第 43 节
作者:小秋      更新:2021-03-11 17:56      字数:9322
  attributing the curious omission of the place in which the child
  had been born to the caution of her husband。 If Mrs。 Tenbruggen
  (then Miss Chance) had happened to see the advertisement in the
  great London newspaper; Mr。 Gracedieu might yet have good reason
  to congratulate himself on his prudent method of providing
  against mischievous curiosity。
  I turned toward the bed and looked at him。 His eyes were closed。
  Was he sleeping? Or was he trying to remember what he had desired
  to say to me; when the demands which I made on his memory had
  obliged him to wait for a later opportunity?
  Either way; there was something that quickened my sympathies; in
  the spectacle of his helpless repose。 It suggested to me personal
  reasons for his anxieties; which he had not mentioned; and which
  I had not thought of; up to this time。 If the discovery that he
  dreaded took place; his household would be broken up; and his
  position as pastor would suffer in the estimation of the flock。
  His own daughter would refuse to live under the same roof with
  the daughter of an infamous woman。 Popular opinion; among his
  congregation; judging a man who had passed off the child of other
  parents as his own; would find that man guilty of an act of
  deliberate deceit。
  Still oppressed by reflections which pointed to the future in
  this discouraging way; I was startled by a voice outside the
  doora sweet; sad voicesaying; 〃May I come in?〃
  The Minister's eyes opened instantly: he raised himself in his
  bed。
  〃Eunice; at last!〃 he cried。 〃Let her in。〃
  CHAPTER XXXIX。
  THE ADOPTED CHILD
  I OPENED the door。
  Eunice passed me with the suddenness almost of a flash of light。
  When I turned toward the bed; her arms were round her father's
  neck。 〃Oh; poor papa; how ill you look!〃 Commonplace expressions
  of fondness; and no more; but the tone gave them a charm that
  subdued me。 Never had I felt so indulgent toward Mr。 Gracedieu's
  unreasonable fears as when I saw him in the embrace of his
  adopted daughter。 She had already reminded me of the bygone day
  when a bright little child had sat on my knee and listened to the
  ticking of my watch。
  The Minister gently lifted her head from his breast。 〃My
  darling;〃 he said; 〃you don't see my old friend。 Love him; and
  look up to him; Eunice。 He will be your friend; too; when I am
  gone。〃
  She came to me and offered her cheek to be kissed。 It was sadly
  pale; poor souland I could guess why。 But her heart was now
  full of her father。 〃Do you think he is seriously ill?〃 she
  whispered。 What I ought to have said I don't know。 Her eyes; the
  sweetest; truest; loveliest eyes I ever saw in a human face; were
  pleading with me。 Let my enemies make the worst of it; if they
  likeI did certainly lie。 And if I deserved my punishment; I got
  it; the poor child believed me! 〃Now I am happier;〃 she said;
  gratefully。 〃Only to hear your voice seems to encourage me。 On
  our way here; Selina did nothing but talk of you。 She told me I
  shouldn't have time to feel afraid of the great man; he would
  make me fond of him directly。 I said; 'Are you fond of him?' She
  said; 'Madly in love with him; my dear。' My little friend really
  thinks you like her; and is very proud of it There are some
  people who call her ugly。 I hope you don't agree with them?〃
  I believe I should have lied again; if Mr。 Gracedieu had not
  called me to the bedside
  〃How does she strike you?〃 he whispered; eagerly。 〃Is it too soon
  to ask if she shows her age in her face?〃
  〃Neither in her face nor her figure;〃 I answered: 〃it astonishes
  me that you can ever have doubted it。 No stranger; judging by
  personal appearance; could fail to make the mistake of thinking
  Helena the oldest of the two。〃
  He looked fondly at Eunice。 〃Her figure seems to bear out what
  you say;〃 he went on。 〃Almost childish; isn't it?〃
  I could not agree to that。 Slim; supple; simply graceful in every
  movement; Eunice's figure; in the charm of first youth; only
  waited its perfect development。 Most men; looking at her as she
  stood at the other end of the room with her back toward us; would
  have guessed her age to be sixteen。
  Finding that I failed to agree with him; Mr。 Gracedieu's
  misgivings returned。 〃You speak very confidently;〃 he said;
  〃considering that you have not seen the girls together。 Think
  what a dreadful blow it would be to me if you made a mistake。〃
  I declared; with perfect sincerity; that there was no fear of a
  mistake。 The bare idea of making the proposed comparison was
  hateful to me。 If Helena and I had happened to meet at that
