第 20 节
作者:寻找山吹      更新:2021-02-27 02:12      字数:9322
  heads; 〃that was an excellent theme your roommate handed in。  I had no
  idea that he possessed suchsuch genius。  Did you; by any chance; happen
  to read it?〃
  〃Yes; sir;I read it。〃
  〃Weren't you surprised?〃 inquired Mr。 Cheyne。
  〃Well; yes; sirthat isI mean to say he talks just like that;
  sometimesthat is; when it's anything he cares about。〃
  〃Indeed!〃 said Mr。 Cheyne。  〃That's interesting; most interesting。  In
  all my experience; I do not remember a case in which a gift has been
  developed so rapidly。  I don't want to give the impressionah that there
  is no room for improvement; but the thing was very well done; for an
  undergraduate。  I must confess I never should have suspected it in
  Peters; and it's most interesting what you say about his cleverness in
  conversation。〃  He twirled the head of his stick; apparently lost in
  reflection。  〃I may be wrong;〃 he went on presently; 〃I have an idea it
  is you〃  I must literally have jumped away from him。  He paused a
  moment; without apparently noticing my panic; 〃that it is you who have
  influenced Peters。〃
  〃Sir?〃
  〃I am wrong; then。  Or is this merely commendable modesty on your part?〃
  〃Oh; no; sir。〃
  〃Then my hypothesis falls to the ground。  I had greatly hoped;〃 he added
  meaningly; 〃that you might be able to throw some light on this mystery。
  I was dumb。
  〃Paret;〃 he asked; 〃have you time to come over to my rooms for a few
  minutes this evening?〃
  〃Certainly; sir。〃
  He gave me his number in Brattle Street。。。。
  Like one running in a nightmare and making no progress I made my way
  home; only to learn from Hallam;who lived on the same floor;that Tom
  had inconsiderately gone to Boston for the evening; with four other weary
  spirits in search of relaxation!  Avoiding our club table; I took what
  little nourishment I could at a modest restaurant; and restlessly paced
  the moonlit streets until eight o'clock; when I found myself in front of
  one of those low…gabled colonial houses which; on less soul…shaking
  occasions; had exercised a great charm on my imagination。  My hand hung
  for an instant over the bell。。。。  I must have rung it violently; for
  there appeared almost immediately an old lady in a lace cap; who greeted
  me with gentle courtesy; and knocked at a little door with glistening
  panels。  The latch was lifted by Mr。 Cheyne himself。
  〃Come in; Paret;〃 he said; in a tone that was unexpectedly hospitable。
  I have rarely seen a more inviting room。  A wood fire burned brightly on
  the brass andirons; flinging its glare on the big; white beam that
  crossed the ceiling; and reddening the square panes of the windows in
  their panelled recesses。  Between these were rows of books;attractive
  books in chased bindings; red and blue; books that appealed to be taken
  down and read。  There was a table covered with reviews and magazines in
  neat piles; and a lamp so shaded as to throw its light only on the white
  blotter of the pad。  Two easy chairs; covered with flowered chintz; were
  ranged before the fire; in one of which I sank; much bewildered; upon
  being urged to do so。
  I utterly failed to recognize 〃Alonzo〃 in this new atmosphere。  And he
  had; moreover; dropped the subtly sarcastic manner I was wont to
  associate with him。
  〃Jolly old house; isn't it?〃 he observed; as though I had casually
  dropped in on him for a chat; and he stood; with his hands behind him
  stretched to the blaze; looking down at me。  〃It was built by a certain
  Colonel Draper; who fought at Louisburg; and afterwards fled to England
  at the time of the Revolution。  He couldn't stand the patriots; I'm not
  so sure that I blame him; either。  Are you interested in colonial things;
  Mr。 Paret?〃
  I said I was。  If the question had concerned Aztec relics my answer would
  undoubtedly have been the same。  And I watched him; dazedly; while he
  took down a silver porringer from the shallow mantel shelf。
  〃It's not a Revere;〃 he said; in a slightly apologetic tone as though to
  forestall a comment; 〃but it's rather good; I think。  I picked it up at a
  sale in Dorchester。  But I have never been able to identify the coat of
  arms。〃
  He showed me a ladle; with the names of 〃Patience and William Simpson〃
  engraved quaintly thereon; and took down other articles in which I
  managed to feign an interest。  Finally he seated himself in the chair
  opposite; crossed his feet; putting the tips of his fingers together and
  gazing into the fire。
  〃So you thought you could fool me;〃 he said; at length。
  I became aware of the ticking of a great clock in the corner。  My mouth
  was dry。
  〃I am going to forgive you;〃 he went on; more gravely; 〃for several
  reasons。  I don't flatter; as you know。  It's because you carried out the
  thing so perfectly that I am led to think you have a gift that may be
  cultivated; Paret。  You wrote that theme in the way Peters would have
  written it if he had not beenwhat shall I say?scripturally
  inarticulate。  And I trust it may do you some good if I say it was
  something of a literary achievement; if not a moral one。〃
  〃Thank you; sir;〃 I faltered。
  〃Have you ever;〃 he inquired; lapsing a little into his lecture…room
  manner; 〃seriously thought of literature as a career?  Have you ever
  thought of any career seriously?〃
  〃I once wished to be a writer; sir;〃 I replied tremulously; but refrained
  from telling him of my father's opinion of the profession。  Ambitiona
  purer ambition than I had known for yearsleaped within me at his words。
  He; Alonzo Cheyne; had detected in me the Promethean fire!
