第 65 节
作者:风雅颂      更新:2021-10-16 18:44      字数:9322
  me were those good stout walls of mine; close to hand on every side。
  Agoraphobia is a terrible affliction。  I have had little opportunity
  to experience it; but from that little I can only conclude that
  hanging is a far easier matter。 。 。 。
  I have just had a hearty laugh。  The prison doctor; a likable chap;
  has just been in to have a yarn with me; incidentally to proffer me
  his good offices in the matter of dope。  Of course I declined his
  proposition to 〃shoot me〃 so full of morphine through the night that
  to…morrow I would not know; when I marched to the gallows; whether I
  was 〃coming or going。〃
  But the laugh。  It was just like Jake Oppenheimer。  I can see the
  lean keenness of the man as he strung the reporters with his
  deliberate bull which they thought involuntary。  It seems; his last
  morning; breakfast finished; incased in the shirt without a collar;
  that the reporters; assembled for his last word in his cell; asked
  him for his views on capital punishment。
  … Who says we have more than the slightest veneer of civilization
  coated over our raw savagery when a group of living men can ask such
  a question of a man about to die and whom they are to see die?
  But Jake was ever game。  〃Gentlemen;〃 he said; 〃I hope to live to
  see the day when capital punishment is abolished。〃
  I have lived many lives through the long ages。  Man; the individual;
  has made no moral progress in the past ten thousand years。  I affirm
  this absolutely。  The difference between an unbroken colt and the
  patient draught…horse is purely a difference of training。  Training
  is the only moral difference between the man of to…day and the man
  of ten thousand years ago。  Under his thin skin of morality which he
  has had polished onto him; he is the same savage that he was ten
  thousand years ago。  Morality is a social fund; an accretion through
  the painful ages。  The new…born child will become a savage unless it
  is trained; polished; by the abstract morality that has been so long
  accumulating。
  〃Thou shalt not kill〃piffle!  They are going to kill me to…morrow
  morning。  〃Thou shalt not kill〃piffle!  In the shipyards of all
  civilized countries they are laying to…day the keels of Dreadnoughts
  and of Superdreadnoughts。  Dear friends; I who am about to die;
  salute you with〃Piffle!〃
  I ask you; what finer morality is preached to…day than was preached
  by Christ; by Buddha; by Socrates and Plato; by Confucius and
  whoever was the author of the 〃Mahabharata〃?  Good Lord; fifty
  thousand years ago; in our totem…families; our women were cleaner;
  our family and group relations more rigidly right。
  I must say that the morality we practised in those old days was a
  finer morality than is practised to…day。  Don't dismiss this thought
  hastily。  Think of our child labour; of our police graft and our
  political corruption; of our food adulteration and of our slavery of
  the daughters of the poor。  When I was a Son of the Mountain and a
  Son of the Bull; prostitution had no meaning。  We were clean; I tell
  you。  We did not dream such depths of depravity。  Yea; so are all
  the lesser animals of to…day clean。  It required man; with his
  imagination; aided by his mastery of matter; to invent the deadly
  sins。  The lesser animals; the other animals; are incapable of sin。
  I read hastily back through the many lives of many times and many
  places。  I have never known cruelty more terrible; nor so terrible;
  as the cruelty of our prison system of to…day。  I have told you what
  I have endured in the jacket and in solitary in the first decade of
  this twentieth century after Christ。  In the old days we punished
  drastically and killed quickly。  We did it because we so desired;
  because of whim; if you so please。  But we were not hypocrites。  We
  did not call upon press; and pulpit; and university to sanction us
  in our wilfulness of savagery。  What we wanted to do we went and
  did; on our legs upstanding; and we faced all reproof and censure on
  our legs upstanding; and did not hide behind the skirts of classical
  economists and bourgeois philosophers; nor behind the skirts of
  subsidized preachers; professors; and editors。
  Why; goodness me; a hundred years ago; fifty years ago; five years
  ago; in these United States; assault and battery was not a civil
  capital crime。  But this year; the year of Our Lord 1913; in the
  State of California; they hanged Jake Oppenheimer for such an
