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作者:冬恋      更新:2021-04-30 17:00      字数:9322
  her own was bound up so closely; but rather away from them。                      She had
  been taught to despise them because they were not so white as she was;
  and had been slaves while she was free。              Her life in her brother's home;
  by   removing   her   from   immediate   contact   with   them;   had   given   her   a
  different   point   of   view;one   which   emphasized   their   shortcomings;   and
  thereby made vastly clearer to her the gulf that separated them from the
  new   world   in   which   she   lived;   so   that   when   misfortune   threw   her   back
  upon them; the reaction brought her nearer than before。                Where once she
  had   seemed   able   to   escape   from   them;   they   were   now;   it   appeared;   her
  inalienable   race。     Thus   doubly  equipped;   she   was   able   to   view   them   at
  once with the mental eye of an outsider and the sympathy of a sister: she
  could     see   their   faults;   and   judge    them    charitably;     she   knew     and
  appreciated   their     good   qualities。   With     her   quickened    intelligence    she
  could perceive how great was their need and how small their opportunity;
  and with this illumination came the desire to contribute to their help。               She
  had   not   the   breadth   or   culture   to   see   in   all   its   ramifications   the   great
  problem      which    still  puzzles   statesmen    and   philosophers;     but  she   was
  conscious of the wish; and of the power; in a small way; to do something
  for the advancement of those who had just set their feet upon the ladder of
  progress。
  This new…born desire to be of service to her rediscovered people was
  not long without an opportunity for expression。              Yet the Fates willed that
  her future should be but another link in a connected chain: she was to be
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  as powerless to put aside her recent past as she had been to escape from
  the influence of her earlier life。        There are sordid souls that eat and drink
  and breed and die; and imagine they have lived。               But Rena's life since her
  great awakening had been that of the emotions; and her temperament made
  of it a continuous life。       Her successive states of consciousness were not
  detachable; but united to form a single if not an entirely harmonious whole。
  To her sensitive spirit to…day was born of yesterday; to…morrow would be
  but the offspring of to day。
  One day; along toward noon; her mother received a visit from Mary B。
  Pettifoot; a second cousin; who lived on Back Street; only a short distance
  from the house behind the cedars。            Rena had gone out; so that the visitor
  found Mis' Molly alone。
  〃I   heared   you   say;   Cousin   Molly;〃   said   Mary   B。   (no   one   ever   knew
  what the B。 in Mary's name stood for;it was a mere ornamental flourish);
  〃that Rena was talkin' 'bout teachin' school。             I've got a good chance fer
  her;   ef   she   keers   ter   take   it。 My   cousin   Jeff   Wain   'rived   in   town   this
  mo'nin'; f'm 'way down in Sampson County; ter git a teacher fer the nigger
  school in his deestric'。      I s'pose he mought 'a' got one f'm 'roun' Newbern;
  er Goldsboro; er some er them places eas'; but he 'lowed he'd like to visit
  some er his kin an' ole frien's; an' so kill two birds with one stone。〃
  〃I   seed   a   strange   mulatter   man;   with   a   bay   hoss   an'   a   new   buggy;
  drivin' by here this mo'nin' early; from down to'ds the river;〃 rejoined Mis'
  Molly。     〃I wonder if that wuz him?〃
  〃Did he have on a linen duster?〃 asked Mary B。
  〃Yas; an' 'peared to be a very well sot up man;〃 replied Mis' Molly; 〃
  'bout thirty…five years old; I should reckon。〃
  〃That wuz him;〃 assented Mary B。               〃He's got a fine hoss an' buggy;
  an' a gol' watch an' chain; an' a big plantation; an' lots er hosses an' mules
  an' cows an' hawgs。         He raise' fifty bales er cotton las' year; an' he's be'n
  ter the legislatur'。〃
  〃   My    gracious!〃    exclaimed      Mis'   Molly;    struck   with   awe    at  this
  catalogue of the stranger's possessions he was evidently worth more than
  a great many 〃rich〃 white people;all white people in North Carolina in
  those days were either 〃rich〃 or 〃poor;〃 the distinction being one of caste
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  rather than of wealth。        〃Is he married?〃 she inquired with interest?
