第 32 节
作者:竹水冷      更新:2021-08-21 21:27      字数:9321
  e:  and almost always; at his prayers; he had that meaning in his mind; when he said 〃Thy Will be done;〃 he had really submitted patiently; and tried to put away the longing from his mind; and would; there can be no doubt; have been happy and dutiful at home; but at length the wish of his heart was suddenly granted。
  And then; wish though it still were; there came all this grief and discomfort。  The gladness was in him somewhere; but he could not get at it; either for his own comfort; or that of his father。  He missed his mother exceedingly。  SHE would know what he meant; and tell Papa that he did care to go。  Yet; did he care so very much?  Only think of beginning to be a stranger at this dear old home! and seeing no mother; no Susie; nor any of them; for years togetherprobably not his father after the first voyage!  However; the sailor was too strong in Sam for that grief not to pass off; and his chief trouble was the sense of supplanting Henry。  He knew the disappointment would be most bitter; and he could not get rid of the sense of having taken an unfair advantage of the disgrace of Henry's adventure。  As to his father's manner; he got over that more easily; for his conscience was free; he knew that the tone of displeasure would be gone at the next meeting; and he was too sure of his own love of the sea to fear that he should not show it enough。  After all; he was to be a naval cadet! He could not be sorry。  Nay; he felt he had his wish; the very wish he had thought it wrong to put into a prayer。  He thought he ought to be thankful that it was granted; in the same way as he had been when his mother began to recover。  So he put his hands together; and looked up into the summer blue sky through the leaves; and his lips moved; as he whispered his thanks; and asked to be helped in being a good brave sailor; and that something as good might happen to poor Henry。
  After this; somehow; the weight was gone; he knew not where。  All he recollected was; that he should see Mamma in two days; and that he was to sail with Papa if he could get through his examination。  There was a sort of necessity of doing something comical; and just then spying Miss Fosbrook with a book walking slowly below; he could not resist the temptation of sending down on her a shower of little hard pears and twigs。
  Bob came one down on her book; and another on her bonnet。  She looked up; and saw a leg stretching out for a branch; apparently in such a dangerous manner; that she did not know whether she should not have Sam himself on her head next; and started back; watching as he swung himself from branch to branch; and then slid down; embracing the trunk。
  〃Did I hit you!〃 said he。  〃I couldn't help trying it; it was such fun。〃
  It was a great liberty; but she was so good…humoured as to laugh; and said he had taken good aim。
  〃Please; Miss Fosbrook;〃 next said he; 〃would you hear how many propositions I can say!〃  And as she opened her eyes at this holiday amusement; he added; 〃Papa has got the appointment after all; and means me to have it。〃
  〃I am so glad; Sam!  I give you joy!〃 she said; and took his hand to shake it heartily。
  〃I wish Hal could go too;〃 said Sam。
  〃Dear Sam;〃 she said kindly; and guessing his feelings; as having gone along with them; 〃I don't wonder you are sorry for him; but indeed I think it is better for him to be sheltered from beginning real life just now。〃
  〃Papa said he would not have taken him;〃 said Sam; 〃but it seems so hard to have all his life changed for a thing that sounds worse than he meant it to be。〃
  〃Sam;〃 said Miss Fosbrook; 〃I once read a sermon; that said that our conduct in little things does decide the tenor of our lives。  You know one moment of hastiness cost Moses the Promised Land; and only a little while ago; we heard how Joash had but few victories allowed to him; because he did not think it worth while to strike the ground as often as Elisha told him。  It is the little things that show whether we are to be trusted with great。〃
  〃It is such a tremendous punishment;〃 said Sam; 〃when he would have put it back again。〃
  〃My brother knew a banker's clerk who was transported for borrowing what he meant to put back again。  No; Sam; people must bear the result of their doings; and your father judges for Hal as much in kindness as in anger。〃
  〃I know he knows best。〃
  〃You may see it as well as trust。  With all his grand talk; do you really think that Hal would not be upset at the first hardship; or that he could face bullying or danger?  Remember the bull; that was at least a vicious cow; and turned out to be a calf。〃
