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  hear Mrs。 Crupp clinking the teacups in getting breakfast ready。
  But Dora sang; and others sang; and Miss Mills sang—about the
  slumbering echoes in the caverns of Memory; as if she were a
  hundred years old—and the evening came on; and we had tea;
  with the kettle boiling gipsy…fashion; and I was still as happy as
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  ever。
  I was happier than ever when the party broke up; and the other
  people; defeated Red Whisker and all; went their several ways;
  and we went ours through the still evening and the dying light;
  with sweet scents rising up around us。 Mr。 Spenlow being a little
  drowsy after the champagne—honour to the soil that grew the
  grape; to the grape that made the wine; to the sun that ripened it;
  and to the merchant who adulterated it!—and being fast asleep in
  a corner of the carriage; I rode by the side and talked to Dora。 She
  admired my horse and patted him—oh; what a dear little hand it
  looked upon a horse!—and her shawl would not keep right; and
  now and then I drew it round her with my arm; and I even fancied
  that Jip began to see how it was; and to understand that he must
  make up his mind to be friends with me。
  That sagacious Miss Mills; too; that amiable; though quite used
  up; recluse; that little patriarch of something less than twenty;
  who had done with the world; and mustn’t on any account have
  the slumbering echoes in the caverns of Memory awakened; what
  a kind thing she did!
  ‘Mr。 Copperfield;’ said Miss Mills; ‘come to this side of the
  carriage a moment—if you can spare a moment。 I want to speak to
  you。’
  Behold me; on my gallant grey; bending at the side of Miss
  Mills; with my hand upon the carriage door!
  ‘Dora is coming to stay with me。 She is coming home with me
  the day after tomorrow。 If you would like to call; I am sure papa
  would be happy to see you。’ What could I do but invoke a silent
  blessing on Miss Mills’s head; and store Miss Mills’s address in the
  securest corner of my memory! What could I do but tell Miss Mills;
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  with grateful looks and fervent words; how much I appreciated her
  good offices; and what an inestimable value I set upon her
  friendship!
  Then Miss Mills benignantly dismissed me; saying; ‘Go back to
  Dora!’ and I went; and Dora leaned out of the carriage to talk to
  me; and we talked all the rest of the way; and I rode my gallant
  grey so close to the wheel that I grazed his near fore leg against it;
  and ‘took the bark off’; as his owner told me; ‘to the tune of three
  pun’ sivin’—which I paid; and thought extremely cheap for so
  much joy。 What time Miss Mills sat looking at the moon;
  murmuring verses—and recalling; I suppose; the ancient days
  when she and earth had anything in common。
  Norwood was many miles too near; and we reached it many
  hours too soon; but Mr。 Spenlow came to himself a little short of it;
  and said; ‘You must come in; Copperfield; and rest!’ and I
  consenting; we had sandwiches and wine…and…water。 In the light
  room; Dora blushing looked so lovely; that I could not tear myself
  away; but sat there staring; in a dream; until the snoring of Mr。
  Spenlow inspired me with sufficient consciousness to take my
  leave。 So we parted; I riding all the way to London with the
  farewell touch of Dora’s hand still light on mine; recalling every
  incident and word ten thousand times; lying down in my own bed
  at last; as enraptured a young noodle as ever was carried out of his
  five wits by love。
  When I awoke next morning; I was resolute to declare my
  passion to Dora; and know my fate。 Happiness or misery was now
  the question。 There was no other question that I knew of in the
  world; and only Dora could give the answer to it。 I passed three
  days in a luxury of wretchedness; torturing myself by putting
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  every conceivable variety of discouraging construction on all that
  ever had taken place between Dora and me。 At last; arrayed for
  the purpose at a vast expense; I went to Miss Mills’s; fraught with
  a declaration。
  How many times I went up and down the street; and round the
  square—painfully aware of being a much better answer to the old
  riddle than the original one—before I could persuade myself to go
  up the steps and knock; is no matter now。 Even when; at last; I had
  knocked; and was waiting at the door; I had some flurried thought
