第 42 节
作者:吹嘻      更新:2021-11-05 20:37      字数:9322
  some difficulty。  It seems Stanton was now in England。
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  About the year 1677; Stanton was in London; his mind still full of
  his mysterious countryman。  This constant subject of his
  contemplations had produced a visible change in his exterior;his
  walk was what Sallust tells us of Catiline's;his were; too; the
  〃faedi oculi。〃  He said to himself every moment; 〃If I could but
  trace that being; I will not call him man;〃and the next moment he
  said; 〃and what if I could?〃  In this state of mind; it is singular
  enough that he mixed constantly in public amusements; but it is
  true。  When one fierce passion is devouring the soul; we feel more
  than ever the necessity of external excitement; and our dependence
  on the world for temporary relief increases in direct proportion to
  our contempt of the world and all its works。  He went frequently to
  the theaters; THEN fashionable; when
  〃The fair sat panting at a courtier's play;
  And not a mask went unimproved away。〃
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  It was that memorable night; when; according to the history of the
  veteran Betterton;* Mrs。 Barry; who personated Roxana; had a green…
  room squabble with Mrs。 Bowtell; the representative of Statira;
  about a veil; which the partiality of the property man adjudged to
  the latter。  Roxana suppressed her rage till the fifth act; when;
  stabbing Statira; she aimed the blow with such force as to pierce
  through her stays; and inflict a severe though not dangerous wound。
  Mrs。 Bowtell fainted; the performance was suspended; and; in the
  commotion which this incident caused in the house; many of the
  audience rose; and Stanton among them。  It was at this moment that;
  in a seat opposite to him; he discovered the object of his search
  for four years;the Englishman whom he had met in the plains of
  Valencia; and whom he believed the same with the subject of the
  extraordinary narrative he had heard there。
  * Vide Betterton's History of the Stage。
  He was standing up。  There was nothing particular or remarkable in
  his appearance; but the expression of his eyes could never be
  mistaken or forgotten。  The heart of Stanton palpitated with
  violence;a mist overspread his eye;a nameless and deadly
  sickness; accompanied with a creeping sensation in every pore; from
  which cold drops were gushing; announced the。 。 。 。
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  Before he had well recovered; a strain of music; soft; solemn; and
  delicious; breathed round him; audibly ascending from the ground;
  and increasing in sweetness and power till it seemed to fill the
  whole building。  Under the sudden impulse of amazement and
  pleasure; he inquired of some around him from whence those
  exquisite sounds arose。  But; by the manner in which he was
  answered; it was plain that those he addressed considered him
  insane; and; indeed; the remarkable change in his expression might
  well justify the suspicion。  He then remembered that night in
  Spain; when the same sweet and mysterious sounds were heard only by
  the young bridegroom and bride; of whom the latter perished on that
  very night。  〃And am I then to be the next victim?〃 thought
  Stanton; 〃and are those celestial sounds; that seem to prepare us
  for heaven; only intended to announce the presence of an incarnate
  fiend; who mocks the devoted with 'airs from heaven;' while he
  prepares to surround them with 'blasts from hell'?〃  It is very
  singular that at this moment; when his imagination had reached its
  highest pitch of elevation;when the object he had pursued so long
  and fruitlessly; had in one moment become as it were tangible to
  the grasp both of mind and body;when this spirit; with whom he
  had wrestled in darkness; was at last about to declare its name;
  that Stanton began to feel a kind of disappointment at the futility
  of his pursuits; like Bruce at discovering the source of the Nile;
  or Gibbon on concluding his History。  The feeling which he had
  dwelt on so long; that he had actually converted it into a duty;
  was after all mere curiosity; but what passion is more insatiable;
  or more capable of giving a kind of romantic grandeur to all its
  wanderings and eccentricities?  Curiosity is in one respect like
  love; it always compromises between the object and the feeling; and
  provided the latter possesses sufficient energy; no matter how
  contemptible the former may be。  A child might have smiled at the
  agitation of Stanton; caused as it was by the accidental appearance
  of a stranger; but no man; in the full energy of his passions; was
  there; but must have trembled at the horrible agony of emotion with
  which he felt approaching; with sudden and irresistible velocity;
  the crisis of his destiny。
  When the play was over; he stood for some moments in the deserted
  streets。  It was a beautiful moonlight night; and he saw near him a
  figure; whose shadow; projected half across the street (there were
  no flagged ways then; chains and posts were the only defense of the
  foot passenger); appeared to him of gigantic magnitude。  He had
  been so long accustomed to contend with these phantoms of the
  imagination; that he took a kind of stubborn delight in subduing
  them。  He walked up to the object; and observing the shadow only
  was magnified; and the figure was the ordinary height of man; he
  approached it; and discovered the very object of his search;the
  man whom he had seen for a moment in Valencia; and; after a search
  of four years; recognized at the theater。
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  〃You were in quest of me?〃〃I was。〃  〃Have you anything to inquire
  of me?〃〃Much。〃  〃Speak; then。〃〃This is no place。〃  〃No place!
