第 5 节
作者:雨帆      更新:2021-03-11 17:59      字数:9293
  stale candy or champagne since yesterday。〃
  She drew a letter with a foreign postmark from between
  the leaves of a book and held it out; smiling。  〃You got him to
  write it。  Don't say you didn't; for it came direct; you see; and
  the last address I gave him was a place in Florida。  This deed
  shall be remembered of you when I am with the just in Paradise。
  But one thing you did not ask him to do; for you didn't know about
  it。  He has sent me his latest work; the new sonata; the most
  ambitious thing he has ever done; and you are to play it for me
  directly; though it looks horribly intricate。  But first for the
  letter; I think you would better read it aloud to me。〃
  Everett sat down in a low chair facing the window seat in
  which she reclined with a barricade of pillows behind her。  He
  opened the letter; his lashes half…veiling his kind eyes; and saw
  to his satisfaction that it was a long onewonderfully tactful
  and tender; even for Adriance; who was tender with his valet and
  his stable boy; with his old gondolier and the beggar…women who
  prayed to the saints for him。
  The letter was from Granada; written in the Alhambra; as he
  sat by the fountain of the Patio di Lindaraxa。  The air was
  heavy; with the warm fragrance of the South and full of the sound
  of splashing; running water; as it had been in a certain old
  garden in Florence; long ago。  The sky was one great turquoise;
  heated until it glowed。  The wonderful Moorish arches threw
  graceful blue shadows all about him。  He had sketched an outline
  of them on the margin of his notepaper。  The subtleties of Arabic
  decoration had cast an unholy spell over him; and the brutal
  exaggerations of Gothic art were a bad dream; easily forgotten。
  The Alhambra itself had; from the first; seemed perfectly
  familiar to him; and he knew that he must have trod that court;
  sleek and brown and obsequious; centuries before Ferdinand rode
  into Andalusia。  The letter was full of confidences about his
  work; and delicate allusions to their old happy days of study and
  comradeship; and of her own work; still so warmly remembered and
  appreciatively discussed everywhere he went。
  As Everett folded the letter he felt that Adriance had
  divined the thing needed and had risen to it in his own wonderful
  way。  The letter was consistently egotistical and seemed to him
  even a trifle patronizing; yet it was just what she had
  wanted。  A strong realization of his brother's charm and intensity
  and power came over him; he felt the breath of that whirlwind of
  flame in which Adriance passed; consuming all in his path; and
  himself even more resolutely than he consumed others。  Then he
  looked down at this white; burnt…out brand that lay before him。
  〃Like him; isn't it?〃 she said; quietly。
  〃I think I can scarcely answer his letter; but when you see
  him next you can do that for me。  I want you to tell him many
  things for me; yet they can all be summed up in this: I want him
  to grow wholly into his best and greatest self; even at the cost
  of the dear boyishness that is half his charm to you and me。  Do
  you understand me?〃
  〃I know perfectly well what you mean;〃 answered Everett;
  thoughtfully。  〃I have often felt so about him myself。  And yet
  it's difficult to prescribe for those fellows; so little makes;
  so little mars。〃
  Katharine raised herself upon her elbow; and her face
  flushed with feverish earnestness。  〃Ah; but it is the waste of
  himself that I mean; his lashing himself out on stupid and
  uncomprehending people until they take him at their own estimate。
  He can kindle marble; strike fire from putty; but is it worth
  what it costs him?〃
  〃Come; come;〃 expostulated Everett; alarmed at her excitement。
  〃Where is the new sonata?  Let him speak for himself。〃
  He sat down at the piano and began playing the first
  movement; which was indeed the voice of Adriance; his proper
  speech。  The sonata was the most ambitious work he had done up to
  that time and marked the transition from his purely lyric vein to
  a deeper and nobler style。  Everett played intelligently and with
  that sympathetic comprehension which seems peculiar to a certain
  lovable class of men who never accomplish anything in particular。
  When he had finished he turned to Katharine。
  〃How he has grown!〃 she cried。  〃What the three last years have
  done for him!  He used to write only the tragedies of passion; but
  this is the tragedy of the soul; the shadow coexistent with the
  soul。  This is the tragedy of effort and failure; the thing Keats
  called hell。  This is my tragedy; as I lie here spent by the
  racecourse; listening to the feet of the runners as they pass me。
  Ah; God!  The swift feet of the runners!〃
  She turned her face away and covered it with her straining
  hands。  Everett crossed over to her quickly and knelt beside her。
  In all the days he had known her she had never before; beyond an
  occasional ironical jest; given voice to the bitterness of her
  own defeat。  Her courage had become a point of pride with him;
  and to see it going sickened him。
  〃Don't do it;〃 he gasped。  〃I can't stand it; I really
  can't; I feel it too much。  We mustn't speak of that; it's too
  tragic and too vast。〃
  When she turned her face back to him there was a ghost of the old;
  brave; cynical smile on it; more bitter than the tears she could
  not shed。  〃No; I won't be so ungenerous; I will save that for the
  watches of the night when I have no better company。  Now you may
  mix me another drink of some sort。  Formerly; when it was not
  if I should ever sing Brunnhilde; but quite simply when I
  should sing Brunnhilde; I was always starving myself and
  thinking what I might drink and what I might not。  But broken music
  boxes may drink whatsoever they list; and no one cares whether they
  lose their figure。  Run over that theme at the beginning again。
  That; at least; is not new。  It was running in his head when we
  were in Venice years ago; and he used to drum it on his glass at
  the dinner table。  He had just begun to work it out when the late
  autumn came on; and the paleness of the Adriatic oppressed him;
  and he decided to go to Florence for the winter; and lost touch
  with the theme during his illness。  Do you remember those
  frightful days?  All the people who have loved him are not strong
  enough to save him from himself!  When I got word from Florence
  that he had been ill I was in Nice filling a concert engagement。
  His wife was hurrying to him from Paris; but I reached him first。
  I arrived at dusk; in a terrific storm。  They had taken an old
  palace there for the winter; and I found him in the librarya
  long; dark room full of old Latin books and heavy furniture and
  bronzes。  He was sitting by a wood fire at one end of the room;
  looking; oh; so worn and pale!as he always does when he is ill;
  you know。  Ah; it is so good that you do know!  Even
  his red smoking jacket lent no color to his face。  His first words
  were not to tell me how ill he had been; but that that morning he
  had been well enough to put the last strokes to the score of his
  Souvenirs d'Automne。  He was as I most like to remember him:
  so calm and happy and tired; not gay; as he usually is; but just
  contented and tired with that heavenly tiredness that comes after
  a good work done at last。  Outside; the rain poured down in
  torrents; and the wind moaned for the pain of all the world and
  sobbed in the branches of the shivering olives and about the walls
  of that desolated old palace。  How that night comes back to me!
  There were no lights in the room; only the wood fire which glowed
  upon the hard features of the bronze Dante; like the reflection of
  purgatorial flames; and threw long black shadows about us; beyond
  us it scarcely penetrated the gloom at all; Adriance sat staring at
  the fire with the weariness of all his life in his eves; and of all
  the other lives that must aspire and suffer to make up one such
  life as his。  Somehow the wind with all its world…pain had got into
  the room; and the cold rain was in our eyes; and the wave came up
  in both of us at oncethat awful; vague; universal pain; that
  cold fear of life and death and God and hopeand we were like
  two clinging together on a spar in midocean after the shipwreck
  of everything。  Then we heard the front door open with a great
  gust of wind that shook