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  like brother and sister。’
  ‘I wonder why you ever fell in love with me?’ said Dora;
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  beginning on another button of my coat。
  ‘Perhaps because I couldn’t see you; and not love you; Dora!’
  ‘Suppose you had never seen me at all;’ said Dora; going to
  another button。
  ‘Suppose we had never been born!’ said I; gaily。
  I wondered what she was thinking about; as I glanced in
  admiring silence at the little soft hand travelling up the row of
  buttons on my coat; and at the clustering hair that lay against my
  breast; and at the lashes of her downcast eyes; slightly rising as
  they followed her idle fingers。 At length her eyes were lifted up to
  mine; and she stood on tiptoe to give me; more thoughtfully than
  usual; that precious little kiss—once; twice; three times—and went
  out of the room。
  They all came back together within five minutes afterwards;
  and Dora’s unusual thoughtfulness was quite gone then。 She was
  laughingly resolved to put Jip through the whole of his
  performances; before the coach came。 They took some time (not so
  much on account of their variety; as Jip’s reluctance); and were
  still unfinished when it was heard at the door。 There was a hurried
  but affectionate parting between Agnes and herself; and Dora was
  to write to Agnes (who was not to mind her letters being foolish;
  she said); and Agnes was to write to Dora; and they had a second
  parting at the coach door; and a third when Dora; in spite of the
  remonstrances of Miss Lavinia; would come running out once
  more to remind Agnes at the coach window about writing; and to
  shake her curls at me on the box。
  The stage…coach was to put us down near Covent Garden;
  where we were to take another stage…coach for Highgate。 I was
  impatient for the short walk in the interval; that Agnes might
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  praise Dora to me。 Ah! what praise it was! How lovingly and
  fervently did it commend the pretty creature I had won; with all
  her artless graces best displayed; to my most gentle care! How
  thoughtfully remind me; yet with no pretence of doing so; of the
  trust in which I held the orphan child!
  Never; never; had I loved Dora so deeply and truly; as I loved
  her that night。 When we had again alighted; and were walking in
  the starlight along the quiet road that led to the Doctor’s house; I
  told Agnes it was her doing。
  ‘When you were sitting by her;’ said I; ‘you seemed to be no less
  her guardian angel than mine; and you seem so now; Agnes。’
  ‘A poor angel;’ she returned; ‘but faithful。’
  The clear tone of her voice; going straight to my heart; made it
  natural to me to say:
  ‘The cheerfulness that belongs to you; Agnes (and to no one else
  that ever I have seen); is so restored; I have observed today; that I
  have begun to hope you are happier at home?’
  ‘I am happier in myself;’ she said; ‘I am quite cheerful and lighthearted。’
  I glanced at the serene face looking upward; and thought it was
  the stars that made it seem so noble。
  ‘There has been no change at home;’ said Agnes; after a few
  moments。
  ‘No fresh reference;’ said I; ‘to—I wouldn’t distress you; Agnes;
  but I cannot help asking—to what we spoke of; when we parted
  last?’
  ‘No; none;’ she answered。
  ‘I have thought so much about it。’
  ‘You must think less about it。 Remember that I confide in
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  simple love and truth at last。 Have no apprehensions for me;
  Trotwood;’ she added; after a moment; ‘the step you dread my
  taking; I shall never take。’
  Although I think I had never really feared it; in any season of
  cool reflection; it was an unspeakable relief to me to have this
  assurance from her own truthful lips。 I told her so; earnestly。
  ‘And when this visit is over;’ said I;—‘for we may not be alone
  another time;—how long is it likely to be; my dear Agnes; before
  you come to London again?’