  moment; I should have turned away from her by instinctshe would
  have disturbed my impressions of Eunice。
  The Minister signed to me to move a little nearer to him。 〃I must
  say it;〃 he whispered; 〃and I am afraid of her hearing me。 Is
  there anything in her face that reminds you of her miserable
  mother?〃
  I had hardly patience to answer the question: it was simply
  preposterous。 Her hair was by many shades darker than her
  mother's hair; her eyes were of a different color。 There was an
  exquisite tenderness and sincerity in their expressionmade
  additionally beautiful; to my mind; by a gentle; uncomplaining
  sadness。 It was impossible even to think of the eyes of the
  murderess when I looked at her child。 Eunice's lower features;
  again; had none of her mother's regularity of p roportion。 Her
  smile; simple and sweet; and soon passing away; was certainly not
  an inherited smile on the maternal side。 Whether she resembled
  her father; I was unable to conjecturehaving never seen him。
  The one thing certain was; that not the faintest trace; in
  feature or expression; of Eunice's mother was to be seen in
  Eunice herself。 Of the two girls; Helenajudging by something in
  the color of her hair; and by something in the shade of her
  complexionmight possibly have suggested; in those particulars
  only; a purely accidental resemblance to my terrible prisoner of
  past times。
  The revival of Mr。 Gracedieu's spirits indicated a temporary
  change only; and was already beginning to pass away。 The eyes
  which had looked lovingly at Eunice began to look languidly now:
  his head sank on the pillow with a sigh of weak content。 〃My
  pleasure has been almost too much for me;〃 he said。 〃Leave me for
  a while to rest; and get used to it。〃
  Eunice kissed his foreheadand we left the room。
  CHAPTER XL。
  THE BRUISED HEART。
  WHEN we stepped out on the landing; I observed that my companion
  paused。 She looked at the two flights of stairs below us before
  she descended them。 It occurred to me that there must be somebody
  in the house whom she was anxious to avoid。
  Arrived at the lower hall; she paused again; and proposed in a
  whisper that we should go into the garden。 As we advanced along
  the backward division of the hall; I saw her eyes turn
  distrustfully toward the door of the room in which Helena had
  received me。 At last; my slow perceptions felt with her and
  understood her。 Eunice's sensitive nature recoiled from a chance
  meeting with the wretch who had laid waste all that had once been
  happy and hopeful in that harmless young life。
  〃Will you come with me to the part of the garden that I am
  fondest of?〃 she asked。
  I offered her my arm。 She led me in silence to a rustic seat;
  placed under the shade of a mulberry tree。 I saw a change in her
  face as we sat downa tender and beautiful change。 At that
  moment the girl's heart was far away from me。 There was some
  association with this corner of the garden; on which I felt that
  I must not intrude。
  〃I was once very happy here;〃 she said。 〃When the time of the
  heartache came soon after; I was afraid to look at the old tree
  and the bench under it。 But that is all over now。 I like to
  remember the hours that were once dear to me; and to see the
  place that recalls them。 Do you know who I am thinking of? Don't
  be afraid of distressing me。 I never cry now。〃
  〃My dear child; I have heard your sad storybut I can't trust
  myself to speak of it。〃
  〃Because you are so sorry for me?〃
  〃No words can say how sorry I am!〃
  〃But you are not angry with Philip?〃
  〃Not angry! My poor dear; I am afraid to tell you how angry I am
  with him。〃
  〃Oh; no! You mustn't say that。 If you wish to be kind to meand
  I am sure you do wish itdon't think bitterly of Philip。〃
  When I remember that the first feeling she roused in me was
  nothing worthier of a professing Christian than astonishment; I
  drop in my own estimation to the level of a savage。 〃Do you
  really mean;〃 I was base enough to ask; 〃that you have forgiven
  him?〃
  She said; gently: 〃How could I help forgiving him?〃
  The man who could have been blessed with such love as this; and
  who could have cast it away from him; can have been nothing but
  an idiot。 On that groundthough I dared not confess it to
  EuniceI forgave him; too。
  〃Do I surprise you?〃 she asked simply。 〃Perhaps love will bear
  any humiliation。 Or perhaps I am only a poor weak creature。 You
  don't know what a comfort it was to me to keep the few letters
  that I received from Philip。 When I heard that he had gone away;
  I gave his letters the kiss that bade him good…by。 That was the
  time; I think; when my poor bruised heart got used to the pain;