第 8 节
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一米八 更新:2021-04-30 16:59 字数:9321
I could not conceive what he meant; and so I said; and then he swore at me for a liar; and said I was of no true blood; for he had seen me doing all that mischief himselfwith his own eyes。 What could I say? He would not listen to me; and even my tears seemed only to irritate him。 That day was the beginning of my great sorrows。 Not long after; he reproached me for my undue familiarityall unbecoming a gentlewomanwith his grooms。 I had been in the stable…yard; laughing and talking; he said。 Now; sir; I am something of a coward by nature; and I had always dreaded horses; be…sides that; my father's servantsthose whom he brought with him from foreign parts… …were wild fellows; whom I had always avoided; and to whom I had never spoken; except as a lady must needs from time to time speak to her father's people。 Yet my father called me by names of which I hardly know the meaning; but my heart told me they were such as shame any modest woman; and from that day he turned quite against me;nay; sir; not many weeks after that; he came in with a riding…whip in his hand; and; accusing me harshly of evil doings; of which I knew no more than you; sir; he was about to strike me; and I; all in bewildering tears; was ready to take his stripes as great kindness compared to his harder words; when suddenly he stopped his arm mid… way; gasped and staggered; crying out; 'The cursethe curse!' I looked up in terror。 In the great mirror opposite I saw myself; and right behind; another wicked; fearful self; so like me that my soul seemed to quiver within me; as though not knowing to which similitude of body it belonged。 My father saw my double at the same moment; either in its dreadful reality; whatever that might be; or in the scarcely less terrible reflection in the mirror; but what came of it at that moment I cannot say; for I suddenly swooned away; and when I came to myself I was lying in my bed; and my faithful Clarke sitting by me。 I was in my bed for days; and even while I lay there my double was seen by all; flitting about the house and gardens; always about some mischievous or detestable work。 What wonder that every one shrank from me in dreadthat my father drove me forth at length; when the disgrace of which I was the cause was past his patience to bear。 Mistress Clarke came with me; and here we try to live such a life of piety and prayer as may in time set me free from the curse。〃
All the time she had been speaking; I had been weighing her story in my mind。 I had hitherto put cases of witchcraft on one side; as mere superstitions; and my uncle and I had had many an argument; he supporting himself by the opinion of his good friend Sir Matthew Hale。 Yet this sounded like the tale of one bewitched; or was it merely the effect of a life of extreme seclusion telling on the nerves of a sensitive girl? My scepticism inclined me to the latter belief; and when she paused I said:
〃I fancy that some physician could have disabused your father of his belief in visions〃
Just at that instant; standing as I was opposite to her in the full and perfect morning light; I saw behind her another figurea ghastly resemblance; complete in likeness; so far as form and feature and minutest touch of dress could go; but with a loathsome demon soul looking out of the gray eyes; that were in turns mocking and voluptuous。 My heart stood still within me; every hair rose up erect; my flesh crept with horror。 I could not see the grave and tender Lucymy eyes were fascinated by the creature beyond。 I know not why; but I put out my hand to clutch it; I grasped nothing but empty air; and my whole blood curdled to ice。 For a moment I could not see; then my sight came back; and I saw Lucy standing before me; alone; deathly pale; and; I could have fancied; almost; shrunk in size。
〃IT has been near me?〃 she said; as if asking a question。
The sound seemed taken out of her voice; it was husky as the notes on an old harpsichord when the strings have ceased to vibrate。 She read her answer in my face; I suppose; for I could not speak。 Her look was one of intense fear; but that died away into an aspect of most humble patience。 At length she seemed to force herself to face behind and around her: she saw the purple moors; the blue distant hills; quivering in the sunlight; but nothing else。
〃Will you take me home?〃 she said; meekly。
