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作者:管他三七二十一      更新:2021-10-16 18:45      字数:9320
  inspired the strongest attachments; she was a finely sympathetic woman;
  with a great accordant heart and a sterling noble nature。                No claim can be
  set   up   for   her;   thank   God;   to   the   possession   of   any   of   the   conventional
  poetical qualities。      She never by any means held the opinion that she was
  among the greatest of human beings; she never suspected the existence of
  a conspiracy on the part of mankind against her; she never recognised in
  her   best   friends;   her   worst   enemies;   she   never   cultivated   the   luxury   of
  being   misunderstood   and   unappreciated;   she   would   far   rather   have   died
  without seeing a line of her composition in print; than that I should have
  maundered about her; here; as 〃the Poet〃; or 〃the Poetess〃。
  With the recollection of Miss Procter as a mere child and as a woman;
  fresh upon me; it is natural that I should linger on my way to the close of
  this brief record; avoiding its end。          But; even as the close came upon her;
  so must it come here。
  Always   impelled   by   an   intense   conviction   that   her   life   must   not   be
  dreamed away; and that her indulgence in her favourite pursuits must be
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  balanced by action in the real world around her; she was indefatigable in
  her     endeavours      to    do   some     good。       Naturally      enthusiastic;     and
  conscientiously impressed with a deep sense of her Christian duty to her
  neighbour; she devoted herself to a variety of benevolent objects。                  Now; it
  was the visitation of the sick; that had possession of her; now; it was the
  sheltering   of   the   houseless;   now;   it   was   the   elementary   teaching   of   the
  densely ignorant; now; it was the raising up of those who had wandered
  and got trodden under foot; now; it was the wider employment of her own
  sex   in   the   general   business   of   life;   now;   it   was   all   these   things   at   once。
  Perfectly unselfish; swift to sympathise and eager to relieve; she wrought
  at   such    designs    with    a  flushed    earnestness     that  disregarded      season;
  weather; time of day or night; food; rest。 Under such a hurry of the spirits;
  and   such   incessant   occupation;  the  strongest   constitution   will   commonly
  go down。       Hers; neither of the strongest nor the weakest; yielded to the
  burden; and began to sink。
  To   have   saved   her   life;   then;   by   taking   action   on   the   warning   that
  shone in her eyes and sounded in her voice; would have been impossible;
  without changing her nature。            As long as the power of moving about in
  the   old   way   was   left   to   her;   she   must   exercise   it;   or   be   killed   by   the
  restraint。    And so the time came when she could move about no longer;
  and took to her bed。
  All the restlessness gone then; and all the sweet patience of her natural
  disposition purified by the   resignation of her soul;  she lay upon her   bed
  through the whole round of changes of the seasons。 She lay upon her bed
  through     fifteen   months。     In   all  that   time;  her   old   cheerfulness     never
  quitted her。     In all that time; not an impatient or a querulous minute can
  be remembered。
  At   length;   at   midnight   on   the   second   of   February;   1864;   she   turned
  down a leaf of a little book she was reading; and shut it up。
  The   ministering   hand   that   had   copied   the  verses   into   the  tiny   album
  was soon around her neck; and she quietly asked; as the clock was on the
  stroke of one:
  〃Do you think I am dying; mamma?〃
  〃I think you are very; very ill to…night; my dear!〃
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  〃Send for my sister。     My feet are so cold。    Lift me up?〃
  Her sister entering as they raised her; she said:     〃It has come at last!〃
  And with a bright and happy smile; looked upward; and departed。
  Well had she written:
  Why shouldst thou fear the beautiful angel; Death; Who waits thee at
  the portals of the skies; Ready to kiss away thy struggling breath; Ready
  with gentle hand to close thine eyes?
  Oh what were life; if life were all?      Thine eyes Are blinded by their
  tears; or thou wouldst see Thy treasures wait thee in the far…off skies; And
  Death; thy friend; will give them all to thee。
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  VERSE:                    THE ANGEL'S STORY
  Through   the   blue   and   frosty   heavens   Christmas   stars   were   shining
  bright;    Glistening     lamps    throughout      the  City    Almost     matched     their
  gleaming light; While the  winter snow was   lying; And the  winter  winds
  were sighing; Long ago; one Christmas night。
  While;   from   every   tower   and   steeple;   Pealing   bells   were   sounding
  clear;   (Never   with   such tones   of gladness;   Save   when   Christmas   time   is
  near;)   Many  a   one   that   night   was   merry  Who   had   toiled   through   all   the
  year。     That     night   saw    old   wrongs     forgiven;     Friends;    long   parted;
  reconciled; Voices all unused to laughter; Mournful eyes that rarely smiled;
  Trembling   hearts   that   feared   the   morrow;   From   their   anxious   thoughts
  beguiled。
  Rich and poor felt love and blessing From the gracious season fall; Joy
  and plenty in the cottage; Peace and feasting in the hall; And the voices of
  the children Ringing clear above it all!
  Yet   one   house    was    dim   and   darkened;     Gloom;     and   sickness;   and
  despair;   Dwelling   in   the   gilded   chambers。   Creeping   up   the   marble   stair;
  Even stilled the voice of mourning … For a child lay dying there。
  Silken curtains fell around him; Velvet carpets hushed the tread。 Many
  costly toys were lying; All unheeded; by his bed; And his tangled golden
  ringlets Were on downy pillows spread。
  The skill of all that mighty City To save one little life was vain; One
  little thread from being broken; One fatal word from being spoken; Nay;
  his   very   mother's   pain; And   the   mighty   love   within   her;   Could   not   give
  him health again。
  So she knelt there still beside him; She alone with strength to smile;
  Promising   that   he   should   suffer   No   more   in   a   little   while;   Murmuring
  tender song and story Weary hours to beguile。
  Suddenly an unseen Presence Checked those constant moaning cries;
  Stilled the little heart's quick fluttering; Raised those blue and wondering
  eyes; Fixed on some mysterious vision; With a startled sweet surprise。
  For   a   radiant   angel   hovered;   Smiling;   o'er   the   little   bed;   White   his
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  raiment;     from    his  shoulders    Snowy      dove…like    pinions    spread;   And    a
  starlike light was shining In a Glory round his head。
  While; with tender love; the angel; Leaning o'er the little nest; In his
  arms   the   sick   child   folding;   Laid   him   gently   on   his   breast;   Sobs   and
  wailings told the mother That her darling was at rest。
  So   the  angel;  slowing   rising;  Spread his   wings;   and;  through   the   air;
  Bore the child; and while he held him To his heart with loving care; Placed
  a branch of crimson roses Tenderly beside him there。
  While   the   child;   thus   clinging;   floated   Towards   the   mansions   of   the
  Blest;  Gazing   from  his   shining   guardian To   the  flowers   upon   his   breast;
  Thus the angel spake; still smiling On the little heavenly guest:
  〃Know;   dear   little   one;   that   Heaven   Does   no   earthly   thing   disdain;
  Man's   poor   joys   find   there   an   echo   Just   as   surely   as   his   pain;   Love;   on
  earth so feebly striving; Lives divine in Heaven again!
  〃Once in that great town below us; In a poor and narrow street; Dwelt
  a   little   sickly   orphan;   Gentle   aid;   or   pity   sweet;   Never   in   life's   rugged
  pathway Guided his poor tottering feet。
  〃All the striving anxious forethought That should only come with age;
  Weighed upon his baby spirit; Showed him soon life's sternest page; Grim
  Want was his nurse; and Sorrow Was his only heritage。