  ‘Probably a long time;’ she replied; ‘I think it will be best—for
  papa’s sake—to remain at home。 We are not likely to meet often;
  for some time to come; but I shall be a good correspondent of
  Dora’s; and we shall frequently hear of one another that way。’
  We were now within the little courtyard of the Doctor’s cottage。
  It was growing late。 There was a light in the window of Mrs。
  Strong’s chamber; and Agnes; pointing to it; bade me good night。
  ‘Do not be troubled;’ she said; giving me her hand; ‘by our
  misfortunes and anxieties。 I can be happier in nothing than in
  your happiness。 If you can ever give me help; rely upon it I will ask
  you for it。 God bless you always!’ In her beaming smile; and in
  these last tones of her cheerful voice; I seemed again to see and
  hear my little Dora in her company。 I stood awhile; looking
  through the porch at the stars; with a heart full of love and
  gratitude; and then walked slowly forth。 I had engaged a bed at a
  decent alehouse close by; and was going out at the gate; when;
  happening to turn my head; I saw a light in the Doctor’s study。 A
  half…reproachful fancy came into my mind; that he had been
  working at the Dictionary without my help。 With the view of
  seeing if this were so; and; in any case; of bidding him good night;
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  if he were yet sitting among his books; I turned back; and going
  softly across the hall; and gently opening the door; looked in。
  The first person whom I saw; to my surprise; by the sober light
  of the shaded lamp; was Uriah。 He was standing close beside it;
  with one of his skeleton hands over his mouth; and the other
  resting on the Doctor’s table。 The Doctor sat in his study chair;
  covering his face with his hands。 Mr。 Wickfield; sorely troubled
  and distressed; was leaning forward; irresolutely touching the
  Doctor’s arm。
  For an instant; I supposed that the Doctor was ill。 I hastily
  advanced a step under that impression; when I met Uriah’s eye;
  and saw what was the matter。 I would have withdrawn; but the
  Doctor made a gesture to detain me; and I remained。
  ‘At any rate;’ observed Uriah; with a writhe of his ungainly
  person; ‘we may keep the door shut。 We needn’t make it known to
  all the town。’
  Saying which; he went on his toes to the door; which I had left
  open; and carefully closed it。 He then came back; and took up his
  former position。 There was an obtrusive show of compassionate
  zeal in his voice and manner; more intolerable—at least to me—
  than any demeanour he could have assumed。
  ‘I have felt it incumbent upon me; Master Copperfield;’ said
  Uriah; ‘to point out to Doctor Strong what you and me have
  already talked about。 You didn’t exactly understand me; though?’
  I gave him a look; but no other answer; and; going to my good
  old master; said a few words that I meant to be words of comfort
  and encouragement。 He put his hand upon my shoulder; as it had
  been his custom to do when I was quite a little fellow; but did not
  lift his grey head。
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  ‘As you didn’t understand me; Master Copperfield;’ resumed
  Uriah in the same officious manner; ‘I may take the liberty of
  umbly mentioning; being among friends; that I have called Doctor
  Strong’s attention to the goings…on of Mrs。 Strong。 It’s much
  against the grain with me; I assure you; Copperfield; to be
  concerned in anything so unpleasant; but really; as it is; we’re all
  mixing ourselves up with what oughtn’t to be。 That was what my
  meaning was; sir; when you didn’t understand me。’ I wonder now;
  when I recall his leer; that I did not collar him; and try to shake the
  breath out of his body。
  ‘I dare say I didn’t make myself very clear;’ he went on; ‘nor you
  neither。 Naturally; we was both of us inclined to give such a
  subject a wide berth。 Hows’ever; at last I have made up my mind
  to speak plain; and I have mentioned to Doctor Strong that—did
  you speak; sir?’
  This was to the Doctor; who had moaned。 The sound might
  have touched any heart; I thought; but it had no effect upon
  Uriah’s。
  ‘—mentioned to Doctor Strong;’ he proceeded; ‘that anyone
  may see that Mr。 Maldon; and the lovely and agreeable lady as is
  Doctor Strong’s wife; are too sweet on one another。 Really the
  time is come (we being at present all mixing ourselves up with
  what oughtn’t to be); when Doctor Strong must be told that this
  was full as plain to everybody as the sun; before Mr。 Maldon went
  to India; that Mr。 Maldon made excuses to come back; for nothing
  else; and that he’s always here; for nothing else。 When you come
  in; sir; I was just putting it to my fellow…partner;’ towards whom he
  turned; ‘to say to Doctor Strong upon his word and honour;
  whether he’d ever been of this opinion long ago; or not。 Come; Mr。
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  Wickfield; sir! Would you be so good as tell us? Yes or no; sir?
  Come; partner!’
  ‘For God’s