully;
  The youth approach'd; oft turning his veil'd eye
  Down sidelong aisles; and into niches old。
  And when; more near against the marble cold
  He had touch'd his forehead; he began to thread
  All courts and passages; where silence dead
  Rous'd by his whispering footsteps murmured faint:
  And long he travers'd to and fro; to acquaint
  Himself with every mystery; and awe;
  Till; weary; he sat down before the maw
  Of a wide outlet; fathomless and dim;
  To wild uncertainty and shadows grim。
  There; when new wonders ceas'd to float before;
  And thoughts of self came on; how crude and sore
  The journey homeward to habitual self
  A mad…pursuing of the fog…born elf;
  Whose flitting lantern; through rude nettle…briar;
  Cheats us into a swamp; into a fire;
  Into the bosom of a hated thing。
  What misery most drowningly doth sing
  In lone Endymion's ear; now he has raught
  The goal of consciousness? Ah; 'tis the thought;
  The deadly feel of solitude: for lo!
  He cannot see the heavens; nor the flow
  Of rivers; nor hill…flowers running wild
  In pink and purple chequer; nor; up…pil'd;
  The cloudy rack slow journeying in the west;
  Like herded elephants; nor felt; nor prest
  Cool grass; nor tasted the fresh slumberous air;
  But far from such companionship to wear
  An unknown time; surcharg'd with grief; away;
  Was now his lot。 And must he patient stay;
  Tracing fantastic figures with his spear?
  〃No!〃 exclaim'd he; 〃why should I tarry here?〃
  No! loudly echoed times innumerable。
  At which he straightway started; and 'gan tell
  His paces back into the temple's chief;
  Warming and glowing strong in the belief
  Of help from Dian: so that when again
  He caught her airy form; thus did he plain;
  Moving more near the while: 〃O Haunter chaste
  Of river sides; and woods; and heathy waste;
  Where with thy silver bow and arrows keen
  Art thou now forested? O woodland Queen;
  What smoothest air thy smoother forehead woos?
  Where dost thou listen to the wide halloos
  Of thy disparted nymphs? Through what dark tree
  Glimmers thy crescent? Wheresoe'er it be;
  'Tis in the breath of heaven: thou dost taste
  Freedom as none can taste it; nor dost waste
  Thy loveliness in dismal elements;
  But; finding in our green earth sweet contents;
  There livest blissfully。 Ah; if to thee
  It feels Elysian; how rich to me;
  An exil'd mortal; sounds its pleasant name!
  Within my breast there lives a choking flame…
  O let me cool't the zephyr…boughs among!
  A homeward fever parches up my tongue…
  O let me slake it at the running springs!
  Upon my ear a noisy nothing rings…
  O let me once more hear the linnet's note!
  Before mine eyes thick films and shadows float…
  O let me 'noint them with the heaven's light!
  Dost thou now lave thy feet and ankles white?
  O think how sweet to me the freshening sluice!
  Dost thou now please thy thirst with berry…juice?
  O think how this dry palate would rejoice!
  If in soft slumber thou dost hear my voice;
  O think how I should love a bed of flowers!…
  Young goddess! let me see my native bowers!
  Deliver me from this rapacious deep!〃
  Thus ending loudly; as he would o'erleap
  His destiny; alert he stood: but when
  Obstinate silence came heavily again;
  Feeling about for its old couch of space
  And airy cradle; lowly bow'd his face
  Desponding; o'er the marble floor's cold thrill。
  But 'twas not long; for; sweeter than the rill
  To its old channel; or a swollen tide
  To margin sallows; were the leaves he spied;
  And flowers; and wreaths; and ready myrtle crowns
  Up heaping through the slab: refreshment drowns
  Itself; and strives its own delights to hide…
  Nor in one spot alone; the floral pride
  In a long whispering birth enchanted grew
  Before his footsteps; as when heav'd anew
  Old ocean rolls a lengthened wave to the shore;
  Down whose green back the short…liv'd foam; all hoar;
  Bursts gradual; with a wayward indolence。
  Increasing still in heart; and pleasant sense;
  Upon his fairy journey on he hastes;
  So anxious for the end; he scarcely wastes
  One moment with his hand among the sweets:
  Onward he goes… he stops… his bosom beats
  As plainly in his ear; as the faint charm
  Of which the throbs were born。 This still alarm;
  This sleepy music; forc'd him walk tiptoe:
  For it came more softly than the east could blow
  Arion's magic to the Atlantic isles;
  Or than the west; made jealous by the smiles
  Of thron'd Apollo; could breathe back the lyre
  To seas Ionian and Tyrian。
  O did he ever live; that lonely man;
  Who lov'd… and music slew not? 'Tis the pest
  Of love; that fairest joys give most unrest;
  That things of delicate and tenderest worth
  Are s