第 11 节
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  ‘I should like it very much。 We would all be gentlefolks
  together; then。 Me; and uncle; and Ham; and Mrs。 Gummidge。 We
  wouldn’t mind then; when there comes stormy weather。—Not for
  our own sakes; I mean。 We would for the poor fishermen’s; to be
  sure; and we’d help ’em with money when they come to any hurt。’
  This seemed to me to be a very satisfactory and therefore not at all
  improbable picture。 I expressed my pleasure in the contemplation
  of it; and little Em’ly was emboldened to say; shyly;
  ‘Don’t you think you are afraid of the sea; now?’
  It was quiet enough to reassure me; but I have no doubt if I had
  seen a moderately large wave come tumbling in; I should have
  taken to my heels; with an awful recollection of her drowned
  relations。 However; I said ‘No;’ and I added; ‘You don’t seem to be
  either; though you say you are;’—for she was walking much too
  near the brink of a sort of old jetty or wooden causeway we had
  strolled upon; and I was afraid of her falling over。
  ‘I’m not afraid in this way;’ said little Em’ly。 ‘But I wake when it
  blows; and tremble to think of Uncle Dan and Ham and believe I
  hear ’em crying out for help。 That’s why I should like so much to
  be a lady。 But I’m not afraid in this way。 Not a bit。 Look here!’
  She started from my side; and ran along a jagged timber which
  protruded from the place we stood upon; and overhung the deep
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  water at some height; without the least defence。 The incident is so
  impressed on my remembrance; that if I were a draughtsman I
  could draw its form here; I dare say; accurately as it was that day;
  and little Em’ly springing forward to her destruction (as it
  appeared to me); with a look that I have never forgotten; directed
  far out to sea。
  The light; bold; fluttering little figure turned and came back
  safe to me; and I soon laughed at my fears; and at the cry I had
  uttered; fruitlessly in any case; for there was no one near。 But
  there have been times since; in my manhood; many times there
  have been; when I have thought; Is it possible; among the
  possibilities of hidden things; that in the sudden rashness of the
  child and her wild look so far off; there was any merciful attraction
  of her into danger; any tempting her towards him permitted on the
  part of her dead father; that her life might have a chance of ending
  that day? There has been a time since when I have wondered
  whether; if the life before her could have been revealed to me at a
  glance; and so revealed as that a child could fully comprehend it;
  and if her preservation could have depended on a motion of my
  hand; I ought to have held it up to save her。 There has been a time
  since—I do not say it lasted long; but it has been—when I have
  asked myself the question; would it have been better for little
  Em’ly to have had the waters close above her head that morning in
  my sight; and when I have answered Yes; it would have been。
  This may be premature。 I have set it down too soon; perhaps。
  But let it stand。
  We strolled a long way; and loaded ourselves with things that
  we thought curious; and put some stranded starfish carefully back
  into the water—I hardly know enough of the race at this moment
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  to be quite certain whether they had reason to feel obliged to us
  for doing so; or the reverse—and then made our way home to Mr。
  Peggotty’s dwelling。 We stopped under the lee of the lobster…
  outhouse to exchange an innocent kiss; and went in to breakfast
  glowing with health and pleasure。
  ‘Like two young mavishes;’ Mr。 Peggotty said。 I knew this
  meant; in our local dialect; like two young thrushes; and received
  it as a compliment。
  Of course I was in love with little Em’ly。 I am sure I loved that
  baby quite as truly; quite as tenderly; with greater purity and more
  disinterestedness; than can enter into the best love of a later time
  of life; high and ennobling as it is。 I am sure my fancy raised up
  something round that blue…eyed mite of a child; which
  etherealized; and made a very angel of her。 If; any sunny forenoon;
  she had spread a little pair of wings and flown away before my
  eyes; I don’t think I should have regarded it as much more than I
  had had reason to expect。
  We used to walk about that dim old flat at Yarmouth in a loving
  manner; hours and hours。 The days sported by us; as if Time had
