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  Peggotty knew it。 I said that I had been more miserable than I
  thought anybody could believe; who only knew how young I was。
  And I begged and prayed my aunt—I forget in what terms now;
  but I remember that they affected me very much then—to
  befriend and protect me; for my father’s sake。
  ‘Mr。 Dick;’ said my aunt; ‘what shall I do with this child?’
  Mr。 Dick considered; hesitated; brightened; and rejoined; ‘Have
  him measured for a suit of clothes directly。’
  ‘Mr。 Dick;’ said my aunt triumphantly; ‘give me your hand; for
  your common sense is invaluable。’ Having shaken it with great
  cordiality; she pulled me towards her and said to Mr。 Murdstone:
  ‘You can go when you like; I’ll take my chance with the boy。 If
  he’s all you say he is; at least I can do as much for him then; as you
  have done。 But I don’t believe a word of it。’
  ‘Miss Trotwood;’ rejoined Mr。 Murdstone; shrugging his
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  shoulders; as he rose; ‘if you were a gentleman—’
  ‘Bah! Stuff and nonsense!’ said my aunt。 ‘Don’t talk to me!’
  ‘How exquisitely polite!’ exclaimed Miss Murdstone; rising。
  ‘Overpowering; really!’
  ‘Do you think I don’t know;’ said my aunt; turning a deaf ear to
  the sister; and continuing to address the brother; and to shake her
  head at him with infinite expression; ‘what kind of life you must
  have led that poor; unhappy; misdirected baby? Do you think I
  don’t know what a woeful day it was for the soft little creature
  when you first came in her way—smirking and making great eyes
  at her; I’ll be bound; as if you couldn’t say boh! to a goose!’
  ‘I never heard anything so elegant!’ said Miss Murdstone。
  ‘Do you think I can’t understand you as well as if I had seen
  you;’ pursued my aunt; ‘now that I do see and hear you—which; I
  tell you candidly; is anything but a pleasure to me? Oh yes; bless
  us! who so smooth and silky as Mr。 Murdstone at first! The poor;
  benighted innocent had never seen such a man。 He was made of
  sweetness。 He worshipped her。 He doted on her boy—tenderly
  doted on him! He was to be another father to him; and they were
  all to live together in a garden of roses; weren’t they? Ugh! Get
  along with you; do!’ said my aunt。
  ‘I never heard anything like this person in my life!’ exclaimed
  Miss Murdstone。
  ‘And when you had made sure of the poor little fool;’ said my
  aunt—‘God forgive me that I should call her so; and she gone
  where you won’t go in a hurry—because you had not done wrong
  enough to her and hers; you must begin to train her; must you?
  begin to break her; like a poor caged bird; and wear her deluded
  life away; in teaching her to sing your notes?’
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  ‘This is either insanity or intoxication;’ said Miss Murdstone; in
  a perfect agony at not being able to turn the current of my aunt’s
  address towards herself; ‘and my suspicion is that it’s intoxication。’
  Miss Betsey; without taking the least notice of the interruption;
  continued to address herself to Mr。 Murdstone as if there had been
  no such thing。
  ‘Mr。 Murdstone;’ she said; shaking her finger at him; ‘you were
  a tyrant to the simple baby; and you broke her heart。 She was a
  loving baby—I know that; I knew it years before you ever saw
  her—and through the best part of her weakness you gave her the
  wounds she died of。 There is the truth for your comfort; however
  you like it。 And you and your instruments may make the most of
  it。’
  ‘Allow me to inquire; Miss Trotwood;’ interposed Miss
  Murdstone; ‘whom you are pleased to call; in a choice of words in
  which I am not experienced; my brother’s instruments?’
  ‘It was clear enough; as I have told you; years before you ever
  saw her—and why; in the mysterious dispensations of Providence;
  you ever did see her; is more than humanity can comprehend—it
  was clear enough that the poor soft little thing would marry
  somebody; at some time or other; but I did hope it wouldn’t have
  been as bad as it has turned out。 That was the time; Mr。
  Murdstone; when she gave birth to her boy here;’ said my aunt; ‘to
  the poor child you sometimes tormented her through afterwards;
  which is a disagreeable remembrance and makes the sight of him
  odious now。 Aye; aye! you needn’t wince!’ said my aunt。 ‘I know
  it’s true without that。’
  He had stood by the door; all this while; observant of her with a
  smile upon his face; though his black eyebrows were heavily
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  contracted。 I remarked now; that; though the smile was on his face
  still; his colour had gone in a moment; and he seemed to breathe
  as if he had been running。
  ‘Good day; sir;’ said my aunt; ‘and good…bye! Good day to you;
  too; ma’am;’ said my aunt; turning suddenly upon his sister。 ‘Let
  me see you ride a donkey over my green again; and as sure as you
  have a head upon your shoulders; I’ll knock your bonnet off; and
  tread upon it!’
