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作者:冬恋      更新:2021-04-30 16:59      字数:9319
  remained unrevealed; and her doubt was still unsatisfied。
  Rena was occupied with this thought when her lover next came to see
  her。    Tryon came up the sanded walk from the gate and spoke pleasantly
  to the nurse; a good…looking yellow girl who was seated on the front steps;
  playing with little Albert。        He took the boy from her arms; and she went
  to call Miss Warwick。
  Rena came out; followed by the nurse; who offered to take the child。
  〃Never mind; Mimy; leave him with me;〃 said Tryon。
  The   nurse   walked   discreetly   over   into   the   garden;   remaining   within
  call; but beyond the hearing of conversation in an ordinary tone。
  〃Rena; darling;〃 said her lover; 〃when shall it be?               Surely you won't
  ask me to wait a week。         Why; that's a lifetime!〃
  Rena was struck by a brilliant idea。           She would test her lover。         Love
  was a very powerful force; she had found it the greatest; grandest; sweetest
  thing in the world。       Tryon had said that he loved her; he had said scarcely
  anything else for several weeks; surely nothing else worth remembering。
  She would test his love by a hypothetical question。
  〃You     say   you   love    me;〃   she   said;   glancing    at   him   with    a  sad
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  thoughtfulness in her large dark eyes。          〃How much do you love me?〃
  〃I   love   you   all one  can  love。  True   love  has  no degrees; it   is   all or
  nothing!〃
  〃Would you love me;〃 she asked; with an air of coquetry that masked
  her concern; pointing toward the girl in the shrubbery; 〃if I were Albert's
  nurse yonder?〃
  〃If   you   were   Albert's   nurse;〃   he   replied;   with   a   joyous   laugh;   〃he
  would have to find another within a week; for within a week we should be
  married。〃
  The answer seemed to fit the question; but in fact; Tryon's mind and
  Rena's did not   meet。       That   two intelligent   persons should   each attach a
  different meaning to so simple a form of words as Rena's question was the
  best   ground   for   her   misgiving   with   regard   to   the   marriage。   But   love
  blinded     her。  She    was   anxious    to  be  convinced。      She    interpreted   the
  meaning of his speech by her own thought and by the ardor of his glance;
  and was satisfied with the answer。
  〃And now; darling;〃 pleaded Tryon; 〃will you not fix the day that shall
  make me happy?          I shall be ready to go away in three weeks。            Will you
  go with me?〃
  〃Yes;〃 she answered; in a tumult of joy。          She would never need to tell
  him her secret now。        It would make no difference with him; so far as she
  was concerned; and she had no right to reveal her brother's secret。                  She
  was willing to bury the past in forgetfulness; now that she knew it would
  have no interest for her lover。
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  X
  THE DREAM
  The   marriage   was   fixed   for   the   thirtieth   of   the   month;   immediately
  after   which    Tryon    and   his  bride   were   to  set  out  for  North    Carolina。
  Warwick would have liked it much if Tryon had lived in South Carolina;
  but   the  location   of   his   North   Carolina   home   was   at   some   distance   from
  Patesville; with which it had no connection by steam or rail; and indeed
  lay   altogether    out   of  the  line  of   travel  to  Patesville。    Rena     had   no
  acquaintance with people of social standing in North Carolina; and   with
  the added maturity and charm due to her improved opportunities; it   was
  unlikely  that   any  former   resident   of   Patesville   who   might   casually   meet
  her would see in the elegant young matron from South Carolina more than
  a passing resemblance to a poor girl who had once lived in an obscure part
  of the old town。       It would of course be necessary for Rena to keep away
  from Patesville; save for her mother's sake; she would hardly be tempted
  to go back。
  On   the   twentieth   of   the   month;   Warwick   set   out   with   Tryon   for   the
  county seat of the adjoining county; to try one of the lawsuits which had
  required   Tryon's   presence   in   South   Carolina   for   so   long   a   time。 Their
  destination was a day's drive from Clarence; behind a good horse; and the
  trial was expected to last a week。
  〃This   week   will   seem   like   a   year;〃   said   Tryon   ruefully;   the   evening
  before their departure; 〃but I'll write every day; and shall expect a letter as
  often。〃
  〃The mail goes only twice a week; George;〃 replied Rena。
  〃Then I shall have three letters in each mail。〃
  Warwick and Tryon were to set out in the cool of the morning; after an
  early breakfast。      Rena was up at daybreak that she might preside at   the
  breakfast…table and bid the travelers good…by。
  〃John;〃 said Rena to her brother in the morning; 〃I dreamed last night
  that   mother     was   ill。〃           〃Dreams;      you    know;    Rena;〃   answered
  Warwick lightly; 〃go by contraries。           Yours undoubtedly signifies that our
  mother; God bless her simple soul! is at the present moment enjoying her
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  usual perfect health。       She was never sick in her life。〃
  For a few months after leaving Patesville with her brother; Rena had
  suffered tortures of homesickness; those who have felt it know the pang。
  The severance of old ties had been abrupt and complete。                      At the school
  where   her   brother   had   taken   her;   there   had   been   nothing   to   relieve   the
  strangeness   of   her   surroundingsno   schoolmate   from   her   own   town;   no
  relative or friend of the family near by。           Even the compensation of human
  sympathy was in a measure denied her; for Rena was too fresh from her
  prison…house   to   doubt   that   sympathy   would   fail   before   the   revelation   of
  the   secret   the   consciousness   of   which   oppressed   her   at   that   time   like   a
  nightmare。       It was not strange that Rena; thus isolated; should have been
  prostrated   by   homesickness   for        several   weeks   after   leaving     Patesville。
  When      the   paroxysm      had    passed;    there   followed     a  dull   pain;   which
  gradually subsided into a resignation as profound; in its way; as had been
  her longing for home。          She loved; she suffered; with a quiet intensity of
  which her outward demeanor gave no adequate expression。                        From some
  ancestral source she had derived a strain of the passive fatalism by which
  alone   one   can   submit   uncomplainingly   to   the   inevitable。        By   the   same
  token; when once a thing had been decided; it became with her a finality;
  which only some extraordinary stress of emotion could disturb。                      She had
  acquiesced   in   her   brother's   plan;   for   her   there   was   no   withdrawing;   her
  homesickness was an incidental thing which must be endured; as patiently
  as might be; until time should have brought a measure of relief。
  Warwick had made provision for an occasional letter from Patesville;
  by leaving with his mother a number of envelopes directed to his address。
  She   could   have her   letters   written;   inclose   them  in   these   envelopes;   and
  deposit   them  in   the   post… office   with her own hand。           Thus the place of
  Warwick's   residence   would   remain   within   her   own   knowledge;   and   his
  secret would not be placed at the mercy of any wandering Patesvillian who
  might perchance go to that part of South Carolina。                 By this simple means
  Rena     had   kept   as   closely   in  touch    with   her   mother    as  Warwick      had
  considered   prudent;   any   closer   intercourse   was   not   consistent   with   their
  present station in life。
  The   night   after Warwick   and Tryon   had   ridden   away;   Rena   dreamed
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  again that her mother was ill。           Better taught people than she; in regions
  more enlightened than the South Carolina of that epoch; are disturbed at
  times by dreams。         Mis' Molly had a profound faith in them。               If God; in
  ancient times; had spoken to men in visions of the night; what easier way
  could   there   be   for