  not grown up himself yet; but were a child too; and always at play。
  I told Em’ly I adored her; and that unless she confessed she
  adored me I should be reduced to the necessity of killing myself
  with a sword。 She said she did; and I have no doubt she did。
  As to any sense of inequality; or youthfulness; or other difficulty
  in our way; little Em’ly and I had no such trouble; because we had
  no future。 We made no more provision for growing older; than we
  did for growing younger。 We were the admiration of Mrs。
  Gummidge and Peggotty; who used to whisper of an evening when
  we sat; lovingly; on our little locker side by side; ‘Lor! wasn’t it
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  beautiful!’ Mr。 Peggotty smiled at us from behind his pipe; and
  Ham grinned all the evening and did nothing else。 They had
  something of the sort of pleasure in us; I suppose; that they might
  have had in a pretty toy; or a pocket model of the Colosseum。
  I soon found out that Mrs。 Gummidge did not always make
  herself so agreeable as she might have been expected to do; under
  the circumstances of her residence with Mr。 Peggotty。 Mrs。
  Gummidge’s was rather a fretful disposition; and she whimpered
  more sometimes than was comfortable for other parties in so small
  an establishment。 I was very sorry for her; but there were
  moments when it would have been more agreeable; I thought; if
  Mrs。 Gummidge had had a convenient apartment of her own to
  retire to; and had stopped there until her spirits revived。
  Mr。 Peggotty went occasionally to a public…house called The
  Willing Mind。 I discovered this; by his being out on the second or
  third evening of our visit; and by Mrs。 Gummidge’s looking up at
  the Dutch clock; between eight and nine; and saying he was there;
  and that; what was more; she had known in the morning he would
  go there。
  Mrs。 Gummidge had been in a low state all day; and had burst
  into tears in the forenoon; when the fire smoked。 ‘I am a lone lorn
  creetur’;’ were Mrs。 Gummidge’s words; when that unpleasant
  occurrence took place; ‘and everythink goes contrary with me。’
  ‘Oh; it’ll soon leave off;’ said Peggotty—I again mean our
  Peggotty—‘and besides; you know; it’s not more disagreeable to
  you than to us。’
  ‘I feel it more;’ said Mrs。 Gummidge。
  It was a very cold day; with cutting blasts of wind。 Mrs。
  Gummidge’s peculiar corner of the fireside seemed to me to be the
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  warmest and snuggest in the place; as her chair was certainly the
  easiest; but it didn’t suit her that day at all。 She was constantly
  complaining of the cold; and of its occasioning a visitation in her
  back which she called ‘the creeps’。 At last she shed tears on that
  subject; and said again that she was ‘a lone lorn creetur’ and
  everythink went contrary with her’。
  ‘It is certainly very cold;’ said Peggotty。 ‘Everybody must feel it
  so。’
  ‘I feel it more than other people;’ said Mrs。 Gummidge。
  So at dinner; when Mrs。 Gummidge was always helped
  immediately after me; to whom the preference was given as a
  visitor of distinction。 The fish were small and bony; and the
  potatoes were a little burnt。 We all acknowledged that we felt this
  something of a disappointment; but Mrs。 Gummidge said she felt it
  more than we did; and shed tears again; and made that former
  declaration with great bitterness。
  Accordingly; when Mr。 Peggotty came home about nine o’clock;
  this unfortunate Mrs。 Gummidge was knitting in her corner; in a
  very wretched and miserable condition。 Peggotty had been
  working cheerfully。 Ham had been patching up a great pair of
  waterboots; and I; with little Em’ly by my side; had been reading
  to them。 Mrs。 Gummidge had never made any other remark than a
  forlorn sigh; and had never raised her eyes since tea。
  ‘Well; Mates;’ said Mr。 Peggotty; taking his seat; ‘and how are
  you?’
  We all said something; or looked something; to welcome him;
  except Mrs。 Gummidge; who only shook her head over her
  knitting。
  ‘What’s amiss?’ said Mr。 Peggotty; with a clap of his hands。
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  ‘Cheer up; old Mawther!’ (Mr。 Peggotty meant old girl。)
  Mrs。 Gummidge did not appear to be able to cheer up。 She took
  out an old black silk handkerchief and wiped her eyes; but instead
  of putting it in her pocket; kept it out; and wiped them again; and
  still kept it out; ready for use。
  ‘What’s amiss; dame?’ said Mr。 Peggotty。
  ‘Nothing;’ returned Mrs。 Gummidge。 ‘You’ve come from The
  Willing Mi