第 34 节
作者:恐龙王      更新:2021-03-08 19:21      字数:9322
  and then to glance in at the lodge over the spiked wicket; and see
  the fire and light of the watching turnkeys; on the white wall。
  Not an inappropriate time either; to linger by that wicked little
  Debtors' Door … shutting tighter than any other door one ever saw …
  which has been Death's Door to so many。  In the days of the
  uttering of forged one…pound notes by people tempted up from the
  country; how many hundreds of wretched creatures of both sexes …
  many quite innocent … swung out of a pitiless and inconsistent
  world; with the tower of yonder Christian church of Saint Sepulchre
  monstrously before their eyes!  Is there any haunting of the Bank
  Parlour; by the remorseful souls of old directors; in the nights of
  these later days; I wonder; or is it as quiet as this degenerate
  Aceldama of an Old Bailey?
  To walk on to the Bank; lamenting the good old times and bemoaning
  the present evil period; would be an easy next step; so I would
  take it; and would make my houseless circuit of the Bank; and give
  a thought to the treasure within; likewise to the guard of soldiers
  passing the night there; and nodding over the fire。  Next; I went
  to Billingsgate; in some hope of market…people; but it proving as
  yet too early; crossed London…bridge and got down by the water…side
  on the Surrey shore among the buildings of the great brewery。
  There was plenty going on at the brewery; and the reek; and the
  smell of grains; and the rattling of the plump dray horses at their
  mangers; were capital company。  Quite refreshed by having mingled
  with this good society; I made a new start with a new heart;
  setting the old King's Bench prison before me for my next object;
  and resolving; when I should come to the wall; to think of poor
  Horace Kinch; and the Dry Rot in men。
  A very curious disease the Dry Rot in men; and difficult to detect
  the beginning of。  It had carried Horace Kinch inside the wall of
  the old King's Bench prison; and it had carried him out with his
  feet foremost。  He was a likely man to look at; in the prime of
  life; well to do; as clever as he needed to be; and popular among
  many friends。  He was suitably married; and had healthy and pretty
  children。  But; like some fair…looking houses or fair…looking
  ships; he took the Dry Rot。  The first strong external revelation
  of the Dry Rot in men; is a tendency to lurk and lounge; to be at
  street…corners without intelligible reason; to be going anywhere
  when met; to be about many places rather than at any; to do nothing
  tangible; but to have an intention of performing a variety of
  intangible duties to…morrow or the day after。  When this
  manifestation of the disease is observed; the observer will usually
  connect it with a vague impression once formed or received; that
  the patient was living a little too hard。  He will scarcely have
  had leisure to turn it over in his mind and form the terrible
  suspicion 'Dry Rot;' when he will notice a change for the worse in
  the patient's appearance:  a certain slovenliness and
  deterioration; which is not poverty; nor dirt; nor intoxication;
  nor ill…health; but simply Dry Rot。  To this; succeeds a smell as
  of strong waters; in the morning; to that; a looseness respecting
  money; to that; a stronger smell as of strong waters; at all times;
  to that; a looseness respecting everything; to that; a trembling of
  the limbs; somnolency; misery; and crumbling to pieces。  As it is
  in wood; so it is in men。  Dry Rot advances at a compound usury
  quite incalculable。  A plank is found infected with it; and the
  whole structure is devoted。  Thus it had been with the unhappy
  Horace Kinch; lately buried by a small subscription。  Those who
  knew him had not nigh done saying; 'So well off; so comfortably
  established; with such hope before him … and yet; it is feared;
  with a slight touch of Dry Rot!' when lo! the man was all Dry Rot
  and dust。
  From the dead wall associated on those houseless nights with this
  too common story; I chose next to wander by Bethlehem Hospital;
  partly; because it lay on my road round to Westminster; partly;
  because I had a night fancy in my head which could be best pursued
  within sight of its walls and dome。  And the fancy was this:  Are
  not the sane and the insane equal at night as the sane lie a
  dreaming?  Are not all of us outside this hospital; who dream; more
  or less in the condition of those inside it; every night of our
  lives?  Are we not nightly persuaded; as they daily are; that we
