第 19 节
作者:竹水冷      更新:2021-08-21 21:27      字数:9322
  uxuries of the Park。  Her farthings melted away fast; but she seemed to think this her misfortune; not her fault。 She did not try to talk to Miss Fosbrook; feeling perhaps that she was in a naughty mood; which she would not try to shake off; and she made no attempt to go on with her present for her Mamma; it looked so poor and trumpery after the beautiful things she had seen。
  Nor did Christabel like to remind her of it; fearing that the occasion for giving it might never come; but she did feel that it was a mournful thing to see the child; who was in danger of so fearful a sorrow; wasting her grief in pining after foolish fancies; and turning what should have been a refreshing holiday into an occasion of longing after what she thus made into pomps and vanities of this wicked world。  Christabel had heard that people who murmur among blessings often have those blessings snatched away; and this made her tremble for poor little discontented Elizabeth。
  CHAPTER X。
  〃There!〃 exclaimed Susan; 〃I really have got a letter from Papa himself。  What a prize!〃
  〃You'll have to mind your Grosvenor when you answer HIM;〃 said Sam; 〃but hollo; what's the matter?〃
  For Susan's eyes had grown large; and her whole face scarlet; and she gave a little cry as she read。
  〃Your Mamma; my dear?〃 asked Miss Fosbrook。
  〃Oh; MammaMamma is so very ill!〃 and Susan throw the letter down; and broke into a fit of sobbing。
  Sam caught it up; and Elizabeth came to read it with him; both standing still and not speaking a word; but staring at the letter with their eyes fixed。
  〃What is it; my dear?〃 said Miss Fosbrook; tenderly putting her arm round Susan; but she sobbed too much to make a word distinct; and Bessie held out the letter to her governess; looking white; and too much awed to speak。
  Captain Merrifield wrote in short; plain; sad words; that he thought it right that his children should know how matters stood。  The doctors' treatment; for which their mother had been taken to London; had not succeeded; but had occasioned such terrible illness; that unless by the mercy of God she became much better in the course of a day or two; she could not live。  If she should be worse; he would either write or telegraph; and Susan and Sam must be ready to set out at once on the receipt of such a message; and come up by the next train to London; where they should be met at the station。  He had promised their mother that in case of need he would send for them。
  God bless you; my poor children; and have mercy on us all! Your loving father; H。 MERRIFIELD。
  That was all; and Christabel felt; more than even the children did; from how full and heavy a heart those words had been written。
  Though she hardly knew how to speak; she tried to comfort Susan by showing her that her father had evidently not given up all hope; but Susan was crying more at the thought of her Mamma's present illness and pain than with fear of the future; and Sam said sadly; 〃He would not have written at all unless it had been very bad indeed。〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Miss Fosbrook; 〃but I believe; in cases like this; there is often great fear; and then very speedy improvement。〃
  〃Oh dear;〃 said Bessie; speaking for the first time; 〃I know it will be。  Little girls in story…books always do have their mammasdie!〃
  〃Story…books are all nonsense; so it won't happen;〃 said Sam; and really it seemed as if the habit of contradicting Bessie had suggested to him the greatest consolation that had yet occurred。
  Just then Henry and the younger ones came in; and learnt the tidings。 Henry wept as bitterly as his elder sister; and John and Annie both did the same; but David did not speak one word; as if he hardly took in what was the matter; and; going to the window; took up his lesson… books as usual。
  〃It is nine o'clock; Hal;〃 said Sam presently。
  〃Oh; we can't go to Mr。 Carey to…day;〃 said Hal。
  〃Yes; we shall;〃 returned Sam。
  〃Oh don't;〃 cried Susan。  〃Suppose a telegraph should come!〃
  〃Well; then you can send for me;〃 said Sam。  〃Come; Hal。〃
  〃How can you; Sam?〃 said Henry crossly; 〃I know Mr。 Carey will give us leave when he knows。〃
  〃I don't want leave;〃 said Sam; 〃I don't want to kick up a row; as you'll do if you stay at home。〃
  〃Well then; if the message comes; I shall take Susie to London instead of you。  I'm sure they want me most!〃
  〃No; go down to Mr。 Carey's with your brother; if you please; Hal;〃 said Miss Fosbrook decidedly。  〃If he should tell you not to stay; I can't help it; but you will none of you do any good by hanging about without doing your daily duties。〃
