第 23 节
作者:怀疑一切      更新:2021-02-24 23:08      字数:9322
  chest;   the   long   supple   hand   still   holding   the   pan…pipes   only   just   fallen
  away  from  the   parted   lips;   saw   the  splendid   curves   of the   shaggy  limbs
  disposed in majestic ease on the sward; saw; last of all; nestling between
  his   very   hooves;   sleeping   soundly   in   entire   peace   and   contentment;   the
  little; round; podgy; childish form of the baby otter。 All this he saw; for one
  moment breathless and intense; vivid on the morning sky; and still; as he
  looked; he lived; and still; as he lived; he wondered。
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  ‘Rat!' he found breath to whisper; shaking。 ‘Are you afraid?'
  ‘Afraid?'   murmured   the   Rat;   his   eyes   shining   with   unutterable   love。
  ‘Afraid!   Of   HIM?   O;   never;   never!   And   yetand   yet   O;   Mole;   I   am
  afraid!'
  Then the two animals; crouching to the earth; bowed their heads and
  did worship。
  Sudden   and   magnificent;   the   sun's   broad   golden   disc   showed   itself
  over the horizon facing them; and the first rays; shooting across the level
  water…meadows; took the animals full in the eyes and dazzled them。 When
  they were able to look once more; the Vision had vanished; and the air was
  full of the carol of birds that hailed the dawn。
  As   they   stared     blankly。   in   dumb   misery   deepening   as   they   slowly
  realised all they had seen and all they had lost; a capricious little breeze;
  dancing   up   from   the   surface   of   the   water;   tossed   the   aspens;   shook   the
  dewy  roses   and   blew   lightly   and   caressingly  in   their   faces;   and   with   its
  soft touch came instant oblivion。 For this is the last best gift that the kindly
  demi… god is careful to bestow on those to whom he has revealed himself
  in   their   helping:   the   gift   of   forgetfulness。   Lest   the   awful   remembrance
  should   remain   and   grow;   and   overshadow   mirth   and   pleasure;   and   the
  great   haunting   memory   should   spoil   all   the   after…lives   of   little   animals
  helped      out   of   difficulties;   in   order    that   they   should     be   happy     and
  lighthearted as before。
  Mole rubbed his eyes and stared at Rat; who was looking about him in
  a   puzzled   sort   of   way。   ‘I   beg   your   pardon;   what   did   you   say;   Rat?'   he
  asked。
  ‘I think I was only remarking;' said Rat slowly; ‘that this was the right
  sort of place; and that here; if anywhere; we should find him。 And look!
  Why;   there   he   is;   the   little   fellow!'   And   with   a   cry   of   delight   he   ran
  towards the slumbering Portly。
  But   Mole   stood   still   a   moment;   held   in      thought。   As   one   wakened
  suddenly  from  a   beautiful   dream;   who   struggles   to   recall it;   and   can   re…
  capture nothing but a dim sense of the beauty of it; the beauty! Till that;
  too; fades away in its turn; and the dreamer bitterly accepts the hard; cold
  waking and all its penalties; so Mole; after struggling with his memory for
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  a brief space; shook his head sadly and followed the Rat。
  Portly woke up   with a   joyous squeak;  and wriggled   with pleasure   at
  the sight of his father's friends; who had played with him so often in past
  days。 In a moment; however; his face grew blank; and he fell to hunting
  round in a circle with pleading whine。 As a child that has fallen happily
  asleep   in   its   nurse's   arms;   and   wakes   to   find   itself   alone   and   laid   in   a
  strange place; and searches corners and cupboards; and runs from room to
  room;   despair   growing   silently   in   its   heart;   even   so   Portly   searched   the
  island and searched; dogged and unwearying; till at last the black moment
  came for giving it up; and sitting down and crying bitterly。
  The Mole ran quickly to comfort the little animal; but Rat; lingering;
  looked long and doubtfully at certain hoof…marks deep in the sward。
  ‘Somegreatanimalhas          been    here;'   he   murmured       slowly     and
  thoughtfully; and stood musing; musing; his mind strangely stirred。
  ‘Come along; Rat!' called the Mole。 ‘Think of poor Otter; waiting up
  there by the ford!'
