第 51 节
作者:车水马龙01      更新:2021-03-11 18:32      字数:9322
  ke up a human being。  The marriage of Mme。 Roland led her into a world that had little color save what she brought into it。  Her husband did not smile upon her friends。  Sympathy other than that of the intellect she does not seem to have had。  But her story is best told in her own words; written in the last days of her life。
  〃In considering only the happiness of my partner; I soon perceived that something was wanting to my own。  I had never; for a single instant; ceased to see in my husband one of the most estimable of men; to whom I felt it an honor to belong; but I have often realized that there was a lack of equality between us; that the ascendency of an overbearing character; added to that of twenty years more of age; gave him too much superiority。  If we lived in solitude; I had many painful hours to pass; if we went into the world; I was loved by men of whom I saw that some might touch me too deeply。  I plunged into work with my husband; another excess which had its inconvenience; I gave him the habit of not knowing how to do without me for anything in the world; nor at any moment。
  〃I honor; I cherish my husband; as a sensible daughter adores a virtuous father to whom she would sacrifice even her lover; but I have found the man who might have been that lover; and remaining faithful to my duties; my frankness has not known how to conceal the feelings which I subjected to them。  My husband; excessively sensitive both in his affections and his self…love; could not support the idea of the least change in his influence; his imagination darkened; his jealousy irritated me; happiness fled; he adored me; I sacrificed myself for him; and we were miserable。
  〃If I were free; I would follow him everywhere to soften his griefs and console his old age; a soul like mine leaves no sacrifices imperfect。  But Roland was embittered by the thought of sacrifice; and the knowledge once acquired that I mad made one ruined his happiness; he suffered in accepting it; and could not do without it。〃
  The sequel to this tale is told in allusions and half revelations; in her letters to Buzot; which glow with suppressed feeling; in her touching farewell to one whom she dared not to name; but whom she hoped to meet where it would not be a crime to love; in those final words of her 〃Last Thoughts〃〃Adieu。 。 。 。  No; it is from thee alone that I do not separate; to leave the earth is to approach each other。〃
  Beneath this semi…transparent veil the heart…drama of her life is hidden。
  For the sake of those who would be pained by this story; as well as for her own; we would rather it had never been told。  We should like to believe that the woman who worked so nobly with and for the man who died by his own hand five days after her death; because he could stay no longer in a world where such crimes were possible; had lived in the full perfection of domestic sympathy。  But; if she carried with her an incurable wound; one cannot help regretting that her Spartan courage had not led her to wear the mantle of silence to the end。  Posterity is curious rather than sympathetic; and the world is neither wiser nor better for these needless soul…revelations。  There is always a certain malady of egotism behind them。  But it is often easier to scale the heights of human heroism than to still the cry of a bruised spirit。  Mme。 Roland had moments of falling short of her own ideals; and this was one of them。  Pure; loyal; self…sustained as she was; her strong sense of verity did not permit the veil which would have best served the interests of the larger truth。  It is fair to say that she thought the malicious gossip of her enemies rendered this statement necessary to the protection of her fame。  Perhaps; after all; she shows here her most human and lovable if not her strongest side。  We should like Minerva better if she were not so faultlessly wise。
  The outbreak of the Revolution found Mme。 Roland at La Platiere; where she shared her husband's philosophic and economic studies; brought peace into a discordant family; attended to her household duties and the training of her child; devoted many hours to generous care for the sick and poor; and reserved a little leisure for poetry and the solitary rambles she loved so well。  The first martial note struck a responsive chord in her heart。  Her opportunity had come。  Embittered by class distinctions over which she had long brooded; saturated with the sentiments of Rousseau; and full of untried theories constructed in the closet; with small knowledge of the wide and complex interests with which it was necessary to deal; she centered all the hitherto latent energies of her forceful nature upon the quixotic effort to redress human wrongs。  Her birth; her intellect; her character; her temperament; her education; her associationsall led her towards the role she played so heroically。  She had a keen appreciation for genuine values; but none whatever for factitious ones。  Her inborn hatred of artificial distinctions had grown with her years and colored all her estimates of men and things。  When she came to Paris; she noted with a sort of indignation the superior poise and courtesy of the men in the assembly who had been reared in the habit of power。  It added fuel to her enmity towards institutions in which reason; knowledge; and integrity paid homage to fine language and distinguished manners。  She found even Vergniaud too refined and fastidious in his dress for a successful republican leader。  Her old contempt for a 〃philosopher with a feather〃 had in no wise abated。  With such principles ingrained and fostered; it is not difficult to forecast the part Mme。 Roland was destined to play in the coming conflict of classes。  Whatever we may think of the wisdom of her attitude towards the Revolution; she represented at least its most sincere side。  As she stood white…robed and courageous at the foot of the scaffold; facing the savage populace she had laid down her life to befriend; perhaps her perspectives were truer。  Experience had given her an insight into the characters of men which is not to be gained in the library; nor in the worship of dead heroes。  If it had not shaken her faith in human perfectibility; it had taught her at least the value of tradition in chaining brutal human passions。
  The tragical fate of Mme。 Roland has thrown a strong light upon the modest little salon in which the unfortunate Girondists met four times a week to discuss the grave problems that confronted them。  A salon in the old sense it certainly was not。  It had little in common with the famous centers of conversation and esprit。  It was simply the rallying point of a party。  The only woman present was Mme。 Roland herself; but at first she assumed no active leadership。  She sat at a little table outside of the circle; working with her needle; or writing letters; alive to everything that was said; venturing sometimes a word of counsel or a thoughtful suggestion; and often biting her lips to repress some criticism that she feared might not be within her province。  She had left her quiet home in the country fired with a single thoughtthe regeneration of France。  The men who gathered about her were in full accord with her generous aims。  It was not to such enthusiasms that the old salons lost themselves。  They had been often the centers of political intrigues; as in the days of the Fronde; or of religious partisanship; as during the troubles of Port Royal; they had ranged themselves for and against rival candidates for literary or artistic honors; but they had preserved; on the whole; a certain cosmopolitan character。  All shades of opinion were represented; and social brilliancy was the end sought; not the triumph of special ideas。  It is indeed true that earnest convictions were; to some extent; stifled in the salons; where charm and intelligence counted for so much; and the sterling qualities of character for so little。  But the etiquette; the urbanity; the measure; which assured the outward harmony of a society that courted distinction of every kind; were quite foreign to the iconoclasts who were bent upon leveling all distinctions。  The Revolution which attacked the whole superstructure of society; was antagonistic to its minor forms as well; and it was the revolutionary party alone which was represented in the salon of Mme。 Roland。 Brissot; Vergniaud; Petion; Guadet; and Buzot were leaders theremen sincere and ardent; though misguided; and unable to cope with the storm they had raised; to be themselves swept away by its pitiless rage。  Robespierre; scheming and ambitious; came there; listened; said little; appropriated for his own ends; and bided his time。  Mme。 Roland had small taste for the light play of intellect and wit that has no outcome beyond the meteoric display of the moment; and she was impatient with the talk in which an evening was often passed among these men without any definite results。  As she measured their strength; she became more outspoken。  She communicated to them a spark of her own energy。  The most daring moves were made at her bidding。  She urged on her timid and conservative husband; she drew up his memorials; she wrote his letters; she was at once his stimulus; and his helper。 Weak and vacillating men yielded to her rapid