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作者:悟来悟去      更新:2021-02-25 00:56      字数:9322
  of relief。 It was only a woman; and she dead。 He knelt beside her to make
  sure upon this latter point。 She was freezing cold; and rigid like a stick。 A
  little ragged finery fluttered in the wind about her hair; and her cheeks had
  been heavily rouged that same afternoon。 Her pockets were quite empty;
  but in her stocking; underneath the garter; Villon found two of the small
  coins   that   went   by   the   name   of   whites。   It   was   little   enough;   but   it   was
  always something; and the poet was moved with a deep sense of pathos
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  that she should have died before she had spent her money。 That seemed to
  him a dark and pitiable mystery; and he looked from the coins in his hand
  to the dead woman; and back again to the coins; shaking his head over the
  riddle of man's life。 Henry V。 of England; dying at Vincennes just after he
  had conquered France; and   this poor jade   cut off by a   cold draught in   a
  great man's doorway before she had time to spend her couple of whitesit
  seemed a cruel way to carry on the world。 Two whites would have taken
  such a little while to squander; and yet it would have been one more good
  taste in the   mouth; one more   smack   of   the lips; before the devil   got  the
  soul; and the body was left to birds and vermin。 He would like to use all
  his tallow before the light was blown out and the lantern broken。
  While these thoughts were passing through his mind; he was feeling;
  half   mechanically;   for   his   purse。   Suddenly   his   heart   stopped   beating;   a
  feeling   of   cold   scales   passed   up   the   back   of   his   legs;   and   a   cold   blow
  seemed to fall upon his scalp。 He stood petrified for a moment; then he felt
  again with one feverish movement; then his loss burst upon him; and he
  was covered at once with perspiration。 To spendthrifts money is so living
  and actualit is such a thin veil between them and their pleasures! There is
  only one limit to their fortunethat of time; and a spendthrift with only a
  few crowns is the Emperor of Rome until they are spent。 For such a person
  to   lose   his   money   is   to   suffer   the   most   shocking   reverse;   and   fall   from
  heaven to hell; from all to nothing; in a breath。 And all the more if he has
  put his head in the halter for it; if he may be hanged to…morrow for that
  same   purse;   so   dearly   earned;   so   foolishly   departed!   Villon   stood   and
  cursed; he threw the two whites into the street; he shook his fist at heaven;
  he   stamped;   and   was   not   horrified   to   find   himself   trampling   the   poor
  corpse。 Then he began rapidly to retrace his steps toward the house beside
  the cemetery。 He had forgotten all fear of the patrol; which was long gone
  by at any rate; and had no idea but that of his lost purse。 It was in vain that
  he looked right and left upon the snow; nothing was to be seen。 He had not
  dropped it in the streets。 Had it fallen in the house? He would have liked
  dearly to go in and see; but the idea of the grisly occupant unmanned him。
  And he saw besides; as he drew near; that their efforts to put out the fire
  had been unsuccessful; on the contrary; it had broken into a blaze; and a
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  changeful light played in the chinks of door and window; and revived his
  terror for the authorities and Paris gibbet。
  He   returned   to   the   hotel   with   the   porch;   and   groped   about   upon   the
  snow for the money he had thrown away in his childish passion。 But he
  could   only   find   one   white;   the   other   had   probably   struck   sideways   and
  sunk   deeply   in。  With   a   single   white   in   his   pocket;   all   his   projects   for   a
  rousing night in some wild tavern vanished utterly away。 And it was not
  only    pleasure     that  fled   laughing    from    his  grasp;    positive    discomfort;
  positive   pain;   attacked   him   as   he   stood   ruefully   before   the   porch。   His
  perspiration had dried upon him; and although the wind had now fallen; a
  binding      frost  was    setting   in   stronger    with    every    hour;   and    he   felt
  benumbed and sick at heart。 What was to be done? Late as was the hour;
  improbable   as   was   his   success;   he   would   try   the   house   of   his   adopted
  father; the chaplain of St。 Benoit。
  He   ran   all   the   way;   and   knocked   timidly。   There   was   no   answer。   He
  knocked again and again; taking heart with every stroke; and at last steps
  were heard approaching from within。 A barred wicket fell open in the iron…
  studded door; and emitted a gush of yellow light。
  〃Hold up your face to the wicket;〃 said the chaplain from within。
  〃It's only me;〃 whimpered Villon。
  〃Oh; it's only you; is it?〃 returned the chaplain; and he cursed him with
  foul; unpriestly oaths for disturbing him at such an hour; and bade him be
  off to hell; where he came from。
  〃My  hands   are   blue to   the   wrist;〃 pleaded Villon;   〃my  feet   are   dead
  and full of twinges; my nose aches with the sharp air; the cold lies at my
  heart。 I may be dead before morning。 Only this once; father; and; before
  God; I will never ask again!〃
  〃You should have come earlier;〃 said the ecclesiastic; coolly。 〃Young
  men     require   a  lesson    now    and   then。〃   He   shut   the   wicket    and   retired
  deliberately into the interior of the house。
  Villon was beside himself; he beat upon the door with his hands and
  feet; and shouted hoarsely after the chaplain。
  〃Wormy   old   fox!〃   he   cried。   〃If   I   had   my   hand   under   your   twist;   I
  would send you flying headlong into the bottomless pit。〃
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  A   door   shut   in   the   interior;   faintly   audible   to   the   poet   down   long
  passages。 He passed his hand over his mouth with an oath。 And then the
  humour of the situation struck him; and he laughed and looked lightly up
  to heaven; where the stars seemed to be winking over his discomfiture。
  What was to be done? It looked very like a night in the frosty streets。
  The idea of the dead woman popped into his imagination; and gave him a
  hearty fright; what had happened to her in the early night might very well
  happen to him before morning。 And he so young! And with such immense
  possibilities   of   disorderly   amusement   before   him!   He   felt   quite   pathetic
  over the notion of his own fate; as if it had been some one else's; and made
  a little imaginative vignette of the scene in the morning when they should
  find his body。
  He passed all his chances under review; turning the white between his
  thumb and forefinger。 Unfortunately he was on bad terms with some old
  friends who would once have taken pity on him in such a plight。 He had
  lampooned them in verses; he had beaten and cheated them; and yet now;
  when he was in so close a pinch; he thought there was at least one who
  might perhaps relent。 It was a chance。 It was worth trying at least; and he
  would go and see。
  On the way; two little accidents happened to him which coloured his
  musings in a very different manner。 For; first; he fell in with the track of a
  patrol; and walked in it for some hundred yards; although it lay out of his
  direction。 And this spirited him up; at least he had confused his trail; for he
  was   still   possessed   with   the   idea   of   people   tracking   him   all   about   Paris
  over the snow; and collaring him next morning before he was awake。 The
  other    matter    affected   him    quite   differently。   He   passed    a  street…corner
  where; not so long before; a woman and her child had been devoured by
  wolves。   This   was   just   the   kind   of   weather;   he   reflected;   when   wolves
  might take it into their heads to enter Paris again; and a lone man in these
  deserted   streets   would   run   the   chance   of   something   worse   than   a   mere
  scare。 He stopped and looked upon the place with an unpleasant interestit
  was   a   centre   where   several   lanes   intersected   each   other;   and   he   looked
  down   them   all;   one   after   another;   and   held   his   breath   to   listen;   lest   he
  should detect some galloping black things on the snow or hear the sound
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  of howling between him and the river。 He remembered his mother telling
  him   the   story   and   pointing   out   the   spot;   while   he   was   yet   a   child