  Portly had soon been comforted by the promise of a treata jaunt on
  the river in Mr。 Rat's real boat; and the two animals conducted him to the
  water's side; placed him securely between them in the bottom of the boat;
  and paddled off down the backwater。 The sun was fully up by now; and
  hot on them; birds sang lustily and without restraint; and flowers smiled
  and nodded from either bank; but somehowso thought the animalswith
  less of richness and blaze of colour than they seemed to remember seeing
  quite recently somewherethey wondered where。
  The   main   river   reached   again;   they   turned   the   boat's   head   upstream;
  towards   the   point   where   they   knew   their   friend   was   keeping   his   lonely
  vigil。 As they drew near the familiar ford; the Mole took the boat in to the
  bank; and they lifted Portly out and set him on his legs on the tow…path;
  gave him his marching orders and a friendly farewell pat on the back; and
  shoved out into mid…stream。 They watched the little animal as he waddled
  along the path contentedly and with importance; watched him till they saw
  his muzzle suddenly lift and his waddle break into a clumsy amble as he
  quickened      his   pace   with    shrill  whines    and    wriggles    of  recognition。
  Looking up the river; they could see Otter start up; tense and rigid; from
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  out of the shallows where he crouched in dumb patience; and could hear
  his amazed and joyous bark as he bounded up through the osiers on to the
  path。 Then the Mole; with a strong pull on one oar; swung the boat round
  and let the full stream bear them down again whither it would; their quest
  now happily ended。
  ‘I feel strangely tired; Rat;' said the Mole; leaning wearily over his oars
  as the boat drifted。 ‘It's being up all night; you'll say; perhaps; but that's
  nothing。 We   do   as   much   half  the  nights of   the   week;  at this   time   of   the
  year。 No; I feel as if I had been through something very exciting and rather
  terrible; and it was just over; and yet nothing particular has happened。'
  ‘Or something very surprising and splendid and beautiful;' murmured
  the Rat; leaning back and closing his eyes。 ‘I feel just as you do;  Mole;
  simply dead tired; though not body tired。 It's lucky we've got the stream
  with us; to take us home。 Isn't it jolly to feel the sun again; soaking into
  one's bones! And hark to the wind playing in the reeds!'
  ‘It's like musicfar away music;' said the Mole nodding drowsily。
  ‘So I was thinking;' murmured the Rat; dreamful and languid。 ‘Dance…
  musicthe   lilting   sort   that   runs   on   without   a   stopbut   with   words   in   it;
  tooit passes into words and out of them againI catch them at intervals
  then it is dance…music once more; and then nothing but the reeds' soft thin
  whispering。'
  ‘You hear better than I;' said the Mole sadly。 ‘I cannot catch the words。'
  ‘Let me try and give you them;' said the Rat softly; his eyes still closed。
  ‘Now it is turning into words againfaint but clear Lest the awe should
  dwellAnd   turn   your   frolic   to   fretYou   shall   look   on   my   power   at   the
  helping hourBut then you shall forget! Now the reeds take it upforget;
  forget; they sigh; and it dies away in a rustle and a whisper。 Then the voice
  returns
  ‘Lest   limbs   be   reddened   and   rentI   spring   the   trap   that   is   setAs   I
  loose   the   snare   you   may   glimpse   me   thereFor   surely   you   shall   forget!
  Row nearer; Mole; nearer to the reeds! It is hard to catch; and grows each
  minute fainter。
  ‘Helper and healer; I cheerSmall waifs in the woodland wet Strays I
  find   in   it;   wounds   I   bind   in   itBidding   them   all   forget!   Nearer;   Mole;
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  nearer! No; it is no good; the song has died away into reed…talk。'
  ‘But what do the words mean?' asked the wondering Mole。
  ‘That I do not know;' said the Rat simply。 ‘I passed them on to you as
  they reached me。 Ah! now they return again; and this time full and clear!
  This time; at last; it is the real; the unmistakable thing; simplepassionate…
  …perfect'
  ‘Wel