  I sat there until ten o'clock talking to the real Mr。 Cheyne; a human Mr。
  Cheyne unknown in the lecture…room。  Nor had I suspected one in whom
  cynicism and distrust of undergraduates (of my sort) seemed so ingrained;
  of such idealism。  He did not pour it out in preaching; delicately;
  unobtrusively and on the whole rather humorously he managed to present to
  me in a most disillusionizing light that conception of the university
  held by me and my intimate associates。  After I had left him I walked the
  quiet streets to behold as through dissolving mists another Harvard; and
  there trembled in my soul like the birth…struggle of a flame something of
  the vision later to be immortalized by St。 Gaudens; the spirit of Harvard
  responding to the spirit of the Republicto the call of Lincoln; who
  voiced it。  The place of that bronze at the corner of Boston Common was
  as yet empty; but I have since stood before it to gaze in wonder at the
  light shining in darkness on mute; uplifted faces ;black faces! at
  Harvard's son leading them on that the light might live and prevail。
  I; too; longed for a Cause into which I might fling myself; in which I
  might lose myself。。。  I halted on the sidewalk to find myself staring
  from the opposite side of the street at a familiar house; my old
  landlady's; Mrs。 Bolton's; and summoned up before me was the tired;
  smiling face of Hermann Krebs。  Was it because when he had once spoken so
  crudely of the University I had seen the reflection of her spirit in his
  eyes?  A light still burned in the extension roofKrebs's light; another
  shone dimly through the ground glass of the front door。  Obeying a sudden
  impulse; I crossed the street。
  Mrs。 Bolton; in the sky…blue wrapper; and looking more forbidding than
  ever; answered the bell。  Life had taught her to be indifferent to
  surprises; and it was I who became abruptly embarrassed。
  〃Oh; it's you; Mr。 Paret;〃 she said; as though I had been a frequent
  caller。  I had never once darkened her threshold since I had left her
  house。
  〃Yes;〃 I answered; and hesitated。。。。  〃Is Mr。 Krebs in?〃
  〃Well;〃 she replied in a lifeless tone; which nevertheless had in it a
  touch of bitterness; 〃I guess there's no reason why you and your friends
  should have known he was sick。〃
  〃Sick!〃 I repeated。  〃Is he very sick?〃
  〃I calculate he'll pull through;〃 she said。  〃Sunday the doctor gave him
  up。  And no wonder!  He hasn't had any proper food since he's be'n here!〃
  She paused; eyeing me。  〃If you'll excuse me; Mr。 Paret; I was just going
  up to him when you rang。〃
  〃Certainly;〃 I replied awkwardly。  〃Would you be so kind as to tell him
  when he's well enoughthat I came to see him; and that I'm sorry?〃
  There was another pause; and she stood with a hand defensively clutching
  the knob。
  〃Yes; I'll tell him;〃 she said。
  With a sense of having been baffled; I turned away。
  Walking back toward the Yard my attention was attracted by a slowly
  approaching cab whose occupants were disturbing the quiet of the night
  with song。
  Shollity'tis wine; 'tis wine; That makeshshollity。〃
  The vehicle drew up in front of a new and commodious building;I believe
  the first of those designed to house undergraduates who were willing to
  pay for private bathrooms and other modern luxuries; out of one window of
  the cab protruded a pair of shoeless feet; out of the other a hatless
  head I recognized as belonging to Tom Peters; hence I surmised that the
  feet were his also。  The driver got down from the box; and a lively
  argument was begun insidefor there were other occupantsas to how Mr。
  Peters was to be disembarked; and I gathered from his frequent references
  to the 〃Shgyptian obelisk〃 that the engin