  offence; and to…morrow; for the civil capital crime of punching a
  man on the nose; they are going to take me out and hang me。  Query:
  Doesn't it require a long time for the ape and the tiger to die when
  such statutes are spread on the statute book of California in the
  nineteen…hundred…and…thirteenth year after Christ?  Lord; Lord; they
  only crucified Christ。  They have done far worse to Jake Oppenheimer
  and me。 。 。 。
  As Ed Morrell once rapped to me with his knuckles:  〃The worst
  possible use you can put a man to is to hang him。〃  No; I have
  little respect for capital punishment。  Not only is it a dirty game;
  degrading to the hangdogs who personally perpetrate it for a wage;
  but it is degrading to the commonwealth that tolerates it; votes for
  it; and pays the taxes for its maintenance。  Capital punishment is
  so SILLY; so stupid; so horribly unscientific。  〃To be hanged by the
  neck until dead〃 is society's quaint phraseology 。 。 。
  Morning is comemy last morning。  I slept like a babe throughout
  the night。  I slept so peacefully that once the death…watch got a
  fright。  He thought I had suffocated myself in my blankets。  The
  poor man's alarm was pitiful。  His bread and butter was at stake。
  Had it truly been so; it would have meant a black mark against him;
  perhaps discharge and the outlook for an unemployed man is bitter
  just at present。  They tell me that Europe began liquidating two
  years ago; and that now the United States has begun。  That means
  either a business crisis or a quiet panic and that the armies of the
  unemployed will be large next winter; the bread…lines long。 。 。 。
  I have had my breakfast。  It seemed a silly thing to do; but I ate
  it heartily。  The Warden came with a quart of whiskey。  I presented
  it to Murderers Row with my compliments。  The Warden; poor man; is
  afraid; if I be not drunk; that I shall make a mess of the function
  and cast reflection on his management 。 。 。
  They have put on me the shirt without a collar。 。 。
  It seems I am a very important man this day。  Quite a lot of people
  are suddenly interested in me。 。 。 。
  The doctor has just gone。  He has taken my pulse。  I asked him to。
  It is normal。 。 。 。
  I write these random thoughts; and; a sheet at a time; they start on
  their secret way out beyond the walls。 。 。 。
  I am the calmest man in the prison。  I am like a child about to
  start on a journey。  I am eager to be gone; curious for the new
  places I shall see。  This fear of the lesser death is ridiculous to
  one who has gone into the dark so often and lived again。 。 。 。
  The Warden with a quart of champagne。  I have dispatched it down
  Murderers Row。  Queer; isn't it; that I am so considered this last
  day。  It must be that these men who are to kill me are themselves
  afraid of death。  To quote Jake Oppenheimer:  I; who am about to
  die; must seem to them something God…awful。 。 。 。
  Ed Morrell has just sent word in to me。  They tell me he has paced
  up and down all night outside the prison wall。  Being an ex…convict;
  they have red…taped him out of seeing me to say good…bye。  Savages?
  I don't know。  Possibly just children。  I'll wager most of them will
  be afraid to be alone in the dark to…night after stretching my neck。
  But Ed Morrell's message:  〃My hand is in yours; old pal。  I know
  you'll swing off game。〃 。 。 。
  The reporters have just left。  I'll see them next; and last time;
  from the scaffold; ere the hangman hides my face in the black cap。
  They will be looking curiously sick。  Queer young fellows。  Some
  show that they have been drinking。  Two or three look sick with
  foreknowledge of what they have to witness。  It seems easier to be
  hanged than to look on。 。 。 。
  My last lines。  It seems I am delaying the procession。  My cell is
  quite crowded with officials and dignitaries。  They are all nervous。
  They want it over。  Without a doubt; some of them have dinner
  engagements。  I am really offending them by writing these few words。
  The priest has again preferred his request to be with me to the end。
  The poor manwhy should I deny him that solace?  I have consented;
  and he now appears quite cheerful。  Such small things make some men
  happy!  I could stop and laugh for a hearty five minutes; if they
  were not in such a hurry。
  Here I close。  I can only repeat myself。  There is no death。  Life
  is spirit; and spirit cannot die。  Only the flesh dies and passes;
  ever a…crawl with the chemic ferment that informs it; ever plastic;
  ever crystall