  associate preposterously with kings and queens; emperors and
  empresses; and notabilities of all sorts?  Do we not nightly jumble
  events and personages and times and places; as these do daily?  Are
  we not sometimes troubled by our own sleeping inconsistencies; and
  do we not vexedly try to account for them or excuse them; just as
  these do sometimes in respect of their waking delusions?  Said an
  afflicted man to me; when I was last in a hospital like this; 'Sir;
  I can frequently fly。'  I was half ashamed to reflect that so could
  I … by night。  Said a woman to me on the same occasion; 'Queen
  Victoria frequently comes to dine with me; and her Majesty and I
  dine off peaches and maccaroni in our night…gowns; and his Royal
  Highness the Prince Consort does us the honour to make a third on
  horseback in a Field…Marshal's uniform。'  Could I refrain from
  reddening with consciousness when I remembered the amazing royal
  parties I myself had given (at night); the unaccountable viands I
  had put on table; and my extraordinary manner of conducting myself
  on those distinguished occasions?  I wonder that the great master
  who knew everything; when he called Sleep the death of each day's
  life; did not call Dreams the insanity of each day's sanity。
  By this time I had left the Hospital behind me; and was again
  setting towards the river; and in a short breathing space I was on
  Westminster…bridge; regaling my houseless eyes with the external
  walls of the British Parliament … the perfection of a stupendous
  institution; I know; and the admiration of all surrounding nations
  and succeeding ages; I do not doubt; but perhaps a little the
  better now and then for being pricked up to its work。  Turning off
  into Old Palace…yard; the Courts of Law kept me company for a
  quarter of an hour; hinting in low whispers what numbers of people
  they were keeping awake; and how intensely wretched and horrible
  they were rendering the small hours to unfortunate suitors。
  Westminster Abbey was fine gloomy society for another quarter of an
  hour; suggesting a wonderful procession of its dead among the dark
  arches and pillars; each century more amazed by the century
  following it than by all the centuries going before。  And indeed in
  those houseless night walks … which even included cemeteries where
  watchmen went round among the graves at stated times; and moved the
  tell…tale handle of an index which recorded that they had touched
  it at such an hour … it was a solemn consideration what enormous
  hosts of dead belong to one old great city; and how; if they were
  raised while the living slept; there would not be the space of a
  pin's point in all the streets and ways for the living to come out
  into。  Not only that; but the vast armies of dead would overflow
  the hills and valleys beyond the city; and would stretch away all
  round it; God knows how far。
  When a church clock strikes; on houseless ears in the dead of the
  night; it may be at first mistaken for company and hailed as such。
  But; as the spreading circles of vibration; which you may perceive
  at such a time with great clearness; go opening out; for ever and
  ever afterwards widening perhaps (as the philosopher has suggested)
  in eternal space; the mistake is rectified and the sense of
  loneliness is profounder。  Once … it was after leaving the Abbey
  and turning my face north … I came to the great steps of St。
  Martin's church as the clock was striking Three。  Suddenly; a thing
  that in a moment more I should have trodden upon without seeing;
  rose up at my feet with a cry of loneliness and houselessness;
  struck out of it by the bell; the like of which I never heard。  We
  then stood face to face looking at one another; frightened by one
  another。  The creature was like a beetle…browed hair…lipped youth
  of twenty; and it had a loose bundle of rags on; which it held
  together with one of its hands。  It shivered from head to foot; and
  its teeth chattered; and as it stared at me … persecutor; devil;
  ghost; whatever it thought me … it made with its whining mouth as
  if it were snapping at me; like a worried dog。  Intending to give
  this ugly object money; I put out my hand to stay it … for it
  recoiled as it whined and snapped … and laid my hand upon its
  shoulder。  Instantly; it twisted out of its garment; like the young
  man in the New Testament; and left me standing alone with its rags
  in my hands。
  Covent…garden Market; when it was market morning; was wonderful
  company。  The great w