I took her by the hand; and led her silently through the budding heatherwe dared not speak; for we could not tell but that the dread creature was listening; although unseen;but that IT might appear and push us asunder。 I never loved her more fondly than now when and that was the unspeakable miserythe idea of her was becoming so inextricably blended with the shuddering thought of IT。 She seemed to understand what I must be feeling。 She let go my hand; which she had kept clasped until then; when we reached the garden gate; and went forwards to meet her anxious friend; who was standing by the window looking for her。 I could not enter the house: I needed silence; society; leisure; changeI knew not whatto shake off the sensation of that creature's presence。 Yet I lingered about the gardenI hardly know why; I partly suppose; because I feared to encounter the resemblance again on the solitary common; where it had vanished; and partly from a feeling of inexpressible compassion for Lucy。 In a few minutes Mistress Clarke came forth and joined me。 We walked some paces in silence。
〃You know all now;〃 said she; solemnly。
〃I saw IT;〃 said I; below my breath。
〃And you shrink from us; now;〃 she said; with a hopelessness which stirred up all that was brave or good in me。
〃Not a whit;〃 said I。 〃Human flesh shrinks from encounter with the powers of darkness: and; for some reason unknown to me; the pure and holy Lucy is their victim。〃
〃The sins of the fathers shall be visited upon the children;〃 she said。
〃Who is her father?〃 asked I。 〃Knowing as much as I do; I may surely know moreknow all。 Tell me; I entreat you; madam; all that you can conjecture respecting this demoniac persecution of one so good。〃
〃I will; but not now。 I must go to Lucy now。 Come this afternoon; I will see you alone; and oh; sir! I will trust that you may yet find some way to help us in our sore trouble!〃
I was miserably exhausted by the swooning affright which had taken possession of me。 When I reached the inn; I staggered in like one overcome by wine。 I went to my own private room。 It was some time before I saw that the weekly post had come in; and brought me my letters。 There was one from my uncle; one from my home in Devonshire; and one; re…directed over the first address; sealed with a great coat of arms; It was from Sir Philip Tempest: my letter of inquiry respecting Mary Fitzgerald had reached him at Liege; where it so happened that the Count de la Tour d'Auvergne was quartered at the very time。 He remembered his wife's beautiful attendant; she had had high words with the deceased countess; respecting her intercourse with an English gentleman of good standing; who was also in the foreign service。 The countess augured evil of his intentions; while Mary; proud and vehement; asserted that he would soon marry her; and resented her mistress's warnings as an insult。 The consequence was; that she had left Madame de la Tour d'Auvergne's service; and; as the Count believed; had gone to live with the Englishman; whether he had married her; or not; he could not say。 〃But;〃 added Sir Philip Tempest; you may easily hear what particulars you wish to know respecting Mary Fitzgerald from the Englishman himself; if; as I suspect; he is no other than my neighbour and former acquaintance; Mr。 Gisborne; of Skipford Hall; in the West Riding。 I am led to the belief that he is no other; by several small particulars; none of which are in themselves conclusive; but which; taken together; furnish a mass of presumptive evidence。 As far as I could make out from the Count's foreign pronunciation; Gisborne was the name of the Englishman: I know that Gisborne of Skipford was abroad and in the foreign service at that timehe was a likely fellow enough for such an exploit; and; above all; certain expressions recur to my mind which he used in reference to old Bridget Fitzgerald; of Coldholme; whom he once encountered while staying with me at Starkey Manor… house。 I remember that the meeting seemed to have produced some extraordinary effect upon his mind; as though he had suddenly discovered some connection which she might have had with his previous life。 I beg you to let me know if I can be of any further service to you。 Your uncle once rendered me a good turn; and I will gladly repay it; so far as in me lies; to his nephew。〃
I was now apparently close on the discovery which I had striven so many months to attain。 But success had lost its zest。 I put my letters down; and seemed to forget them all in thinking of the morning I had passed that very day。 Nothing was real but the unreal presence; which had come like an evil blast across my bodily eyes; and burnt itself down upon my brain。 Dinner came; and went away untouched。 Early in the afternoon I walked to the farm…house。 I found Mistress Clarke alone; and I was glad and relieved。 She was evidently