第 45 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2021-11-05 20:37      字数:9322
  melodious smoothness of his voice made a frightful contrast to the
  stony rigor of his features; and the fiendlike brilliancy of his
  eyes。  〃Who are you; and whence come you?〃 said Stanton; in a tone
  that was meant to be interrogatory and imperative; but which; from
  his habits of squalid debility; was at once feeble and querulous。
  His intellect had become affected by the gloom of his miserable
  habitation; as the wretched inmate of a similar mansion; when
  produced before a medical examiner; was reported to be a complete
  Albino。His skin was bleached; his eyes turned white; he could not
  bear the light; and; when exposed to it; he turned away with a
  mixture of weakness and restlessness; more like the writhings of a
  sick infant than the struggles of a man。
  Such was Stanton's situation。  He was enfeebled now; and the power
  of the enemy seemed without a possibility of opposition from either
  his intellectual or corporeal powers。
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  Of all their horrible dialogue; only these words were legible in
  the manuscript; 〃You know me now。〃〃I always knew you。〃〃That is
  false; you imagined you did; and that has been the cause of all the
  wild     。      of the     。        。        。        。        。
  。  of your finally being lodged in this mansion of misery; where
  only I would seek; where only I can succor you。〃〃You; demon!〃
  〃Demon!Harsh words!Was it a demon or a human being placed you
  here?Listen to me; Stanton; nay; wrap not yourself in that
  miserable blanket;that cannot shut out my words。  Believe me;
  were you folded in thunder clouds; you must hear ME!  Stanton;
  think of your misery。  These bare wallswhat do they present to
  the intellect or to the senses?Whitewash; diversified with the
  scrawls of charcoal or red chalk; that your happy predecessors have
  left for you to trace over。  You have a taste for drawingI trust
  it will improve。  And here's a grating; through which the sun
  squints on you like a stepdame; and the breeze blows; as if it
  meant to tantalize you with a sigh from that sweet mouth; whose
  kiss you must never enjoy。  And where's your library;intellectual
  man;traveled man?〃 he repeated in a tone of bitter derision;
  〃where be your companions; your peaked men of countries; as your
  favorite Shakespeare has it?  You must be content with the spider
  and the rat; to crawl and scratch round your flock bed!  I have
  known prisoners in the Bastille to feed them for companions;why
  don't you begin your task?  I have known a spider to descend at the
  tap of a finger; and a rat to come forth when the daily meal was
  brought; to share it with his fellow prisoner!How delightful to
  have vermin for your guests!  Aye; and when the feast fails them;
  they make a meal of their entertainer!You shudder。Are you;
  then; the first prisoner who has been devoured alive by the vermin
  that infested his cell?Delightful banquet; not 'where you eat;
  but where you are eaten'!  Your guests; however; will give you one
  token of repentance while they feed; there will be gnashing of
  teeth; and you shall hear it; and feel it too perchance!And then
  for mealsOh you are daintily off!The soup that the cat has
  lapped; and (as her progeny has probably contributed to the hell
  broth) why not?  Then your hours of solitude; deliciously
  diversified by the yell of famine; the howl of madness; the crash
  of whips; and the broken…hearted sob of those who; like you; are
  supposed; or DRIVEN mad by the crimes of others!Stanton; do you
  imagine your reason can possibly hold out amid such scenes?