  poor wretch; I am independent of time and place。  Speak; if you
  have anything to ask or to learn。〃〃I have many things to ask; but
  nothing to learn; I hope; from you。〃  〃You deceive yourself; but
  you will be undeceived when next we meet。〃〃And when shall that
  be?〃 said Stanton; grasping his arm; 〃name your hour and your
  place。〃  〃The hour shall be midday;〃 answered the stranger; with a
  horrid and unintelligible smile; 〃and the place shall be the bare
  walls of a madhouse; where you shall rise rattling in your chains;
  and rustling from your straw; to greet me;yet still you shall
  have THE CURSE OF SANITY; and of memory。  My voice shall ring in
  your ears till then; and the glance of these eyes shall be
  reflected from every object; animate or inanimate; till you behold
  them again。〃〃Is it under circumstances so horrible we are to meet
  again?〃 said Stanton; shrinking under the full…lighted blaze of
  those demon eyes。  〃I never;〃 said the stranger; in an emphatic
  tone;〃I never desert my friends in misfortune。  When they are
  plunged in the lowest abyss of human calamity; they are sure to be
  visited by me。〃
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  The narrative; when Melmoth was again able to trace its
  continuation; described Stanton; some years after; plunged in a
  state the most deplorable。
  He had been always reckoned of a singular turn of mind; and the
  belief of this; aggravated by his constant talk of Melmoth; his
  wild pursuit of him; his strange behavior at the theater; and his
  dwelling on the various particulars of their extraordinary
  meetings; with all the intensity of the deepest conviction (while
  he never could impress them on any one's conviction but his own);
  suggested to some prudent people the idea that he was deranged。
  Their malignity probably took part with their prudence。  The
  selfish Frenchman* says; we feel a pleasure even in the misfortunes
  of our friends;a plus forte in those of our enemies; and as
  everyone is an enemy to a man of genius of course; the report of
  Stanton's malady was propagated with infernal and successful
  industry。  Stanton's next relative; a needy unprincipled man;
  watched the report in its circulation; and saw the snares closing
  round his victim。  He waited on him one morning; accompanied by a
  person of a grave; though somewhat repulsive appearance。  Stanton
  was as usual abstracted and restless; and; after a few moments'
  conversation; he proposed a drive a few miles out of London; which
  he said would revive and refresh him。  Stanton objected; on account
  of the difficulty of getting a hackney coach (for it is singular
  that at this period the number of private equipages; though
  infinitely fewer than they are now; exceeded the number of hired
  ones); and proposed going by water。  This; however; did not suit
  the kinsman's views; and; after pretending to send for a carriage
  (which was in waiting at the end of the street); Stanton and his
  companions entered it; and drove about two miles out of London。
  * Rochefoucauld。
  The carriage then stopped。  Come; Cousin;〃 said the younger
  Stanton;〃come and view a purchase I have made。〃  Stanton absently
  alighted; and follow