第 62 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2021-11-05 20:37      字数:9322
  enter completely into the minds of the sorrowing; pleading parents;
  and the sorrowing; denying lover。  He appreciated and expounded
  their motives with a subtlety and delicacy of perception which
  surprised and delighted me。  It showed the refinement of his moral
  nature。  But; at the same time; it rendered his minor degree of
  interest in the other episodes of the story; those which had a more
  direct and overpowering appeal to the heart; a greater paradox。
  Human nature is troubled in the presence of all mystery which has
  not by long familiarity lost its power of soliciting attention; and
  for my own part; I have always been uneasy in the presence of moral
  problems。  Puzzled by the contradictions which I noticed in
  Bourgonef; I tried to discover whether he had any general
  repugnance to stories of crimes; or any special repugnance to
  murders; or; finally; any strange repugnance to this particular
  case now everywhere discussed。  And it is not a little remarkable
  that during three separate interviews; in the course of which I
  severally; and as I thought artfully; introduced these topics;
  making them seem to arise naturally out of the suggestion of our
  talk; I totally failed to arrive at any distinct conclusion。  I was
  afraid to put the direct question:  Do you not share the common
  feeling of interest in criminal stories?  This question would
  doubtless have elicited a categorical reply; but somehow; the
  consciousness of an arriere…pensee made me shrink from putting such
  a question。
  Reflecting on this indifference on a special point; and on the
  numerous manifestations I had noticed of his sensibility; I came at
  last to the conclusion that he must be a man of tender heart; whose
  delicate sensibilities easily shrank from the horrible under every
  form; and no more permitted him to dwell unnecessarily upon painful
  facts; than they permit imaginative minds to dwell on the details
  of an operation。
  I had not long settled this in my mind before an accident suddenly
  threw a lurid light upon many details noticed previously; and
  painfully revived that inexplicable repulsion with which I had at
  first regarded him。  A new suspicion filled my mind; or rather; let
  me say; a distinct shape was impressed upon many fluctuating
  suspicions。  It scarcely admitted of argument; and at times seemed
  preposterous; nevertheless it persisted。  The mind which in broad
  daylight assents to all that can be alleged against the absurdities
  of the belief in apparitions; will often acknowledge the dim
  terrors of darkness and lonelinessterrors at possibilities of
  supernatural visitations。  In like manner; in the clear daylight of
  reason I could see the absurdity of my suspicion; but the vague
  stirrings of feeling remained unsilenced。  I was haunted by the dim
  horrors of a possibility。
  Thus it arose。  We were both going to Munich; and Bourgonef had
  shortened his contemplated stay at Nuremberg that he might have the
  pleasure of accompanying me; adding also that he; too; should be
  glad to reach Munich; not only for its art; but for its greater
  command of papers and intelligence respecting what was then going
  on in France。  On the night preceding the morning of our departure;
  I was seated in his room; smoking and discussing as usual; while
  Ivan; his servant; packed up his things in two large portmanteaus。
  Ivan was a serf who spoke no word of any language but his own。
  Although of a brutal; almost idiotic type; he was loudly eulogized
  by his master as the model of fidelity and usefulness。  Bourgonef
  treated him with gentleness; though with a certain imperiousness;
  much as one might treat a savage mastiff which it was necessary to
  dominate without exasperating。  He more than once spoke of Ivan as
  a living satire on physiognomists and phrenologists; and as I am a
  phrenologist; I listened with some incredulity。
  〃Look at him;〃 he would say。  〃Observe the low; retreating brow;
  the flat face; the surly mouth; the broad base of the head; and the
  huge bull…like neck。  Would not anyone say Ivan was as destructive
  as a panther; as tenacious as a bull…dog; as brutal as a bull?  Yet
  he is the gentlest of sluggish creatures; and as tender…hearted as
  a girl!  That thick…set muscular frame shrouds a hare's heart。  He
  is so faithful and so attached that I believe for me he would risk
  his life; but on no account could you get him to place himself in