  Supposing your reason was unimpaired; your health not destroyed;
  suppose all this; which is; after all; more than fair supposition
  can grant; guess the effect of the continuance of these scenes on
  your senses alone。  A time will come; and soon; when; from mere
  habit; you will echo the scream of every delirious wretch that
  harbors near you; then you will pause; clasp your hands on your
  throbbing head; and listen with horrible anxiety whether the scream
  proceeded from YOU or THEM。  The time will come; when; from the
  want of occupation; the listless and horrible vacancy of your
  hours; you will feel as anxious to hear those shrieks; as you were
  at first terrified to hear them;when you will watch for the
  ravings of your next neighbor; as you would for a scene on the
  stage。  All humanity will be extinguished in you。  The ravings of
  these wretches will become at once your sport and your torture。
  You will watch for the sounds; to mock them with the grimaces and
  bellowings of a fiend。  The mind has a power of accommodating
  itself to its situation; that you will experience in its most
  frightful and deplorable efficacy。  Then comes the dreadful doubt
  of one's own sanity; the terrible announcer that THAT doubt will
  soon become fear; and THAT fear certainty。  Perhaps (still more
  dreadful) the FEAR will at last become a HOPE;shut out from
  society; watched by a brutal keeper; writhing with all the impotent
  agony of an incarcerated mind; without communication and without
  sympathy; unable to exchange ideas but with those whose ideas are
  only the hideous specters of departed intellect; or even to hear
  the welcome sound of the human voice; except to mistake it for the
  howl of a fiend; and stop the ear desecrated by its intrusion;
  then at last your fear will become a more fearful hope; you will
  wish to become one of them; to escape the agony of consciousness。
  As those who have long leaned over a precipice; have at last felt a
  desire to plunge below; to relieve the intolerable temptation of
  their giddiness;* you will hear them laugh amid their wildest
  paroxysms; you will say; 'Doubtless those wretches have some
  consolation; but I have none; my sanity is my greatest curse in
  this abode of horrors。  They greedily devour their miserable meals;
  while I loathe mine。  They sleep sometimes soundly; while my sleep
  isworse than their waking。  They are revived every morning by
  some delicious illusion of cunning madness; soothing them with the
  hope of escaping; baffling or tormenting their keeper; my sanity
  precludes all such hope。  I KNOW I NEVER CAN ESCAPE; and the
  preservation of my faculties is only an aggravation of my
  sufferings。  I have all their miseries;I have none of their
  consolations。  They laugh;I hear them; would I could laugh like
  them。'  You will try; and the very effort will be an invocation to
  the demon of insanity to come and take full possession of you from
  that moment forever。〃
  * A fact; related to me by a person who was near committing suicide
  in a similar situation; to escape what he called 〃the excruciating
  torture of giddiness。〃
  (There were other details; both of the menaces and temptations
  employed by Melmoth; which are too horrible for insertion。  One of
  them may serve for an instance。)
  〃You think that the intellectual power is something distinct from
  the vitality of the soul; or; in other words; that if even your
  reason should be destroyed (which it nearly is); your soul might
  yet enjoy beatitude in the full exercise of its enlarged and
  exalted faculties; and all the clouds which obscured them be
  dispelled by the Sun of Righteousness; in whose beams you hope to
  bask forever and ever。  Now; without going into any metaphysical
  subtleties about the distinction between mind and soul; experience
  must teach you; that there can be no crime into which madmen would
  not; and do not; precipitate themselves; mischief is their
  occupation; malice their habit; murder their sport; and blasphemy
  their delight。  Whether a soul in this state can be in a hopeful
  one; it is for you to judge; but it seems to me; that with the loss
  of reason (and reason cannot long be retained in this place) you
  lose also the hope of immortality。Listen;〃 said the tempter;
  pausing; 〃listen to the wretch who is raving near you; and whose
  blasphemies might make a demon start。He was once an eminent
  puritanical preacher。  Half the day he imagines himself in a
  pulpit; denouncing damnation against Papists; Arminians; and even
  Sublapsarians (he being a Supra…lapsarian himself)。  He foams; he
  writhes; he gnashes his teeth; you would imagine him in the hell he
  was painting; and that the fire and brimstone he is so lavish of
  were actually exhaling from his jaws。  At night his creed
  retaliates on him; he believes himself one of the reprobates he has
  been all day denouncing; and curses God for the very decree he has
  all day been glorifying Him for。
  〃He; whom he has for twelve hours been vociferating 'is the
  loveliest among ten thousand;' becomes the object of demoniac
  hostility and execration。  He grapples with the iron posts of his
  bed; and says he is rooting out the cross from the very foundations
  of Calvary; and it is remarkable; that in proportion as his morning
  exercises are intense; vivid; and eloquent; his nightly blasphemies
  are outrageous and horrible。Hark!  Now he believes