  Sam could not help laughing; as he said; 〃Yes; that would never do at sea; and he would be done for if he were cowardly there。  But I wish I could get out of sight of him till I am gone。  And please hear my Euclid; I'll get the book; if you'll stay out here。〃
  〃Therefore; if the two sides of two triangles be equal to one another; and the adjacent angles be equal each to each;〃 resounded through the laurels; as the walking party returned。
  〃Hallo! al fresco Euclid!〃 exclaimed Uncle John; as Sam with a blush ran after his blotted diagrams; as a sudden gust of wind blew them dancing over the garden。  Captain Merrifield caught one; and restored it to Sam; with a pat on the back that made his teeth rattle in his head; but which made him as happy as a young sea…king; showing that they perfectly understood each other。
  But to be ever so good a boy does not carry one through the examinations that stand at the door of every road of life for those who are not wealthy。  Sam knew he was the dull boy of Mr。 Carey's four pupils; and though from sheer diligence he was less often turned back than the rest; yet they could all excel him whenever they chose: his lessons all went against the grain; and were a sore trouble to him; and his uncle had shown much wrath to…day at his ignorance and backwardness。  He was therefore in a great fright; and gave himself and Miss Fosbrook no peace; running after her every moment with his Euclid; his Colenso; or his slate。
  〃That boy will stupefy himself and his admirable cramming machine!〃 exclaimed Uncle John; when coming out into the court after tea to talk to Purday; the two brothers heard; 〃The complement A E is equal to the complement D E;〃 proceeding out of the school…room window。
  〃A truce with your complements to…night;〃 shouted the Captain; 〃come down; Sam; I must have a game at hide…and…seek!〃
  Though hide…and…seek on the lawn with Papa was the supremest bliss that life had yet offered to the young Merrifields; and though Susan; Bessie; Annie; and Johnnie; had all severally burst into the room to proclaim it and summon Sam; he had refused them all; but this call settled it; he broke off in the middle of his rectangle; and dashed down stairs; to the great relief of kind Miss Fosbrook; who; with all her good…will; found her head beginning to grow weary of angles and right…angles on a hot evening in the height of summer。
  The summer…house was to be HOME; and there the party were assembled nine in number; for not only Papa; but Uncle John; was going to play; and Henry; though forlorn and unnoticed; had wandered about with the rest all day; trying to do as usual; to forget the heavy load that pressed on him; and to believe that he was not going to be punished for mere unluckiness in borrowing; and for not answering impertinent questions。  The world was very unlike itself to him; and he saw the enjoyment without being able to enter into it; just as a sick person sees the sunshine without feeling the warmth; but instead of penitence; he merely tried to shake off his compunction。
  So there he stood in the ring; as Susan was finding out who was to be the first to hide; by pointing to each; at each word of the formula;
  〃Eggs; butter; cheese; bread; Sticks; stocks; stones; dead。〃
  〃Dead〃 came to Uncle John; as perhaps Susan had contrived; and shrugging up his shoulders; he went off to hide; and his whoop was presently heard。  He was not VERY good game; maybe he did not wish to be very long sought; for he was no further than in the tall French beans; generally considered as a stupid place to hide in。  The children had been in hopes that he would catch Papa; which was always a very difficult matter; for the sailor was lighter of foot; as well as; of course; longer in limb; than any of the children; but they saw that Uncle John had not the slightest chance with him; and it was Bessie who was caught in her homeward race。
  Bessie was rather a good hider; and was searched for far and wide before Sam's 〃I spy!  I spy!〃 gave the signal that a bit of the spotty cotton had been seen peeping out from under Purday's big potato…basket in the tool…house; and the whole party flew towards home。  Bessie would not aim at Papa; for if so; she would certainly catch no one; but she hunted down David; who was too sturdy to be a quick runner; and who was very well pleased to be caught。
  〃I'll have Papa!〃 he said; as she captured him。  〃I know of such a cunning place。〃
  David's place proved to be in among his likenesses; the cabbages; immediately in front of the summer…house。  There he lay flat on the very wet mould; among the stout cabbages; all of which had a