  〃No;single。       You   mought   'low   it   was   quare   that   he   should   n'   be
  married at his age; but he was crossed in love oncet;〃Mary B。 heaved a
  self…conscious   sigh;〃an'   has   stayed   single   ever   sence。        That   wuz   ten
  years ago; but as some husban's is long…lived; an' there ain' no mo' chance
  fer 'im now   than there wuz   then; I reckon some nice gal   mought stan' a
  good show er ketchin' 'im; ef she'd play her kyards right。〃
  To   Mis'   Molly   this   was   news   of   considerable   importance。       She   had
  not thought a great deal of Rena's plan to teach; she considered it lowering
  for Rena; after having been white; to go among the negroes any more than
  was     unavoidable。      This    opportunity;     however;     meant    more    than   mere
  employment for her daughter。            She had felt Rena's disappointment keenly;
  from the practical point of view; and; blaming herself for it; held herself all
  the more bound to retrieve the misfortune in any possible way。                   If she had
  not been sick;  Rena   would not have dreamed   the   fateful dream  that had
  brought her   to   Patesville;   for the   connection between   the  vision   and   the
  reality was even closer in Mis' Molly's eyes than in Rena's。                 If the mother
  had not sent the letter announcing her illness and confirming the dream;
  Rena would not have ruined her promising future by coming to Patesville。
  But the harm had been done; and she was responsible; ignorantly of course;
  but none the less truly; and it only remained for her to make amends; as far
  as possible。      Her highest ambition; since Rena had grown up; had been to
  see   her   married   and   comfortably   settled   in   life。   She   had   no   hope   that
  Tryon   would   come   back。        Rena   had   declared   that   she   would   make   no
  further   effort   to   get   away   from   her   people;   and;   furthermore;   that   she
  would never marry。          To this latter statement Mis' Molly secretly attached
  but little importance。        That a woman should go single from the cradle to
  the   grave   did   not   accord   with   her   experience   in   life   of   the   customs   of
  North Carolina。        She respected a grief she could not entirely fathom; yet
  did not for a moment believe that Rena would remain unmarried。
  〃You'd better fetch him roun' to see me; Ma'y B。;〃 she said; 〃an' let's
  see   what he   looks   like。    I'm  pertic'lar   'bout   my  gal。    She   says   she   ain't
  goin' to marry nobody; but of co'se we know that's all foolishness。〃
  〃I'll fetch him roun' this evenin' 'bout three o'clock;〃 said the  visitor;
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  rising。    〃I mus' hurry back now an' keep him comp'ny。               Tell Rena ter put
  on her bes' bib an' tucker; for Mr。 Wain is pertic'lar too; an' I've already
  be'n braggin' 'bout her looks。〃
  When Mary B。; at the appointed hour; knocked at Mis' Molly's front
  door;the visit being one of ceremony; she had taken her cousin round to
  the Front Street entrance and through the flower garden;Mis' Molly was
  prepared to receive them。         After a decent interval; long enough to suggest
  that   she   had   not   been   watching   their   approach   and   was   not   over…eager
  about the visit; she answered the knock and admitted them into the parlor。
  Mr。   Wain   was   formally   introduced;   and   seated   himself   on   the   ancient
  haircloth sofa; under the framed fashion…plate; while Mary B。 sat by  the
  open door and fanned herself with a palm…leaf fan。
  Mis' Molly's impression of Wain was favorable。               His complexion was
  of a light brownnot quite so fair as Mis' Molly would have preferred; but
  any  deficiency   in   this   regard;   or   in   the   matter   of   the   stranger's   features;
  which; while not unpleasing;  leaned toward the broad   mulatto type;  was
  more   than   compensated   in   her   eyes   by   very   straight   black   hair;   and;   as
  soon     appeared;     a  great   facility   of  complimentary        speech