第 72 节
作者:小秋      更新:2021-03-11 17:57      字数:6400
  face。
  Before breakfast the next morning I was out on the beach; trying
  to decide how the inevitable disclosure might be made。 Eunice
  joined me。 Now; when we were alone; I asked if she was really and
  completely happy。 Quietly and sadly she answered: 〃Not yet。〃
  I hardly knew what to say。 My face must have expressed
  disappointment and surprise。
  〃I shall never be quite happy;〃 she resumed; 〃till I know what it
  is that you kept from me on that memorable day。 I don't like
  having a secret from my husbandthough it is not _my_ secret。〃
  〃Remember your promise;〃 I said
  〃I don't forget it;〃 she answered。 〃I can only wish that my
  promise would keep back the thoughts that come to me in spite of
  myself。〃
  〃What thoughts?〃
  〃There is something; as I fear; in the story of my parents which
  you are afraid to confide to me。 Why did Mr。 Gracedieu allow me
  to believe and leave everybody to believe; that I was his own
  child?〃
  〃My dear; I relieved your mind of those doubts on the morning of
  your marriage。〃
  〃No。 I was only thinking of myself at that time。 My motherthe
  doubt of _her_ is the doubt that torments me now。〃
  〃What do you mean?〃
  She put her arm in mine; and held by it with both hands。
  〃The mock…mother!〃 she whispered。 〃Do you remember that dreadful
  Vision; that horrid whispering temptation in the dead of night?
  _Was_ it a mock…mother? Oh; pity me! I don't know who my mother
  was。 One horrid thought about her is a burden on my mind。 If she
  was a good woman; you who love me would surely have made me happy
  by speaking of her?〃
  Those words decided me at last。 Could she suffer more than she
  had suffered already; if I trusted her with the truth? I ran the
  risk。 There was a time of silence that filled me with terror。 The
  interval passed。 She took my hand; and put it to her heart。 〃Does
  it beat as if I was frightened?〃 she asked。
  No! It was beating calmly。
  〃Does it relieve your anxiety?〃
  It told me that I had not surprised her。 That unforgotten Vision
  of the night had prepared her for the worst; after the time when
  I had told her that she was an adopted child。 〃I know;〃 I said;
  〃that those whispered temptations overpowered you again; when you
  and Helena met on the stairs; and you forbade her to enter
  Philip's room。 And I know that love had conquered once more; when
  you were next seen sitting by Philip's bedside。 Tell mehave you
  any misgivings now? Is there fear in your heart of the return of
  that tempting spirit in you; in the time to come?〃
  〃Not while Philip lives!〃
  There; where her love wasthere her safety was。 And she knew it!
  She suddenly left me。 I asked where she was going。
  〃To tell Philip;〃 was the reply。
  She was waiting for me at the door; when I followed her to the
  house。
  〃Is it done?〃 I said。
  〃It is done;〃 she answered。
  〃What did he say?〃
  〃He said: 'My darling; if I could be fonder of you than ever; I
  should be fonder of you now。' 〃
  I have been blamed for being too ready to confide to Philip the
  precious trust of Eunice's happiness。 If that reply does not
  justify me; where is justification to be found?
  POSTSCRIPT。
  LATER in the day; Mrs。 Tenbruggen arrived to offer her
  congratulations。 She asked for a few minutes with Philip alone。
  As a cat elaborates her preparations for killing a mouse; so the
  human cat elaborated her preparations for killing Philip's
  happiness; he remained uninjured by her teeth and her claws。
  〃Somebody;〃 she said; 〃has told you of it already?〃 And Philip
  answered: 〃Yes; my wife。〃
  For some months longer; Mr。 Gracedieu lingered。 One morning; he
  said to Eunice: 〃I want to teach you to knit。 Sit by me; and see
  me do it。〃 His hands fell softly on his lap; his head sank little
  by little on her shoulder。 She could just hear him whisper: 〃How
  pleasant it is to sleep!〃 Never was Death's dreadful work more
  gently done
  Our married pair live now on the paternal estate in Ireland; and
  Miss Jillgall reigns queen of domestic affairs。 I am still strong
  enough to pass my autumn holidays in that pleasant house。
  At times; my memory reverts to Helena Gracedieu; and to what I
  discovered when I had seen her diary。
  How little I knew of that terrible creature when I first met with
  her; and fancied that she had inherited her mother's character!
  It was weak indeed to compare the mean vices of Mrs。 Gracedieu
  with the diabolical depravity of her daughter。 Here the doctrine
  of hereditary transmission of moral qualities must own that it
  has overlooked the fertility (for growth of good and for growth
  of evil equally) which is inherent in human nature。 There are
  virtues that exalt us; and vices that degrade us; whose
  mysterious origin is; not in our parents; but in ourselves。 When
  I think of Helena; I ask myself; where is the trace which reveals
  that the first murder in the world was the product of inherited
  crime?
  The criminal left the prison; on the expiration of her sentence;
  so secretly that it was impossible to trace her。 Some months
  later; Miss Jillgall received an illustrated newspaper published
  in the United States。 She showed me one of the portraits in it。
  〃Do you recognize the illustrious original?〃 she asked; with
  indignant emphasis on the last two words。 I recognized Helena。
  〃Now read her new title;〃 Miss Jillgall continued。
  I read: 〃The Reverend Miss Gracedieu。〃
  The biographical notice followed。 Here is an extract: 〃This
  eminent lady; the victim of a shocking miscarriage of justice in
  England; is now the distinguished leader of a new community in
  the United States。 We hail in her the great intellect which
  asserts the superiority of woman over man。 In the first French
  Revolution; the attempt made by men to found a rational religion
  met with only temporary success。 It was reserved for the mightier
  spirit of woman to lay the foundations more firmly; and to
  dedicate one of the noblest edifices in this city to the Worship
  of Pure Reason。 Readers who wish for further information will do
  well to provide themselves with the Reverend Miss Gracedieu's
  Orationsthe tenth edition of which is advertised in our
  columns。〃
  〃I once asked you;〃 Miss Jillgall reminded me; 〃what Helena would
  do when she came out of prison; and you said she would do very
  well。 Oh; Mr。 Governor; Solomon was nothing to You!〃
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