  Hal saw he had no chance; and marched off; muttering about its being very hard。  Sam picked up his books; and turned to go; with a grave steady look that was quite manly in its sadness; only stopping to say; 〃Now; Jackie; you be good!Please Miss Fosbrook; let him run down after me if the message comes; and I'll be back before the horse is out。〃
  Miss Fosbrook promised; and could not help shaking hands with the brave boy; if only to show that she felt with him。
  〃Then must we all do our lessons?〃 asked Annie disconsolately; when he was gone。
  〃Yes; my dear; I think we shall all be the better for not neglecting what we ought to do。  But there is one thing that we can do for your dear Mamma; you know what I mean。  Suppose you each went away alone for five minutes; and were to come back when I ring the little bell?〃
  The first to come back was Annie; with the question in a low whisper; 〃Miss Fosbrook; will God make Mamma better if we are very good?〃
  Miss Fosbrook kissed her; saying; 〃My dear little girl; I cannot tell。  All I can certainly tell you is; that He hears the prayers of good children; and if it be better for her and for you He will give her back to you。〃
  Annie did not quite understand; but she entered into what Miss Fosbrook said enough to wish to be good; so she took up her book; and began to learn with all her might。
  Elizabeth would have thought it much more like a little girl in a book to have done no lessons; but have sat thinking; and perhaps reading the Bible all day; but on the whole Elizabeth had hardly thoughts enough to last her so long; nor was she deep or serious enough to have done herself much good by keeping the Bible open before her。  In fact she did lose her verse in merely reading the chapter for the day!  So it was just as well that she had something to do that was not play; and that was a duty; and thus might give the desire to be good something to bear upon。
  But Christabel saw by Susan's face; and heard in the shaken voice with which she took her turn in the reading; that she could not have given her mind to her tasks; and did not need them to keep her out of mischief。  It would have been cruel to have required her to sit down to them just then; and her governess was glad to be able to excuse her on account of the packing…up。  All her things and Sam's must be got ready in case of an immediate start; and she was sent up to the nursery to take care of the little ones; while Nurse and Mary mended; ironed; and packed。
  To be sure Nurse Freeman made poor Susan unnecessarily unhappy by being sure that it was all the fault of the London doctors; but she was a kind; tender old woman; and her petting was a great comfort to the poor girl。  What did her most good; however; was sitting quite quiet with the little ones while they were asleep; and all alone; it seemed to rest and compose her; and she always loved to be in charge of them。  Poor child! she might soon have to be their little mother! She was able to play with them when they awoke; and cheered herself up with their pretty ways; and by finding how quickly Baby was learning to walk。  Ah! but would Mamma ever see her walk?
  If any of the children thought it unjust that Susan's lessons should be let off; they were wrong。  Parents and teachers must have the power of doing such things without being judged。  Sometimes they see that a child is really unable to learn; when the others perceive no difference; and it would be very harsh and cruel to oppress one who is out of order for fear little silly; idle; healthy things should think themselves hardly used。
  At any rate; the lessons were capitally done; and when the children met again; they were all so much brighter and more hopeful; that they quite believed that their Mamma was going to get better very fast。 Bessie especially was so resolved that thus it should be; that she shut herself into Miss Fosbrook's room; and drew and painted with all her might; as if preparing for Mamma's birthday made it certain that it would be kept。
  The boys brought word that they would have a holiday the next day; as it was the Feast of St。  Barnabas; and after morning service Mr。 Carey was going to meet his brother and bring him home。
  〃I shall be all the more certain to get the sovereign; or two sovereigns;〃 said Henry to David; the only person whom he could find to listen to him; 〃if Sam is gone; and everyone will be caring about me。〃
  〃And then you'll give it to the pig;〃 said David。
  〃Oh yes; to be sure。  You will grow into a pig yourself if you go on that way; David。〃
  However; David; partaking the family distrust of Hal's birds…in…the… bush; and being sta