第 53 节
作者:风雅颂      更新:2021-10-16 18:44      字数:9322
  Captain Nicholl frankly admitted that after sixty…three days of dead
  reckoning he did not know where we were。
  The twentieth of February saw the last morsel of food eaten。  I
  prefer to skip the details of much that happened in the next eight
  days。  I shall touch only on the incidents that serve to show what
  manner of men were my companions。  We had starved so long; that we
  had no reserves of strength on which to draw when the food utterly
  ceased; and we grew weaker with great rapidity。
  On February twenty…fourth we calmly talked the situation over。  We
  were three stout…spirited men; full of life and toughness; and we
  did not want to die。  No one of us would volunteer to sacrifice
  himself for the other two。  But we agreed on three things:  we must
  have food; we must decide the matter by casting lots; and we would
  cast the lots next morning if there were no wind。
  Next morning there was wind; not much of it; but fair; so that we
  were able to log a sluggish two knots on our northerly course。  The
  mornings of the twenty…sixth and twenty…seventh found us with a
  similar breeze。  We were fearfully weak; but we abided by our
  decision and continued to sail。
  But with the morning of the twenty…eighth we knew the time was come。
  The longboat rolled drearily on an empty; windless sea; and the
  stagnant; overcast sky gave no promise of any breeze。  I cut three
  pieces of cloth; all of a size; from my jacket。  In the ravel of one
  of these pieces was a bit of brown thread。  Whoever drew this lost。
  I then put the three lots into my hat; covering it with Captain
  Nicholl's hat。
  All was ready; but we delayed for a time while each prayed silently
  and long; for we knew that we were leaving the decision to God。  I
  was not unaware of my own honesty and worth; but I was equally aware
  of the honesty and worth of my companions; so that it perplexed me
  how God could decide so fine…balanced and delicate a matter。
  The captain; as was his right and due; drew first。  After his hand
  was in the hat he delayed for sometime with closed eyes; his lips
  moving a last prayer。  And he drew a blank。  This was righta true
  decision I could not but admit to myself; for Captain Nicholl's life
  was largely known to me and I knew him to be honest; upright; and
  God…fearing。
  Remained the surgeon and me。  It was one or the other; and;
  according to ship's rating; it was his due to draw next。  Again we
  prayed。  As I prayed I strove to quest back in my life and cast a
  hurried tally…sheet of my own worth and unworth。
  I held the hat on my knees with Captain Nicholl's hat over it。  The
  surgeon thrust in his hand and fumbled about for some time; while I
  wondered whether the feel of that one brown thread could be detected
  from the rest of the ravel。
  At last he withdrew his hand。  The brown thread was in his piece of
  cloth。  I was instantly very humble and very grateful for God's
  blessing thus extended to me; and I resolved to keep more faithfully
  than ever all of His commandments。  The next moment I could not help
  but feel that the surgeon and the captain were pledged to each other
  by closer ties of position and intercourse than with me; and that
  they were in a measure disappointed with the outcome。  And close
  with that thought ran the conviction that they were such true men
  that the outcome would not interfere with the plan arranged。
  I was right。  The surgeon bared arm and knife and prepared to open a
  great vein。  First; however; he spoke a few words。
  〃I am a native of Norfolk in the Virginias;〃 he said; 〃where I
  expect I have now a wife and three children living。  The only favour
  that I have to request of you is; that should it please God to
  deliver either of you from your perilous situation; and should you
  be so fortunate as to reach once more your native country; that you
  would acquaint my unfortunate family with my wretched fate。〃
  Next he requested courteously of us a few minutes in which to
  arrange his affairs with God。  Neither Captain Nicholl nor I could
  utter a word; but with streaming eyes we nodded our consent。
  Without doubt Arnold Bentham was the best collected of the three of
  us。  My own anguish was prodigious; and I am confident that Captain
  Nicholl suffered equally。  But what was one to do?  The thing was
  fair and proper and had been decided by God。
  But when Arnold Bentham had completed his last arrangements and made