  of asking if that were Mr。 Blackboy’s (in imitation of poor Barkis);
  begging pardon; and retreating。 But I kept my ground。
  Mr。 Mills was not at home。 I did not expect he would be。
  Nobody wanted him。 Miss Mills was at home。 Miss Mills would do。
  I was shown into a room upstairs; where Miss Mills and Dora
  were。 Jip was there。 Miss Mills was copying music (I recollect; it
  was a new song; called ‘Affection’s Dirge’); and Dora was painting
  flowers。 What were my feelings; when I recognized my own
  flowers; the identical Covent Garden Market purchase! I cannot
  say that they were very like; or that they particularly resembled
  any flowers that have ever come under my observation; but I knew
  from the paper round them which was accurately copied; what the
  composition was。
  Miss Mills was very glad to see me; and very sorry her papa was
  not at home: though I thought we all bore that with fortitude。 Miss
  Mills was conversational for a few minutes; and then; laying down
  her pen upon ‘Affection’s Dirge’; got up; and left the room。
  I began to think I would put it off till tomorrow。
  ‘I hope your poor horse was not tired; when he got home at
  night;’ said Dora; lifting up her beautiful eyes。 ‘It was a long way
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  for him。’
  I began to think I would do it today。
  ‘It was a long way for him;’ said I; ‘for he had nothing to uphold
  him on the journey。’
  ‘Wasn’t he fed; poor thing?’ asked Dora。
  I began to think I would put it off till tomorrow。
  ‘Ye…yes;’ I said; ‘he was well taken care of。 I mean he had not
  the unutterable happiness that I had in being so near you。’
  Dora bent her head over her drawing and said; after a little
  while—I had sat; in the interval; in a burning fever; and with my
  legs in a very rigid state—
  ‘You didn’t seem to be sensible of that happiness yourself; at
  one time of the day。’
  I saw now that I was in for it; and it must be done on the spot。
  ‘You didn’t care for that happiness in the least;’ said Dora;
  slightly raising her eyebrows; and shaking her head; ‘when you
  were sitting by Miss Kitt。’
  Kitt; I should observe; was the name of the creature in pink;
  with the little eyes。
  ‘Though certainly I don’t know why you should;’ said Dora; or
  why you should call it a happiness at all。 But of course you don’t
  mean what you say。 And I am sure no one doubts your being at
  liberty to do whatever you like。 Jip; you naughty boy; come here!’
  I don’t know how I did it。 I did it in a moment。 I intercepted Jip。
  I had Dora in my arms。 I was full of eloquence。 I never stopped for
  a word。 I told her how I loved her。 I told her I should die without
  her。 I told her that I idolized and worshipped her。 Jip barked
  madly all the time。
  When Dora hung her head and cried; and trembled; my
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  eloquence increased so much the more。 If she would like me to die
  for her; she had but to say the word; and I was ready。 Life without
  Dora’s love was not a thing to have on any terms。 I couldn’t bear it;
  and I wouldn’t。 I had loved her every minute; day and night; since
  I first saw her。 I loved her at that minute to distraction。 I should
  always love her; every minute; to distraction。 Lovers had loved
  before; and lovers would love again; but no lover had loved; might;
  could; would; or should ever love; as I loved Dora。 The more I
  raved; the more Jip barked。 Each of us; in his own way; got more
  mad every moment。
  Well; well! Dora and I were sitting on the sofa by and by; quiet
  enough; and Jip was lying in her lap; winking peacefully at me。 It
  was off my mind。 I was in a state of perfect rapture。 Dora and I
  were engaged。
  I suppose we had some notion that this was to end in marriage。
  We must have had some; because Dora stipulated that we were
  never to be married without her papa’s consent。 But; in our
  youthful ecstasy; I don’t think that we really looked before us or
  behind us; or had any aspiration beyond the ignorant present。 We
  were to keep our secret from Mr。 Spenlow; but I am sure the idea
  never entered my head; then; that there was anything
  dishonourable in that。
  Miss Mills was more than usually pensive when Dora; going to
  find her; brought her back;—I apprehend; because there was a
  tendency in what had passed to awaken the slumbering echoes in
  the caverns of Memory。 But she gave us her blessing; and the
  assurance of her lasting friendship; and spoke to us; generally; as
  became a Voice from the Cloister。