  It would require a painter; and no common painter too; to
  depict my aunt’s face as she delivered herself of this very
  unexpected sentiment; and Miss Murdstone’s face as she heard it。
  But the manner of the speech; no less than the matter; was so
  fiery; that Miss Murdstone; without a word in answer; discreetly
  put her arm through her brother’s; and walked haughtily out of
  the cottage; my aunt remaining in the window looking after them;
  prepared; I have no doubt; in case of the donkey’s reappearance;
  to carry her threat into instant execution。
  No attempt at defiance being made; however; her face gradually
  relaxed; and became so pleasant; that I was emboldened to kiss
  and thank her; which I did with great heartiness; and with both
  my arms clasped round her neck。 I then shook hands with Mr。
  Dick; who shook hands with me a great many times; and hailed
  this happy close of the proceedings with repeated bursts of
  laughter。
  ‘You’ll consider yourself guardian; jointly with me; of this child;
  Mr。 Dick;’ said my aunt。
  ‘I shall be delighted;’ said Mr。 Dick; ‘to be the guardian of
  David’s son。’
  ‘Very good;’ returned my aunt; ‘that’s settled。 I have been
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  thinking; do you know; Mr。 Dick; that I might call him Trotwood?’
  ‘Certainly; certainly。 Call him Trotwood; certainly;’ said Mr。
  Dick。 ‘David’s son’s Trotwood。’
  ‘Trotwood Copperfield; you mean;’ returned my aunt。
  ‘Yes; to be sure。 Yes。 Trotwood Copperfield;’ said Mr。 Dick; a
  little abashed。
  My aunt took so kindly to the notion; that some ready…made
  clothes; which were purchased for me that afternoon; were
  marked ‘Trotwood Copperfield’; in her own handwriting; and in
  indelible marking…ink; before I put them on; and it was settled that
  all the other clothes which were ordered to be made for me (a
  complete outfit was bespoke that afternoon) should be marked in
  the same way。
  Thus I began my new life; in a new name; and with everything
  new about me。 Now that the state of doubt was over; I felt; for
  many days; like one in a dream。 I never thought that I had a
  curious couple of guardians; in my aunt and Mr。 Dick。 I never
  thought of anything about myself; distinctly。 The two things
  clearest in my mind were; that a remoteness had come upon the
  old Blunderstone life—which seemed to lie in the haze of an
  immeasurable distance; and that a curtain had for ever fallen on
  my life at Murdstone and Grinby’s。 No one has ever raised that
  curtain since。 I have lifted it for a moment; even in this narrative;
  with a reluctant hand; and dropped it gladly。 The remembrance of
  that life is fraught with so much pain to me; with so much mental
  suffering and want of hope; that I have never had the courage
  even to examine how long I was doomed to lead it。 Whether it
  lasted for a year; or more; or less; I do not know。 I only know that
  it was; and ceased to be; and that I have written; and there I leave
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  it。
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  Chapter 15
  I MAKE ANOTHER BEGINNING
  Mr。 Dick and I soon became the best of friends; and very
  often; when his day’s work was done; went out together
  to fly the great kite。 Every day of his life he had a long
  sitting at the Memorial; which never made the least progress;
  however hard he laboured; for King Charles the First always
  strayed into it; sooner or later; and then it was thrown aside; and
  another one begun。 The patience and hope with which he bore
  these perpetual disappointments; the mild perception he had that
  there was something wrong about King Charles the First; the
  feeble efforts he made to keep him out; and the certainty with
  which he came in; and tumbled the Memorial out of all shape;
  made a deep impression on me。 What Mr。 Dick supposed would
  come of the Memorial; if it were completed; where he thought it
  was to go; or what he thought it was to do; he knew n