  ready to do the act; I could contain myself no longer; and cried
  out:
  〃Wait!  We who have endured so much surely can endure a little more。
  It is now mid…morning。  Let us wait until twilight。  Then; if no
  event has appeared to change our dreadful destiny; do you Arnold
  Bentham; do as we have agreed。〃
  He looked to Captain Nicholl for confirmation of my suggestion; and
  Captain Nicholl could only nod。  He could utter no word; but in his
  moist and frosty blue eyes was a wealth of acknowledgment I could
  not misread。
  I did not; I could not; deem it a crime; having so determined by
  fair drawing of lots; that Captain Nicholl and myself should profit
  by the death of Arnold Bentham。  I could not believe that the love
  of life that actuated us had been implanted in our breasts by aught
  other than God。  It was God's will; and we His poor creatures could
  only obey and fulfil His will。  And yet; God was kind。  In His all…
  kindness He saved us from so terrible; though so righteous; an act。
  Scarce had a quarter of an hour passed; when a fan of air from the
  west; with a hint of frost and damp in it; crisped on our cheeks。
  In another five minutes we had steerage from the filled sail; and
  Arnold Bentham was at the steering sweep。
  〃Save what little strength you have;〃 he had said。  〃Let me consume
  the little strength left in me in order that it may increase your
  chance to survive。〃
  And so he steered to a freshening breeze; while Captain Nicholl and
  I lay sprawled in the boat's bottom and in our weakness dreamed
  dreams and glimpsed visions of the dear things of life far across
  the world from us。
  It was an ever…freshening breeze of wind that soon began to puff and
  gust。  The cloud stuff flying across the sky foretold us of a gale。
  By midday Arnold Bentham fainted at the steering; and; ere the boat
  could broach in the tidy sea already running; Captain Nicholl and I
  were at the steering sweep with all the four of our weak hands upon
  it。  We came to an agreement; and; just as Captain Nicholl had drawn
  the first lot by virtue of his office; so now he took the first
  spell at steering。  Thereafter the three of us spelled one another
  every fifteen minutes。  We were very weak and we could not spell
  longer at a time。
  By mid…afternoon a dangerous sea was running。  We should have
  rounded the boat to; had our situation not been so desperate; and
  let her drift bow…on to a sea…anchor extemporized of our mast and
  sail。  Had we broached in those great; over…topping seas; the boat
  would have been rolled over and over。
  Time and again; that afternoon; Arnold Bentham; for our sakes;
  begged that we come to a sea…anchor。  He knew that we continued to
  run only in the hope that the decree of the lots might not have to
  be carried out。  He was a noble man。  So was Captain Nicholl noble;
  whose frosty eyes had wizened to points of steel。  And in such noble
  company how could I be less noble?  I thanked God repeatedly;
  through that long afternoon of peril; for the privilege of having
  known two such men。  God and the right dwelt in them and no matter
  what my poor fate might be; I could but feel well recompensed by
  such companionship。  Like them I did not want to die; yet was
  unafraid to die。  The quick; early doubt I had had of these two men
  was long since dissipated。  Hard the school; and hard the men; but
  they were noble men; God's own men。
  I saw it first。  Arnold Bentham; his own death accepted; and Captain
  Nicholl; well nigh accepting death; lay rolling like loose…bodied
  dead men in the boat's bottom; and I was steering when I saw it。
  The boat; foaming and surging with the swiftness of wind in its
  sail; was uplifted on a crest; when; close before me; I saw the sea…
  battered islet of rock。  It was not half a mile off。  I cried out;
  so that the other two; kneeling and reeling and clutching for
  support; were peering and staring at what I saw。
  〃Straight for it; Daniel;〃 Captain Nicholl mumbled command。  〃There
  may be a cove。  There may be a cove。  It is our only chance。〃
  Once again he spoke; when we were atop that dreadful lee shore with
  no cove existent。
  〃Straight for it; Daniel。  If we go clear we are too weak ever to
  win back against sea and wind。〃
  He was right。  I obeyed。  He drew his watch and looked; and I asked
  the time。  It was five o'clock。  He stretched out his hand to Arnold
  Bentham; who met and shook it weakly; and both gazed at me; in their
  eyes extending that same hand…clasp。  It was