  danger on his own account。  Part of his love for me is gratitude
  for having rescued him from the conscription: the dangers incident
  to a military life had no charm for him!〃
  Now; although Bourgonef; who was not a phrenologist; might be
  convinced of the absence of ferocious instincts in Ivan; to me; as
  a phrenologist; the statement was eminently incredible。  All the
  appearances of his manner were such as to confirm his master's
  opinion。  He was quiet; even tender in his attentions。  But the
  tyrannous influence of ideas and physical impressions cannot be set
  aside; and no evidence would permanently have kept down my distrust
  of this man。  When women shriek at the sight of a gun; it is in
  vain that you solemnly assure them that the gun is not loaded。  〃I
  don't know;〃 they reply;〃at any rate; I don't like it。〃  I was
  much in this attitude with regard to Ivan。  He might be harmless。
  I didn't know that; what I did know wasthat I didn't like his
  looks。
  On this night he was moving noiselessly about the room; employed in
  packing。  Bourgonef's talk rambled over the old themes; and I
  thought I had never before met with one of my own age whose society
  was so perfectly delightful。  He was not so conspicuously my
  superior on all points that I felt the restraints inevitably
  imposed by superiority; yet he was in many respects sufficiently
  above me in knowledge and power to make me eager to have his assent
  to my views where we differed; and to have him enlighten me where I
  knew myself to be weak。
  In the very moment of my most cordial admiration came a shock。
  Ivan; on passing from one part of the room to the other; caught his
  foot in the strap of the portmanteau and fell。  The small wooden
  box; something of a glove…box; which he held in his hand at the
  time; fell on the floor; and falling over; discharged its contents
  close to Bourgonef's feet。  The objects which caught my eyes were
  several pairs of gloves; a rouge…pot and hare's foot; and a black
  beard!
  By what caprice of imagination was it that the sight of this false
  beard lying at Bourgonef's feet thrilled me with horror?  In one
  lightning…flash I beheld the archwaythe stranger with the
  startled eyesthis stranger no longer unknown to me; but too
  fatally recognized as Bourgonefand at his feet the murdered girl!
  Moved by what subtle springs of suggestion I know not; but there
  before me stood that dreadful vision; seen in a lurid light; but
  seen as clearly as if the actual presence of the objects were
  obtruding itself upon my eyes。  In the inexpressible horror of this
  vision my heart seemed clutched with an icy hand。
  Fortunately Bourgonef's attention was called away from me。  He
  spoke angrily some short sentence; which of course was in Russian;
  and therefore unintelligible to me。  He then stooped; and picking
  up the rouge…pot; held it towards me with his melancholy smile。  He
  was very red in the face; but that may have been either anger or
  the effect of sudden stooping。  〃I see you are surprised at these
  masquerading follies;〃 he said in a tone which; though low; was
  perfectly calm。  〃You must not suppose that I beautify my sallow
  cheeks on ordinary occasions。〃
  He then quietly handed the pot to Ivan; who replaced it with the
  gloves and the beard in the box; and after making an inquiry which
  sounded like a growl; to which Bourgonef answered negatively; he
  continued his packing。
  Bourgonef resumed his cigar and his argument as if nothing had
  happened。
  The vision had disappeared; but a confused mass of moving figures
  took its place。  My heart throbbed so violently that it seemed to
  me as if its tumult must be heard by others。  Yet my face must have
  been tolerably calm; since Bourgonef made no comment on it。
  I answered his remarks in vague fragments; for; in truth; my
  thoughts were flying from conjecture to conjecture。  I remembered
  that the stranger had a florid complexion; was this rouge?  It is
  true that I fancied the stranger carried a walking…stick in his
  right hand; if so; this was enough to crush all suspicions of his
  identity with Bourgonef; but then I was rather hazy on this point;
  and probably did not observe a walking…stick。
  After a while my inattention struck him; and looking at me with
  some concern; he inquired if there was anything the matter。  I
  pleaded a colic; which I attributed to the imprudence of having
  indulged in sauerkraut at dinner。  He advised me to take a little
  brandy; but; affecting a fresh access of pain; I bade him go